Little Brothers and Swings
I can still see him now, as I look out the window.
My little brother trying to swing by himself.
I can hear my him in my head saying,
“push me, push me I want to go higher!”

I would always laugh and would always mock.
I never talked or played with my brother.
We didn’t get to cherish the moments we had together.
Me and brother always argued, couldn’t get along for at least five seconds.

Now my brother is gone.
My brother never got a push.
I can hear my him in my head saying,
“push me, push me I want to go higher!”

And I’ve realised that swing was a better than me.
At least that swing supported my brother.
The swing lifted my brother,
just high enough for him to enjoy it.

Now I’m all alone,
just the swing and me.

My loving brother
I love you forever
Your bright smile
Touched my heart
Your gone but never
Forgetting ill always
Love you brother
Forever you shall
Always be apart
Of my beating heart.

Requiem for a lost friend
I lost you, no we lost you
We have missed you, we will miss you.

We have lost your wiley, witty, sarcastic humor.
So creative, we lost your bass voice sound as deep and strong as Gabriel's trumpet.
Always time for us, even when there wasn't.

But why?
Why, why, why, why, WHY?!?
Why didn't you love yourself like we loved you?
You let it get bad, then worse, until it was too late.
You had left us...
I asked you for to see the doctor...
You put it off, not for a day. It was weeks...
I am hurt, you are missed so...
Missed so much...

I will go on, but the world is that much darker...

If I could have one last conversation with you,
I would tell you how much I love you
I would show you how much you are missed
We'd laugh at terrible jokes
And we'd reminisce
If I could have one last conversation with you...

Now hush baby brother, dont you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Gotta toughen up my little buba, i told ya
I'll always be with ya in your mind
You'll hear alot of things but hold onto my good side
Dont forget you were my pride
It may feel a little painful, when the rain falls
But i promise the sun will always shine

I miss you.
It's been a while now.
I wish you didn't have to leave.
I wish you lived.
I'm leaving, too.
But not to see you yet.
I'll just be in a place away from here.
Guide me.
Be my angel.
Never a day passed that I didn't miss you.
I miss you more today.
Everyday.
Always.
Let my love reach heaven.
I love you, Robin.
I love you, brother.

You always were the light of my life,
My helper when ever I faced strife.

Too soon gone, much to my sorrow,
Won't see you again until tomorrow.

When the stars in the sky twinkle above,
I just know it's you sending your love.

There's a whole in my life that can never be filled,
And a pain in my heart that can never be stilled.

The truest of love is that that does not die
Pure love was found only in your honest eyes
Contentment was holding you close to heart
Burrowing in your scent
Joy was conquering mountains by your side

I want back every moment with you, life was never dull
There was definition, motivation and fulfillment
I still have the memories to hold onto, but can it ever be enough?
I had to let you go and my soul has collected another deep scar
You are severely missed, my handsome boy
I was not ready, I was not prepared
You deserved so much more than I was ever able to give you
And you gave me so much that I did not deserve

Your spirit will live forever in the hearts that you touched
Your love will rest in me until the end
You were my best friend and my little brother
I miss you more than words can say

This sadness was our burden to carry,
Brother of mine,
Our burden to carry,
Throughout our lives.

Yet you have broken your shackles,
Brother of mine, have finally flown free,
And I am left questioning,
Hoping you will never forget me.

I cried back then, when turmoil unfolded,
And you comforted me with a soothing voice.
Now you have left this place,
And I don't blame you for that choice.

Please, all I am asking of you,
My dear brother,
Do not forget that little boy,
Who feared his mother.

I remain in the rubble of our past,
Please think of me even as you are free.
Back in those cloudy days,
You endeavored to help me see.

I am endlessly grateful.
Do not forget me, brother of mine,
For I might carry this burden,
For all of time.

Dear Brother,
Forgive me for I don't want you to leave.
Forgive me for I don't open up to you.
Forgive me for you have to wipe away my salty tears.
Forgive me for you have to be strong for the both of us.

Whence once I heard the faint whisper of the rushing wind
It formed a name in the air, whispering
The faint decibels that your soul voiced
Called out to me, unheard and unvoiced
Sweeping right back I searched for your figure
Forming shapes in the clouds
Awaiting your selfless shoulder
“Oh brother!” I cried out, “Where had you gone?”
You curved your lips and embraced me for long
My head felt light. My soul lingered
And I drifted to another world
To a scape bygone
As toddlers, I saw us playing on the hill tops
Amidst wintery clouds
I saw me run after you and fall on the ground
And suddenly you turned, with concern on your brows
Chasing back and picking me up
Brushing my tears and swinging me up
I saw us race to the school in the mornings
And I saw you hold my hand while returning
But then I felt my hands bereft
My head felt light. My soul revered
I saw me race alone to the school
And I saw me fall and chase the lonely cloud
I saw your face, and its obscure lines
My wet eyes rained bringing me back to this time
Sweeping right around I again searched for your figure
In vain I tried to form some shapes in the clouds
And then I heard the whispering wind rush in
Blanketing the clouds and taking them in
I heard no whispers, no names and no sound
“Oh brother!” I cried out, “Where have you gone?”

