I don’t know how much long I can take being here without you because they say it gets easier but it doesn’t no matter what I know you come to visit me but it’s not the same thing as if I could hold you talk to you and you tell me that you’re gonna always have my back no matter what I hate that I couldn’t get you to stop I have so much anger inside me if I could just have one wish it would be for that day you would have just came here lele I wish you could see how big bell is getting man she is so much like you in so many ways well I love you so much and I will see you soon