I love and miss you lil brother. I miss all the orneriness we could get into lol.  Sister loves u n I will c you one day. We will talk about all the boring things u r not missing out on. Dad n u r looking down on me n mom I know u r. Keep mom safe all the time and tell dad I need some batteries m the Sunday paper. I miss u doing laundry n cussing at me. Love sister

Dear Rocky Baby, Yes you are forever to her. I feel the weight of her words. The empty heart, the missing appreciation she used to get from you. She used to create beautiful dishes because you noticed and appreciated. By seeing how much emptiness you left behind, I feel to talk to you. We on this side aging... I feel the weight specially since December 2, when I fall and broke to pieces. Still the biggest pain is my loneliness. I miss your aunt Patty now for 2 years. We used to hang out together. Now I have no one:( She was like a sister to me, therefore I always felt that we were family, I`m part of it.
I love you Rocky! You were a good son, a good nephew and a humble sweet sharing friend. I will need to move, because the outdoor of this place now harsh on me. I` even older than mom. And we both took share of illnesses. That is makes even harder that you left before we gone:(
Rest in peace and we soon meet again. Till than show up as sweet dreams in her life. Energize her darling:)
Love: Your aunt Kathy

Hi Son. I guess I am getting slack in my age. It is hard for me to visit the cemetery because it is hard for me to get back up the hill. I couldn't write yesterday. I was overworked and underappreciated as always. Nobody loved to come to my house and eat more than you. I miss you soooo much I can't hardly stand it some times. I will continue to write here and post on facebook as long as I live. I love you and miss you more than anyone knows. Mom

Hi Rocky, I am a day behind as I had much to do yesterday. You know me. The spread has to be grand. We have an empty chair at our table. It is for you. I know you were there in spirit. You wouldn't miss a day of Green Bean Casserole. Your grave looks beautiful as you know. They haven't tore it up yet like they did last year. I received a most beautiful picture frame from your sister. I cried when she gave it to me. It will hold a picture of you on my dresser. Not many people know the pain in my heart for my loss of you. I can only write messages and send facebook salutations. I will be reunited with you again one day and until then, "I will always love you." Mommy

Darling Rocky, I must tell you on this day how much we miss you! Irony cheated the chronological order, you left us young and beautiful, when we should be in the line. Nagging, begging old bags, not a sweet gentlemen as you were:) In our heart you STILL with us, and therefore Wish you a Happy Birthday. I was not there, but visualize the moment you born and mom held you in her arms. That is unforgettable, and that moment lives for ever! And for a mother, you are always her baby. You now free, and I`m sure you smiling at us. Your soul quite vibrant, did not changed.
Again, Happy Birthday Darling, now and every year till we meet again. Tell your mom stop ignoring me. I love her! We were like a family, long and close relationship in happiness and sadness. Crystal just lately find out that I was not an aunt by blood relationship. But I`m. I feel deep in my heart, that you were my nephew, a sweet darling child growing up as a sweet gentle adult, fighting with the evil nature of this earth, this world.
Peace and joy be with your soul:) Your old bag aunt, Kathy
I will always love you!

Happy Heavenly Birthday Rocky. This is a hard day for me. I woke at 5:30am this morning, just the very minute you were born 38 years ago today. Maybe I was having labor pains all over again, lol. You would get angry with me today if you knew I was going to decorate with this yucky weather. I can't help it. I have traditions and today is one of them. I can't see you but your grave site will be beautiful. You will get many Heavenly Birthday greetings and some will just say Happy Birthday Bro. We can't have that celebration with a Christmas cake and presents like we used to do. I celebrate you in the only ways I know how. I love and miss you to the moon and back. I never thought I would be typing a tribute to you on your birthday. I always thought I would celebrate with you until I died. Happy Heavenly Birthday, I love you, Mom.

Darling Rocky, till today I never realized that you were the spitted image of your mommy. Even the facial expression. More I see, more breaks my heart, that she need to go along without you. But THANKS TO GOD, at the end we will all meet again. Till than we must hang on with the sweet memories and hardship and missing loves in our life.