As my eyes close at dawn,
Memories haunt my being;
Sighting those wondrous reminiscence,
Hearing those melodious laughter.

Tears stream down my eyes,
Those moments are gone;
But a smile shines on my face,
You've been a great part of me.

It's not getting any easier. It's just getting different. Miss you bro xxx

Day by day I think of you,
How can all of this be true?
I can't believe you're really gone,
I still can't accept it,
Even after so long.
Just the thought of you makes me cry,
I never even got the chance to say goodbye.
Every picture, every letter,
I don't know if it will ever get better.
I always smell your familiar scent,
It makes me think of all of the times we've spent.
I know we didn't always get along,
And every time we talked, it would always go wrong.
So many things I never got to say,
I never imagined you'd ever be so far away.
You were my brother,
And I loved you like no other.
In my heart you'll always be,
You'll be my guide and help me see.
I'll never forget your soothing voice,
I would take your place if I had a choice.
But now I have to let you rest,
Although without you my world's a mess.
I miss you with all of my heart,
I wish we never had to part.
I know you're always by my side,
So now I guess this is my goodbye...

It is foolish and wrong to mourn the men who died. Rather we should thank God that such men lived.

The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.

Harriet Stowe

To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die.

Thomas Campbell

Goodbyes are only for those who love with their eyes. Because for those who love with heart and soul there is no such thing as separation.

Rumi

Following message was sent to you by Jemma Ali from the ForeverMissed.com online memorial dedicated to Robin Francis Ali:

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Miss YOU Robin. Not an hour goes by in the day that you don't enter my mind. I'll never ever forget you.... You will always be my big brother who looked after me until the end.

Hi Kristie, what a beautiful website you have done for Robin. I checked it all out and the photos brought memories of when he was with us. He did have a great smile and sense of humour - in fact I only have memories of him being pretty upbeat and very open. He was a pleasure to see. I'm not surprised he went on to help so many others. I was very sad to hear of his death, it was shocking to us down here. Thank you also for including us in your justgiving site. He wont be forgotten by anyone who knew him here. Yours Tessa (Streetscene Addiction and Recovery Services, Bournemouth. )

Hi Kirstie, sorry to hear that and there but for the grace of God go I. He always had a huge heart and he certainly helped me at times. I know some of his struggles yet he always made time. I remember the run up to him getting his dogs and him building there kennel/hotel in the garden he was like a big child. He also used to moan at me a lot for driving up the road too fast getting into work but it was always from a caring perspective. Since my mum passed 2 years into my own recovery journey I came to believe that our days on this earth are the dream and when we go to sleep is when we all awake to live our lives, but that is just my thoughts and I take comfort in that. I hope you and the rest of the family are a little more at ease now, not that it will ever be easy I guess. But to be able to close your eyes and be with him will bring some comfort. Thank you for taking the time to message me. My thoughts and prayers with you, warm regards Leigh Pitt wood.

Hi Kristie.

I knew Robin from the meetings in Bournemouth he came into recovery not long after me and we were on a committee for around a year together. Both my partner and I were so shocked and saddened to hear that Robin had passed away, he was always the first one to approach the new man who walked through the door and his enthusiasm for recovery was contagious.as I'm sure you know, He helped a lot of people and when he shared his experience he inspired others. Nothing was to much for him and when I moved back to Brighton I asked him to come down and do a share for me, he travelled both there and back by train ( which took nearly 3 hours each way). Robin was such a likeable person and will be missed by so many.

Thinking of you all ❤️

Rachel Collis x

Dear Kristie, I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for posting the 'young Robin' photo, there have been so many photos of Rob since he passed away, almost all have made me cry but this photo and his cheeky face made me smile. Robin was a good guy and was loved by many down here in Bournemouth. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. From Michelle Diddy Dobson x

Good man to hav as a brother ,looked on him a bit like that , he stopped me goin jail a few times, stopped me beating up my my ex,s boyfriend on Beth's rd 1 time. Bruv from a different muv.
Genuinely hurt by events ,so sorry for ur loss ,he truly was a good man !!! If ever I can b ov service please let me know. DARRON TAPS TAPPER. X

