Dearest sweetest Michael, I can no longer live on this earth without you. Your sister said "I manipulated you" and you know as well as I do that you could never be manipulated. Your son is in South American living with a woman. I am all alone in this terrible sadness. I don't want to stay here anymore. I want to only be with you. I went through two floods, and I am so overwhelmed. Very soon, I will be next to you. I just need to get some things in order. I love you

Michael it is July 23, 2016, and raining hard, but not as hard as the tears that fall from my eyes every day and every night. I miss you terribly and only want to be near you for the rest of eternity. I love you, donna

Today is June 12 Michael and all I can say is I miss you terribly. I will end for now as I am exhausted. I love you and miss you..donna

My dearest Michael, today you would have been 71 and I now am 64. I got my plot next to you back finally. No one can ever take it again from me. I can't wait until I am with you again away from this very sad and lonely world. I miss you terribly. I have not slept for a day and as always I am working on the house that once was a home. Zak is going to South America June for at least six months; probably more. He has become almost a stranger to me. He is not like you Michael he is a bit like my father...He has become arrogant and he has lied to me and I do not care to go on for him anymore. David Bowie passed away two days after his birthday. He was 69 and he had liver cancer yet did an album; Black star. I will go to the cemetery today, but I am so tired from constantly cleaning and Zak is not helping.  He is travelling all over, and wants to get away from me. I stayed here as long as I did for him. I am looking forward to being next to you and never having to open my eyes again. I really wonder if you even know that I exist. You are in the universe and said your love for me exceeds all bonds of space. I am so lonely for you and I have a lot of nerve damage in my mouth and feet so I am always in pain. I love and miss you M. All of my endless love, donna

Hi Michael, I was just on the phone with my brother. After so much loss I would hope to re establish a relationship with him. Zak is in South America living vicariously through you (he told me this). David Bowie died and I cried watching his last album made while he was dying of cancer. I will never forget how you took me to see him and got the best seats just for me. You were the captain of my heart and always will be, but you sailed away one day and never came back. It is hard to get beyond you, but the more you love the more you lose when the love of your mate is taken away. Life is the strangest thing that ever happened to me. I miss and love you...d

Michael, it is my 64th birthday and I am in so much pain over the loss of you. I just want to be with you. I am so very sad and crying endless tears. Will I ever see you again? I miss you with every heartbeat and my tears have flooded the house. I love you and I miss you and am just glad to know you are out of pain. But it should have been me; I can't stand this much more...d

My dearest Michael, it is Christmas 2015. Your sun is more like you than you were like yourself; he is so awesome, just like you. I love and miss you sweetheart. Please let me know if you ever hear my heart. I cannot dream of you or perhaps I awaken and forget. I miss you terribly. Evie was here and I am happy to say that she made me feel better about the situation. She is married but is leaving her husband as they did not work out. Zak loves you and is almost a carbon copy of you. I love you Mykal, donna

Michael, my dad did not cut me out. Money is not the object, as no money can buy back the family I lost. I miss you and I want my plot and I keep praying God will hear me please, please give me my plot. Rest in peace beautiful man, taken so young and forever changing our plans...Zak is a good man and handsome too, just like you, love donna

Dearest Michael, I stayed in bed between 9/29 and 9/30 because that is the moment you stopped gracing this earth. I am so lonely for you, and I am so very alone. Can you hear anything I say? Can you see the tears that are non stop? Now I have no plot next to you. I will let Zak know in a letter to burn me and put my ashes under the soil above your heart. I love and miss you, donna

Don Moy visited your memorial and I emailed him. He remarried and has beautiful children and a beautiful wife. You left me too soon all alone in my own life. I miss you so much. Sleep in beautiful peace. I hope you like the song I play for you. I want it played at my funeral.

Here I am on the last day of July 2015 and my heart bleeds for you in every cell of my body.

I am sorry I did not visit you on Father's day Michael, but you are always/all ways in my heart. I was just too tired to go. I feel so alone without you and now I have no plot. My father broke a broken heart. I will never understand why, but there are endless questions of all those who lose their loved ones. I miss talking to my dad but he is now free of his wheelchair to run free with the wind and I hope he is happy. I miss you so much. Zak loves and misses you and is now wearing some of your clothes. Can you see him Michael can you see me? Can you hear anything. I just pray you are in a place of bliss with no more pain and no more sorrow, but still think it should have been me as you were the one that held this family together and I feel weaker each day and have a fear I may be losing my mind.

My dad died Michael, and my Auntie Ann was buried the week after my dad was buried. I am now an "orphan"...I love and miss you Michael, and Zak misses you too, he is a wonderful man; very much like you...Much love, donna

Easter hopped away and passed me by. We used to celebrate and dressed Zak so cute. But I was alone this Easter and knew not what day it was. I was covered in my sheets once warmed by you. Nothing will warm my heart that cries each night and when the morning comes I sigh that it was not a dream I dreamt....It seems like only yesterday, that you were here to relinquish fear, you said everything would be alright, but that changed the day you left and turned out my light.  I miss and love you more than words can say, and only want to be with you and one day, I will when it is time for me to pass away. d

On your birthday you would have been 70 years old, however you will remain forever young as I age and grow old alone. I now am sixty three and seven years older than you; once you were seven years older than me. Not a day goes by my dearest love that I do not cry. I laid a white rose on your grave. On the right side is the place I will go when it is my time and I beg of God to  please bring you back to me to be one again and share eternity. I love you and miss you sweet beautiful man taken too soon from my plan. Thank you for Zak who I love unconditionally. He is the greatest gift ever given to me....endless love and tears, donna

My heart bleeds for you... I am losing it Michael, I miss you terribly. I am not good for Zak. I love him perhaps too much. I am going through hell. It should have been me and not you that went. You loved life and everyone loved you. I am a shell and I am lost I am really a dead person now living in hell.

I missed 9/30 the moment you left this world and went into the universe, but you are always/all ways in my heart. I miss you Michael, I am so lost without you....all of my love, donna

beyond the realms of times and space...my love for you is eternal.
Until we meet again in an unknown land. There will be joy to replace sorrow, no tears no pain. The two of us will be one again....all of my heart and soul, donna

I love and miss you Michael...