Hi Rocky,
It was nice to come and see you today. The last couple of days have been extremely hard for a momma. I remember 3 years ago yesterday driving you to your home and final resting place.. and today laying you to rest. I remember it as if it was a moment ago. I love and miss you deeply. I will see you again and I know that. That is the way it has to be. I'll be driving and a song comes on that reminds me of you, or laying in my bed at night and think of you. I lit all my angels last night and slept with them turned on. It warmed my heart to think of you all night. Wait for me and I'll be there to see you again. I want a hug and a kiss on my cheek like you did the night of your death. If I knew this would happens I would have sat and watched you all night so I could have saved you. Love and Miss you, Mom

Darling Rocky, I know lots of sweet loving think about you. I just wish that we were closer. I still had no place of mine that you could visit, and spoil you with my private availability. I know you loved and respected me. You know I always fund you extreme beautiful boy. But your gig brown eyes showed a bit sad and that bothered my heart. You know I love Whitney too. Come here I share it with you:) Mommy is still suffering. You left a huge void in her life and actually in all of our heart. But MOTHER is ONLY ONE. The only comfort is, that we know the life is eternal. The souls live and join in the end. That gives comfort. Your mom pissed at me for something, but I love her. Love is our most precious thing in this world what help us to pass over the veil. You are there, since than your aunt joined you too. You just left too early:( Our heart needed you for many years more. Rest in peace and wait for us:) Once again we will be a big family. May the Spirit of Our Lord surround you beside out endless love!!!

A note to you today baby. I have this fateful day embedded in my heart. I can not change the way I feel. They keep saying it will get better, buy I don't think so. I'll be up today to decorate and say my blessing to you. It seems as though not many young folks today visit the grave. I wish they did. It is a good way of remembering someone. Thank you for the wonderful rainbow arc the other day. I know only you and God could think of me in that way. I will post it on this website so I have it always. I could ramble on forever, but all I want to do is hold you. Since that is impossible for the time, I will be with you again some day and then all will be okay. I was just listening to Whitney. You have her all the time now to sing to you. Damn these drugs and all our loved ones they take away. I love and miss you deeply. Enjoy your Daddy until I get there. Love and Miss you always, Mommy.

I sure do miss u roc mom's still struggling with this and hope it will soften as time goes by  but it has not so far. We miss you and have your wings close to us daily... Love sis

Hi Roc,
I sure miss you a lot. Your sister and I talk about you all the time. It sure is different without you here. Next month it will be 3 years that you have been gone. I will try to do something special for you at your gravesite. I hate that it is at your grave I visit. I was so used to you always being there. You liked me to cook for you and we always went places together. You stayed at that dumb hotel that Jenifer paid for and we went to McDonalds at 8 mile. That was the last fast food that we went to. I know and remember well what was your last supper with me. It was chili and pumpernickel bread. One of our favorites. I will never forget, 9:30 pm on October 16, 2015, you told me goodnight and kissed me on the cheek, as you always did, and that was the last time I saw you alive. The next time I saw you was Saturday morning on October 17, 2015. This was the morning that you passed away. I miss you so bad. I know other people miss you too, but I feel like you are a part of me. I dreamed the other night that the doctors cut me open only to find that I have a part of my heart missing. I know that is the part that you have with you. I love you always. Until I see you again, Rest in Heaven. Mommy

A flower for you today. They sure get some idiots up there at the cemetery. They made such a mess and took your flowers. Well, you know me, I had a fit and told them a thing or two. They then put some dumb looking pink flowers in place of the ones they took and then I had to tell them off again. I tore out the replacements that they put and threw them into the air. I regret that because I wouldn't want to diss anyone's grave if they landed on it. Well, I placed more flowers in the vase, cut around the monument as they should have and cleaned the place up a bit from all the grass thrown every where. What a day. I hate to get so upset but I am really touchy over anyone messing with you even if it is out of stupidity. I love and miss you and will see you again some day and until then I hope you are having a wonderful time with your dad. Love, Mom

We had our little blast for the Fourth of July last evening. I will come visit as long as I am able. I hope the do a fabulous fireworks up there in Heaven. You must see them all from where you are. Happy 4th of July. I love and miss you as much as ever. I got a hug and kiss shortly before you left and I will cherish that until I die and am able to get another. Love, Mom

Good morning to you little brother I miss you so much. Some times we don't realize how important you really was in our life. Today is the 4th of July and I know you would have had a fun day planned.  You are in a place that is supposed to be a better place than down here on Earth. I will see you when it's my time to visit heaven. I can't wait to see your handsome self. Love your sister Sheila

Good morning to you Roc if u was here I would buy you a McDonald's sandwich of your choice bro. I really miss you, we argued just like brother n sister do, but we always made up. I wish I could have seen you before u went to heaven. But I will see you there brother..love and miss you more than anything, your sister Sheila...,