Kristie, today I couldn't find the words you have always been like an auntie to me, growing up even untill now and I am deeply sorry for your loss robin was such an amazing guy that touched so many people and I hope some comfort comes within knowing that he meant so much to so many and he did so much good. Words cannot deceive how you feel but I want you to know if there's anything I can do I will, happily!. I didn't want it to seem like I don't care because I didn't say hello today but it hurt to much to see someone I see as family that upset and I just couldn't find the words please know I have always had love for you and your family and I will always be here if you need me. Lots of love Beth Jade and fam xxxx (13.10.16) xxxx

Kristie, I just wanted to say I'm so very deeply sorry about what happened to Robin, he was such a special guy..well they say god only takes the he good ones, he certainly got the best with Robin xx Bless You xx Andrea Penrith xxx

I would like to pay my respects to Robin, he was a wonderful man and always kept in touch with me. He only Tx me 2 weeks ago to see how I was

Your robin was a lovely person I've been told by Jue and other peeps, just so hard bbe, but Robin was proud of you, so just think of the good times bbe as that wot he would want. always here xx Ju & Tracey Markley xx

He did his total best for all those years babe, and he did so well. I'll say one thing Kristie I was ever so proud of your bro. I loved him dearly.

Robin was the most loving, caring person anyone could ever meet, I'll cherish my memories in my heart forever. Xxxxxxxx xxxxxx Celia Penrith xxx

Following message was sent to you by Jemma Ali from the ForeverMissed.com online memorial dedicated to Robin Francis Ali:

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You're still here in my heart and mind,
still making me laugh cause your stories live on.
I hold you in a thought and I can feel you.
I feel you and this gives me strength and courage.
The tears I have cried for you could flood the earth
and I know you have wiped each one away.
For you Brother, I promise you this,
I will go on with my life and make you proud. I will always hold you in my heart.
I promise you I will be missing you everyday till the end of time,
but this is not my end and I can't hold my head underwater....I need to breathe.
I need to love and miss you, but I also need to live because through me you will live,
you will still laugh and love,
you will still sing and dance,
you will still hug and kiss.
You will forever be in our lives,
you will forever be a brother,
a son,
an uncle
and friend.
I am going to miss your shining face
I think of you and wonder why?
I might cry or smile,
but at the end of the day I am one day closer to you....
Your loving sister jemma xxxx

From Jin Seng Gardens (Via Facebook)  May he rise in power! ❤⭐

I miss your bruv, he was such a top fella. The last time I was with Robin I took him to a Bournemouth - Leicester game at b mouth.
We also had American bull dogs in common. I helped him choose his boy with Beth's girl. But how I remember your brother was his heart. He had a big heart , always helping others unconditionally. Missed massively but never forgotten. Stay strong sister love n peace .

Robin, one of the few genuine authentic souls I have had the privilege to meet and know, genuine hugs, genuinely wanted to know you are OK, always asking several times - but are OK aren't you?, he genuinely did not want others to suffer, he did a lot to help others and in a totally selfless way. Robin was a rare breed of human, a very special soul - an empath - everything he did and felt he did so deeply - especially in his love for his big sis - a special bond that can never be broken - Robin was a true warrior and one of the few humans I actually totally respected. Love you Robin - our hearts will never mend but the memory of you will always stay strong. Namaste Robin - ONE LOVE xxx ♥ xxx - Received From Jodie Ford via Email

Rest in peace dear Robin ALI

Steve Sterling

11 October 2016

What a shame to receive the news of such a great man with good qualities sadly passing away at the tender age of 40. My heart reaches out to your family and children at this sad time, I have the greatest memory of Robin the day he interviewed me and wanted us to work together in London with a company I will not name.

Steve & Silvie xx

My Angel Star

You shine as my darkness falls,
every sunset is your call.
My angel star spreads it’s
Glistening light upon my painful path.

A gentle breeze parts swaying trees
To welcome in your healing light
And Glistening waters reflect your
Eternal heavenly glow upon my gaze

On cloudy nights you shine on bright
Even though your out of sight
On lonely nights I’ll stand and wait
For parting clouds to show you bright

Shine on my Angel in the sky
Throw your light and burn on bright
Every night I will surly wait
Until beside you I can shine a light

If only I could reach
Inside your picture
pick you up and hold
you one more time.

But then in my deepest,
dreams I hold a million
pictures and I hold you
a million times more.

Each picture holds a
memory that memory we
will share, but heaven
came and took you and
on earth we cannot share.

But in my dreams I hold
your picture and beside me
you will stare and when
Heaven comes and takes me
our memories we will share.

