Wow, I can’t believe I have made it a 2year and a half without you here. The day you died was the day that I realized that I will never, EVER, be the same. I lost you but I gained something in return. And that something is the ability to honor you and keep your soul alive while inspiring others. I miss you more than words could ever say. They tell me you’re in a better place now, but I know where you so badly wanted to stay.. and that was here with us. They say it was “your time to go” but why? why was it your time to go? There’s so much that you will miss out on and it breaks my heart.

It was not your time to go, and life is not fair, but because of you I find reasons to carry on with my life. You taught me everything I’ll ever need to know and you taught that all to me in the 41 years that I had you in my life. I truly believe that I have received more love from you in those short years than most people receive in a lifetime and I will be forever grateful for that. Thank you for the continuous blessings you send from above, I know with all my heart that they come from you. Would I give up all of those recent blessings to have you back? Well, I just don’t have that option. The only thing I can do now is honor your life, live each day as if it is my last, and hope and pray that I am reunited with you one day. I can still hear your laughter each time a funny memory of you pops up in my mind. I can still feel your hand on my forehead when I told you I wasn’t feeling well. I could still hear the sincere sound of your voice every single time you told me you loved me. I can still feel the warmth of your hug. I can still see your face in my dreams and I can still say that to this day you continue to answer my questions, teach me lessons, and inspire me. And, mom, If you can see me now, I want you to know that I am okay and I hope you’re proud of the woman you have made of me.

I love you more, Mom.