Well Rocky, it has been 3 years ago today that your dad has been gone. I know that this hurt you tremendously. I heard you comment once that if you can't visit your dad here on earth that at least you could see him in Heaven. It saddens me to think that you, your sister, and your dad was not closer than you were. I don't understand why outsiders are allowed to make decisions that effect our family. I almost fell into that trap too. I am glad that I didn't allow anyone to stop me from being around you. I miss you so much and sometimes I miss your dad too. Not in a way that one would think. A person cannot forget a part of their life even if it didn't work out the way you wanted. I hope you are with your dad today and you 2 are having a great time together. Love and miss you dearly, Mommy

Dearest Rocky, I came to see you today as I always do and I was so disappointed and embarrassed over the way the cemetery presented on Memorial Day 2018. The grass had not been cut for at least a month. There was weeds around my knees. I trimmed up as usual and tried to make the place beautiful for you. I will continue to come see you and make sure everything is in order. I love and miss you very much. I sure wish you could have waited a while longer. I know that if your dad was living that your grave would never be shabby. He would be up there at least once a week. I hope you and your dad are enjoying each other up in Heaven. We know you never got to enjoy here on earth. I love you, Mom.

A flower for you today my darling son Rocky. Another Mothers Day this weekend coming up and it is without you. I can never get used to not having you here. Every day not just holidays. Holidays are much tougher though. I do have Sheila here with me now. It helps to take away some of the lonely. I will always be lonely for you forever more until I see you again. Love you sooo much, Mommy

Hi Rocky. Mom missed you bad. It has been 2 1/2 years today that you have been gone. I just don't know how to handle it all. I live with the thought that I will see you again sometime. We don't know when, that is God's plan. Love you son more than ever. Mom

Well my little bro I sure do miss you. I am still trying to figure out why our lives ended up in such a mess...... I'm a little mad at u because you are not around for me to pick on or tell on..I will be back to see you again.. Love and miss you more than you will ever know. Our mom misses you dearly. Love your sister forever and ever

Hi my darling. Well, it's 2 days and a Get Up. I never understood you when you told me that. Sheila explained it to me when she said it to me. I am so much exited that she is coming home. It is so hard to not have any children at all. They are giving my girl back to me on Sunday morning, March 11, 2018. We will come to see you on Monday. Come hell or high water we will be there. I hope you and your day are making great memories to share with me when I get there. I love and miss you deeply. Love, Mom

I find it hard to believe that I have not written anything for over a year. I am ashamed of myself. I am so busy posting to your facebook that I miss this memorial website. I love and miss you so very much. I have memorial of my own on my dresser, in my home, at the gravesite, and most of all, in my heart. I will do better to write you here, although you and I both know that I am the only one to write to you here. All your friends have found their own way now. I know they think of you often, but don't hold the feelings that I do. I will be there some day and we will be together again as mom and her only loving son. I hope you are enjoying your dad with no interference from anyone. Oh dear, it hasn't been over a year. Dec 2017 was just a couple months ago, not over a year. My bad, Love, Mom

Happy Heavenly Birthday my dear dear son. I missed you so very much. Nothing distresses me more than knowing you will never be any older than 34. Forever 34 is what I have to say. Today would be your birthday and you would be 37. Oh how I wish you were here. We would eat, drink, and have fun. Love you much as ever, Mom

Hi Rocky, well, it is Thanksgiving Eve again and I am without you. I still miss you as much as ever. I find it hard to cook and enjoy myself without knowing you will be here for dinner tomorrow. I have not been making your favorite green bean casserole because it isn't the same without you here, Faith wants me to make it this time. I told her I would. Funny how I feel guilty making it because you are not here. I often post to your facebook page but not here as much. Seems I am the only one who writes here, but I can get many comments or likes, loves, or sad faces if I post to facebook. I thank Mandi for making this memorial site for me to post to. She cared very much for you. I will be up to the cemetery to see you again after the 1st. Times are so tough right now with Hope's check gone and times are troubled. You don't need to know all of that. Mom will get by as always. I just wish you were here. I guess that isn't going to happen. I love you, Mom.

Hi Roc. It was 2 years yesterday since you left me. I still have all the same troubles that I have always had. Sheila taking care of Mary down at the jail. Sheila will get out in March and I guess I will be a happy camper, I don't know yet until it happens. I miss you so deeply sometimes I don't know what to think about all of it. I am glad you are not in pain or suffering any more with those old bad habits that grab so many. Your daddy up there with you and Aunt Patty too. I see a lot of your friends have taken the same path as you and I know their parents are suffering the way I do. I am not glad you are gone from me. If I could have held you forever to keep you safe I would have. Mom has to let go sometime and let you be a man. Those choices are very hard when we grow up. I love and miss you so much it hurts. I sometimes can only cry and wish you were here. Love you much, Mom