As cant believe MY BIG BRO has been taken from us.He was a AMAZING/LOYAL/DECENT MAN who i LOVED spending 6mths with.HE got me through the most PAINFUL time of my life bk in 2009.We had some amazing days together which i will NEVER EVER forget.LOVES YA ROBIN and THANKYOU so much,just WISH i could of had the chance to say it in person..R.I.P xxxxx

LOTS OF LOVE FROM LEANNE VEAR ⭐

When I am gone, release me let me go
I have so many things to see and do
You mustn’t tie yourself to me with tears
Be happy that we had so many years
I gave you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave to me in happiness

I thank you for the love you have shown
But now it’s time I travelled alone
So grieve a while for me if grieve you must
Then let your grief be comforted by trust
It’s only for a while that we must part
So bless the memories within your heart
I won’t be far away. For life goes on

So if you need me call and I will come
Though you can’t see or touch me I’ll be there
And if you listen with your heart you’ll hear
All of my love around you soft and clear
And then when you must come this way alone
I’ll greet you with a smile and welcome you home
~ (Author unknown)

Absolutely overwhelmed by the love shown for my brother Robin Lcfc Ali. I'd like to thank everyone that has messaged and expressed their condolences. I'm sorry I can't reply to you all individually, my heart is breaking and there are no words to express the pain that I feel. He is, regardless of our petty squabbles and bickering, my best friend, my champion, my biggest fan, my rock and my brother. So from the bottom of my heart, Thank You. Xxxx

Serenity Prayer
Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
enjoying one moment at a time;
accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
that I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
forever in the next.
Amen.

Finally Home
Although your work on earth is done
Your life in heaven has just begun.
Your struggles here were hard and long
But they're over now, you're finally home.

Life wasn't easy, by choice or fate
A decision made, sometimes too late.
A fight to the finish, always strong
Rest easy Bro, you're finally home.

To tribute to your kindness
In words is not enough
To tell of your caring
For me and others is wasting time
To a dear brother of mine
To bridge a gap so wide
As to let me into your heart
When I don’t even know mine

This tribute to you
My brother
My friend
My family
In love you conquer hate
And within these ugly times
You conquer them with beauty
This tribute to my brother ends
But always will remain true
A Tribute To A Brother

What is a brother?
Someone who is there
when you are hurting
He picks you up
and dusts you off again

What is a brother?
Someone who sees you are without a smile
And he gives you one of his
and gives you a hug too
just especially for you

What is a brother?
Someone who stands by your side
and holds your hand
when things don’t go well
He helps you understand

What is a brother?
A cherished friend for life
a brother by blood
A cousin or friend
But always by love

From your nephew, Jacob

You were like a dad to me, any trouble i could come to you i just cant believe you're gone, i just wish we could of spent more time together, you were my role model and i know i could of come to you for anything. still trying to get over my mind that you're gone but i guess god needs you up there by his side, uncle robin you are loved by many and i will miss you everyday for the rest of my life and i will look after mum for you. until we meet again
R.I.P Robin ali 1976-2016

I never got a chance to say goodbye
And now when I think of you all I do is cry
You left a message upon my heart
One with which I shall never part

The things you taught me the world will never know
And now thanks to you I can finally grow
You taught me strength, you taught me courage
You taught me love and gave me knowledge

You made me smile when the tears poured down
You helped me to turn my life around
We hurt each other it is true
But for the rest of my life I will always love you

no end

it is not over, his end

an end with no end

how you live around

the emptiness, he

used to fill

the corner where

his ashes sit

the candle you light

when the family gathers

a flickering remembrance

you have to blow out

at the end of the day

the sentences you stop

where you might make

him disappear

and hesitate

his absence an intruder

presence

you cannot let go

Feel no guilt in laughter, he’d know how much you care (20.10.16)

Feel no guilt in laughter, he’d know how much you care.
Feel no sorrow in a smile that he is not here to share.
You cannot grieve forever; he would not want you to.
He’d hope that you could carry on the way you always do.
So, talk about the good times and the way you showed you cared,
The days you spent together, all the happiness you shared.
Let memories surround you, a word someone may say
Will suddenly recapture a time, an hour, a day,
That brings him back as clearly as though he were still here,
And fills you with the feeling that he is always near.
For if you keep those moments, you will never be apart
And he will live forever locked safely within your heart.

Broski... my children stepped up for me yesterday, they gave me strength, courage and dignity when I could not find my own. They represented me when I stumbled, carried me when I was weak and held me when I sobbed and broke my heart for you. I know that you taught all of your nieces and nephews those skills, as they all behaved as you would like them to. Each and everyone of them adore, worship, respect and love you. They always have and they always will. Nothing will ever change that. ⭐❤
(The day after Robins Funeral - 13.10.16)

They Say There Is A Reason

They say there is a reason,
They say that time will heal,
But neither time nor reason,
Will change the way I feel,
For no-one knows the heartache,
That lies behind our smiles,
No-one knows how many times,
We have broken down and cried,
We want to tell you something,
So there won't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of,
But so hard to be without.