Hey Bob,
I don't know why I have these night vision goggles.
This is my first Mother's Day without you, it has been almost 6 months since you left to be with God. It seems like an eternity.
I am heartbroken every day, I miss every wonderful thing about you,
your smile, your voice, your scent, your intelligence, your thirst for new experiences and knowledge and learning, your performing with your band, your tender caring heart, your wonderful hugs, your encouragement, your protection.
You were everything to me. You forgave me everything I did wrong, and all I didn't do right for you.
You provided the best things in life, a wonderful Hawaiian vacation, movies,
restaurants, hiking, going to the beach, but you know, anytime, anywhere, just to be with you were the best times of my life. No one ever cared for me like you did. Chas and Bea are so kind and keep me close, and I thank you for that.
I would be lost without them.
I cannot get used to this new reality, it is so cruel.
Did you plead with God?
Did you ask him, "how will Bea and my Mom and Chas go on without me?"
Did you ask for more time to do good for so many people, here on earth?
I am so grateful for the first 75 days of 2021, we spent each morning at 4am walking together for 45 minutes-they went by so fast-I loved hearing your voice, your triumphs, concerns, plans and hopes-I can see us walking as I drive through the streets that we trod.
You were truly, larger than life, you made things happen, you were a leader, you were unafraid.
I look forward to the time I can be with you again, you are my heart, my hope.
I love you so much oh best beloved, my dear son, Bob.
Your Mom