I've been Marjie's next-door neighbor for the past 12 years. This past week the memories just keep coming...
I'm not a particularly active person and so i have few memories of going out and about with Marjie, except for the odd errand or doctor appointment. There are two events I remember well: one, the Broadway production of "Wicked" (we had THE worst seats in the house--and yet still thought it a marvel. Our heads were ringing after the fact – no high school musical, this. We had fun - we were happy when we left. The other, the theatrical debut of the movie "Avatar" (the beginning – wow, such beauty and creativity. The end, well, such violence, such noise… We could've done without that).
Soon after we moved here, her grandchild Izzyie was born. She lit up! Her schedule filled with babysitting hours. Without thinking, realizing, i said "this child is taking up an awful lot of your time" – but she corrected me and said "no, no, I'm taking up an awful lot of HERS--I want to spend as many minutes as possible with her".
She started writing children's material and published in a few magazines. We attempted our own book writing "club"--which was short-lived, but her abilities and characteristic determination were not. Later she wrote books for Izzyie--beautiful things, treasures--that I know she worked on every year after that.
When she decided to redecorate her house she spent so much time studying feng shui, wanting to get it right. I'd studied this subject--had diagrams and flashcards even! though I had failed utterly in my own efforts.
She picked up library books and we compared notes. Color, furniture placement, composition: metal, cloth, wood--balance. In the end she got it so exactly right - entering her house every time, I felt a sense of intoxicating calm that I could never replicate. "If you ever leave this house Marjie. I want it. Please let me buy it from you! (as if calm could be purchased).
She had this ability to dive into something headfirst -- learn it, and stick with it.
She added yoga to her curriculum years ago. "Once you're not flexible anymore you've become old". As with everything she was religious--went to yoga classes every single week without fail. She became more flexible (and delighted in it!) and indeed was the youngest 70-year-old ive ever met.
She took up piano and I often heard her practicing like an obedient 12-year-old, astonished at her persistence.
This last year and a half of her life, she searched through healing methods previously foreign to her, committing to them--the bitterest were the Chinese herbs, which I know from experience taste like motor oil. But the sweetest, Qi Gong, required learning, practice - her talents- and she fell in love. (Recommending it to me, she said "Maybe I'm dying, maybe not – and this does take effort--but I love the way this makes me feel. It's like a massage for my soul").
We had similar taste in books and she shared most of her library books -novels, non fiction - never worrying when she had to renew, over and over, because of my slow reading.
She always kept a stack of old New Yorkers for me at her door, because she knew I loved them and knew i couldn't afford to subscribe.
We also had similar political views and frequently I ran over on the last possible night before mailing-in voting to discuss what each bill meant (Rod providing much of the background on this) and then nearly always, casting identical votes.
She cared about people in practical ways. As a single mother, I often went to her, struggling to find the right path, the right way. She struggled with me – no pat of the hand and quick answer. Her care for my daughter was not merely a behind-the-scenes affair though – I cannot count the times she said "anything for Elena"! and how proud she was of her successes.
Her heart was generous.
During the first year living next-door, she learned that I had a genuine fear of Halloween. She said, laughing but kind, that she would protect me from the "horror of costumed children"--and she did, every halloween inviting me into her home.
She liked birds, the wild kind, and had a book that she tried to teach me from. They gave her pleasure. There was a small bird feeder on the back patio and a larger one in the front -a focal point for this small miracle of a garden she and Rod had created.
I remember how upset she was when we got a new (and unfortunately indispensable) cat with herculean hunting abilities. After a few of his "triumphs", the birdfeeders emptied. The sadness on her face--ah! I knew this was no small thing, but no matter how many sleighbells I tethered to that cat, he was still remarkably successful. Still, she forgave me – and him.
I admired her verve for travel. I will admit, too, that I envied it. It seemed there was some impressive trip, nearly every year. "We need to get it all in now", she told me, "before we're too old to move!". Every trip, she and Rod planned carefully and always pulled it off despite all obstacles. As a one time traveler myself, I was amazed by their creative methods. Hotels were rare. One time they stayed with a completely unknown family in Costa Rica – and later had the family stay with them. What an idea!
Six years ago (?) She planned a walking trip through Czechoslovakia. She would have to walk 5 miles a day. 5 miles in one day, every day. Was there nothing she couldnt do? From my bedroom window, I watched her prepare for that. New shoes, determination, rain or shine – the longest daily walks ever.
She was fearless.
Mostly though I remember visiting her at her house through the years. Sharing this and that, catching up, rolling concerns back and forth ...and then diverging on to the days news and the problems of the world--finally, at the end, always deciding that we had done nothing to fix them.
Year and a half ago, I came home to find her sitting on the bench in their front yard. Just home from the doctor, She called me over and said "well, I have cancer". No preamble. A simple statement that came out with a stuttered chuckle of disbelief--then we both laughed, little harder. how absurd life was, how impossible this was.
She had been so diligent about her health for ALL the years I knew her – drinking the most god-awful smoothies every morning – kelp, brewers yeast, liquid multivitamins, fish oil (fish oil!? "it's not as bad as all that – I put some fruit juice in too!"), daily walks, at least a mile, with Rod, the well-rounded meals - that successful weight-watchers year (that she, of course, managed to stick to ever after)...
Yes--It was absurd and seemed a fake piece of news, some punchline of a standup comic, so we could laugh on that one day before it actually sunk in.
When I first moved here, I told people: "I could not of ended up with a better neighbors, had even the gods picked them for me themselves".
That was true--and it was not a first impression that faded – it grew and grew.
My God, how I admired her.
She was my friend.
What better fortune could befall me?