Hi Rocky, I miss you today as always. I have you decorated for fall and then comes Christmas. If you were here only for a moment I would hug you so tight that they couldn't get you back. I lie in bed at night wondering if you know how much I miss and love you. If you would have confided in Mom she would have sit there with you all night just in case you needed me. I tell everyone now to never get high alone. That was the reason you are gone now is because you chose that devil to do alone. I'm not fussing. We will just learn to make better chooses in the future. Please keep a place in your heart for me. Love, Mom

Hi Baby,
I love and miss you so much. We had a lot of fun last 4th of July. I know you enjoyed me and girls coming up and having fireworks with you. I hope to do it again this year. I caught your flowers on fire and only a few of us know that. I know you was rolling in the sky over that one. I can't say how much the pain of missing you is. I know it hurts a lot. I want you here all the time. Miss you bad. Love, Mom

Your sister sends all her love. In 9 more months she will be out and we will come up and visit all the time. Fresh flowers for my baby all the time. I have made it through another holiday without you my son. I hate this writing shit to you. I want you here. This stuff is making me real sicker by the day. I know you don't want that is why I continue on. I love and miss you so much. You sister has not got to pay her respects to you or to her dad. Jail is a sad place. I wish neither one of you experienced any of this. Not to worry, I know who to be close to and who not to get too close too. Sometimes if you can't beat em, you join em, then beat em. Love, Mom and Sheila

Hi Roc,
Well, it has been a month ago today since I left a note or candle or flower for you. Today is St. Patrick's Day which never meant that much to us except maybe having a green drink or so. Sometimes we wore a green shirt or socks and such. I can't say that I am ever going to not be sad about this situation that we have gotten ourselves in to. I can't said you did it. If I had only known what you was doing there in the downstairs of my house, I would have been down there sitting with you and I would have caught you when you fell. I will never get over this. It only seems worse each day. Each time I get mad or upset or even just lonely I come up to your grave to visit. I don't really even have to have a reason, I just like to be up there. I will be up again real soon to put your Easter wreath. I love and miss you dearly, Mom

Hi Son,
I miss you so much I mostly don't know what to do with myself. I planted flower bulbs back on October 17, 2016 when I was there to visit you. I was told that they would not bloom this year, but lo and behold I went up there last week and they were all out of the ground everywhere. I went back up today and the Daffodils were standing tall and the ground were down to ground zero. The dear had gnawed them to a nub, so I don't expect any crocus this year. There were some other plants showing above ground and I think they were Tulips. I hope to have your entire grace covered by spring. I love you so much. I found the patch you gave me in my sewing box today. If I find reminders I always cry. I took it out of the box and I am going to sew it on something that I wear a lot. It says Journey and has a Minion on it. I love you. I will always love you is playing Mom

Another Christmas without you Rocky. I shouldn't have to go through this. I know you made a mistake and it was that you did that shit by yourself. I should have told you to go out and then you would have had someone to call the paramedics for you. I guess God has this plan and it wouldn't have made any difference. I will spend more Christmas's without you and I don't like that at all. I will come some day to be with you but I hope that won't be too soon. The Man with the Plan will let me know. I love and miss you very much, Mom

Dear Rocky, Another Birthday passes and I am without you. I went to your grave yesterday and placed a Christmas Wreath on it for you. You have many friends, but they don't visit like I thought they would. Youngsters these days were not taught much about decorating and visiting the grave. I usually saw that you have a Christmas cake for your Birthday, but now I have to settle for a wreath. I wish you were here to celebrate your Bithday as we always did in the past. Love, Mom

Dear Son, I have spent another holiday without you. Last Thanksgiving was much of a blur. This one was much more realistic that you are gone. Thanksgiving morning I woke from a dream that I was holding you in my arms and you opened your eyes to look at me and your mouth to speak. I then woke in immediate tears because of the realization that you are gone. Today is Saturday after Thanksgiving and I woke again this morning holding you in my arms once again. I don't know the sign, but I am sure glad to have had you(if only in my dreams) for just a moment longer. I miss you more than anything I know and now Christmas is coming back again without you and I am already sad a month in advance, Last year was a beautiful large full moon. That's about all I can remember about that one. Send me a beautiful sign for Christmas so that I know you are with me. Love and miss you dearly, Mom

My dear son Rocky II. I am leaving this note to you regarding your dad. Today is Veterans' http://s0.forevermissed.com/lst/r/o/rocky-layne-ray/photo/cache/armyrock_thumb_081237f6a194ec708109f59a753f2e74.jpgDay and your dad was a veteran. I will post a picture of him on your facebook for all to see. I hope you and him have found each other in Heaven because things beyond our control prevented you and him from being close as you should have been in life. I love and miss you more than any one could know. Love, Mom

