mother from the moment you held me I felt your love for me, when I was a little girl I remember looking at you telling myself, I want to grow up and be just like you, never taking my eyes off you,
I remember in grammar school coming home and watching men with big equipment dig a hole for the built-in swimming pool you had put in our own backyard,
every year at Christmas my brothers and sisters and I would sit in front of the Christmas tree to get our one present before Christmas day, every time being so excited wondering what this one special gift could be and every time finding five matching pairs of pajamas for each one inside, everything always so beautiful so perfect,
Christmas morning running to the living room where this site made our eyeballs big as saucers that sparkled and shine, there before us was our very own Christmas toy store, big and little boxes wrapped up with bows, rocking horses, fire engines, slides, teeter totter‘s, swings, big wheels, tricycles, bikes, then 10 speed bikes, and even a minibike, as we got bigger so did our bows and gifts cars with big bows and even houses,
by the time I was in junior high I knew how amazing you were raising five kids and buying your first home without any help from anyone,
in high school all the kids like coming to our house, not to see me, they wanted to see my beautiful mom, you always looked just like a movie star, it was about this time I knew I could never fill your shoes
I remember hearing you always saying … if you can’t say something nice don’t say anything at all… and to treat everyone the same be nice to everyone because everybody has feelings you told me the ones that people don’t treat right those are the ones I need to be extra nice to ,and I lived by your words just like you wanted me too,
you open your bar , A truckers no because you wanted to show people that you cared about them near and far,
not one holiday did you miss the bar always looking festive, then you would walk in like you always did with a big smile on your face and open arms, then walked around hugging and greeting everyone not ever missing one, then five or six men would walk outside and come back in with platters full of your home cooked meal, nobody in your bar that couldn’t be home for the holidays was not going without a home cooked meal on that day, it didn’t stop at the holidays either, you wanted to celebrate their birthdays so every third Saturday of the month you would celebrate everyones Birthday in that month ,a home cooked meal of course ,
the band would stop and make an announcement for everyone having a birthday that month to come to the middle of the dance floor there you would be standing with all of your glowing beauty they all gathered around the band started singing the birthday song and the lights start going down and onto the dance floor trays of cupcakes and a lit candles on top for each one, they made their wish and blow out their candles, then I’ll come to trays of kamikaze‘s for everyone,
these people loved and respected you like no other they ever knew, they always talked so highly of you, nothing but nice things to say about you,
when I started working there, I knew just what to do because I wanted everyone to love and respect me just like they did you, so by listening to everything that you said and watching everything that you did,
I couldn’t be prouder or hold my head higher when these people would tell me
“you’re just like your mother”
Thank you for making me ME !
