YES,  Another year, has passed but to me your mother the pain is as sharp as it was the day you  took your last breath. I do not See Hear or can Feel a hug  from you all I have is memories pictures and heartbreak . As the days months and years go by Yes, life and time goes on but you never get over this kind of loss you carry this loss and pain daily in silence Living in the now hoping and praying and having faith that you will be waiting for me at the pearly gates when its my time and knowing you are doing something amazing up there I will always always love you and never never will you be forgotten I miss you terribly my son 
love the momma xoxo

Speak of me as you always done,
Remember the good times, laughter and fun
Share the Happy memories we've made
Do not let them wither and fade
I'll be with you in the summer's sun
And when the winter chill has come
I'll be the voice that whispers in the breeze
I',m peaceful now, put your mind at ease
I;ve rested my eyes and gone to sleep, 
But memories we've shared are yours to keep
Sometimes our final days may be a test
But Remember me when I was at my best
Although things may not be the same
Don't be afraid to say  my name
Let your sorrow last for just awhile
Comfort each other and try to smile
I've lived a life of joy and fun
Live on now, make me proud of 
what you'll become

A letter from Heaven

To my dearest Family, Some things I'd like to say 
But first of all, to let you know that I arrived OK
I'm writing this from Heaven where I live with God Above
Here there are no tears of sadness, here is just eternal Love

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight
Remember that I;am with you, ever morning, noon and night
That  day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said :Matthew I welcome you
It's great to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone
As for your dearest family, they'll be Here with you later on

God gave me a list of things that he wished for me to do
and foremost on the list was to watch and care for all of you
And when you lie in bed at night, the day chores put to flight
God and I are close to you , in the middle of the night

When you think of my life on Earth with you and all those loving years
Because you are only human they are bound to bring you tears
But don't be afraid to cry it does relieve the pain 
Remember there would be no flowers 
unless there is some rain

I wish that I could tell you, all that God has planned
But if I were to tell you now you would't understand
But one thing is for certain, though my life on Earth is over
I;m closer to you now than I ever was before

There are many rocky roads ahead of you, and many hills to climb
But together we can do it taking one day one moment at a time

It was always my philosipy, and I'd like it for you too
That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you
If you can Help somebody who's  in sorrow or in pain

Than you can say to God at night, MY Day was not in vain

Missing you and watching over you always
Remember me Matthew Pain White