Dear dear Rocky. It has been one year ago today that I laid you to rest at Spring Hill Cemetery in Charleston, West Virginia. I guess that was the single most worst thing I have ever done in my lifetime. I have been allowed to grow old at 63 and you my darling only son, I had to lose at an early age of 34. You know I will be up to see you today and to pay my respects to you anew. I love and miss you, Love Mom

Today is the day now that you have been gone for 1 whole year. I miss you as much today as ever. I have a lot of bad days and very few happy ones without you here. You are my son and my only son, my baby son. I love you today as much as anything in the world. I will close this tribute with a pic of what I look like on my bad days. Next time, I will try to find you a happy one. Love Always, Mom

Dear Rocky, my adopted nephew:) I remember you and feel your moms loss. Last night just 2.5 hours before up to the minute of your anniversary I sent her your baby picture, and ask her to not torment herself instead go back with years feel her youth and rock you in her arms:)
What ever I know about you makes my heart feel warm and glad to know you:)
After all in the end we will meet again, and hope for a sweet and warm greeting!
The Spirit never die. Last night after the moment of the anniversary passed I went out to walk with my dog and looked up to the sky and greeted you:) I know you were happy that my heart have such a TRUE love.

Kathy

I doll. I am thinking about the up and coming October 17, 2016. It will be a year that I have missed you. Sometimes I don't think I can make it without you. All that keeps me going is that I will be with you again some day and I know that to be true. I'm so glad you knew Jesus because he will see that we meet again. I love and miss you much, Mom

A Letter From Heaven

When tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes, filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn't cry,
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to stay.

I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you
And each time you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.
When tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.

I love and miss you Rocky. Why did you have to leave me. I was not ready. Help me to understand. If I was so sure I would see you again, I would be there today. I have no reason to be on earth. I love nd miss you, please help me to understand. I guess my belief is not strong enough or I would be with you right now. I love you

Rocky layne Ray the sweetest kind hearted man i truly fell for!! The one true love of my life I honestly never believed in soul mates until I met u! U showed me what true love is really about I mean sure we fought like cats and dogs sometimes but we also had more fun times verses the bad times! And it last message to me on Facebook truly shows how well u found peace within yourself before u passed! I also told me in that message " a 20 year old showed u what true love is about" and u also told me not to let anyone walk all over me because u thought I deserved to be cherished . I will forever remember u as the Big Man doing big things I just was there when u fell off. And I told u if always be there for u no matter what! Omg I remember the time me and u we're arguing and my mom told u to leave the house and u slept under a bridge and little ole stubborn me went straight down there and slept in tent city with u even tho I had a warm bed at home I couldn't let u stay down there by yourself! We truly have been thru ALOT especially in 2015 !! That's the year I will never forget and will forever wish I was stuck in instead I'm forced to live on without my babe!! Love u till the good lord takes my last breath in which is use to say to u one more time that I LOVE YOU.!!!!

A very lonely Mothers Day without you my son. Sheila still in jail and you gone forever. I am all out of children. I miss you so bad I dont know what I'm doing most of the time. Love and miss you deeply, Mom

Sunday, only 3 days from now, it will be 6 months since you have been gone. I miss you sooo much that some days I can't hardly stand it. I certainly hope it is good for you as I have been taught through the years. "I Will Always Love You."

I miss you today as if it was yesterday. The times goes by and I don't feel any better. I feel the same and worse all at the same time. I love you and miss you. When I get there, we have a party, not with drugs, with hugs. Love, Mom

Hi my son. I could leave a tribute to you every day. That's how great you are. Mom

There will never be another Rocky, Light the candle with love always.t Pattie

My sweet humble and quiet fiend, You were close to my hear because I always felt that you were exceptional in any ways. My soul felt it...
You were so handsome that is sin for an old woman like me to notice...OK keep smiling at me:)
Each time we run into each other made me feel good. You were some who made me feel relaxed. Your calm quiet sweetness....
And as the song says we will always love you! And sure we will meet again!
Your adopted aunt Kathy

I will always miss u, u where my friend and we are so close. I will always have our memories and know I will always love u and I'll see u again some day. Your friend April

Rock, you were my favorite cousin. I was an early 6th birthday present for you ;) You were my mom's favorite nephew (and only nephew, haha). Even thousands of miles away, we always stayed in contact. Keep my momma company. I love you Cuzzy. Always. I miss you weirdo. Always...