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December 26, 2017

time hasnt done anything to help i am worse than ever i love and miss you mom ,december 26,2017

It hurt so bad MOMMY :(

December 26, 2016

Mommy Happy Angelversary in heaven :( I never knew this moment without you would ever happen,me without you,its only me now,Mommy i dont have anymore family,its only your grandsons r.j.,cory and I :( I miss you mommy,do you miss me in heaven? Mommy there isnt a word in the DICTIONARY,that could describe the intensity of the pain of losing you :( Mommy if there were certain things about your passing that i didnt tell you,is because i love you,i was protecting you from the pain,and the pain that ate me alive for over 5 years seeing you SUFFER SO LONG AND SO MUCH,not fair mommy,i know if you do see me from heaven you are probably so MAD AT ME,as i gave up on god and i am so so so MAD,why did he take you? Not only were you my mom you were my bestest FRIEND,my strenght,you encourage me so much Mommy,YOU BADVISEDME,NOW THERE ISNT ANYONE THAT I COULD TURN TO :( i hate it Mommy,give me a sign FROM HEAVEN I AM BEGGING YOU,I CANT FIND ANY SOLACE OR PEACE,AS I WRITE THIS I CANT STOP CRYING,I ADMIRE YOU SO MUCH MOMMY,WHAT A TROOPER YOU WERE IF I COULD HAVE TAKEN YOUR PAIN I WOULD OF,I HAD DR CORNING TO GIVE U A PIECE OF MY HEART MOMMY,BUT HE SAID IT HAD NEVER BEEN DONE I DIDNT Care,i am sorry if i havent been at the cemetary to much,its because the thought of you and daddy behind there CONSUMES ME IT SICKENS ME,DONT BE UPSET IF I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO LOOK AT YOUR PICTURE MOMMY IT HURTS TO BAD,CORY POSTED THE PICTURE FOR ME,I NEED TO ASK YOU THAT RED CARDINAL THAT WAS ON THE BALCONY WAS IT YOU AS THEY SAY THAT A CARDINAL IS A SIGN OF A LOVED ONE THAT CAME TO VISIT,I feel AS I AM GOING TO FLIP OUT FROM THE PAIN,I HOPE YOU AND DADDY ARE TOGETHER AND OUR PETS,COME SEE ME MOMMY I LOVE YOU HOLIDAYS WERE REALLY BAD TODAY YOUR BIRTHDAY I USE TO BUY LOTTERY TICKETS,AND NOW I CANT,WELL MOMMY i am sure knowing you that eventually you will give me a sign i hope,unless your replaced me with an other daughter in heaven,i CANT WAIT TILL DADDY AND YOU WALK ME TOWARDS THE LIGHT,THAT WAY WE WILL NEVER EVER BE APART YOU AND DADDY,DID YOU NOTICE I HAVE FUR ELISE THAT YOU LOVED WHEN I PLAYED IT AT THE PIANO WITH DADDY,THAT IS THE ONLY THING THAT I COULD GIVE YOU AND THE MASS AT ST jOHN'S CHURCH,LOVE YOU LOVE YOU AND DADDY SO MUCH,KISS HIM FOR ME TELL HIM WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN i need to go now I DONT WANT TO BUT I KEEP ON REWRITING AS I CANT SEE THROUGH THE TEARS,SORRY MOMMY I BEEN TRYING TO BE SO STRONG FOR YOU,AS I KNOW THAT U HATED WHEN I CRIED,BUT YOU ARE SO IRREPLEACABLE U WERE THE BEST AND I WAS SO BLESSED TO HAVE YOU AND DADDY PICKED AS MY PARENTS,SO I HOPE YOU HEAR THE PIANO AND THE PIECE THAT I PICKED FOR YOU as a reminder that i use to play it for you and daddy.till we meet again,love you MOMMY I HOPE YOU SEE YOUR GRANDSONS FROM HEAVEN,THEY ARE 2 YOUNG MAN,AND CORY HAS A GORGEOUS GIRLFRIEND,YOU WOULD LOVE HER SHE HAS THE FACE OF AN ANGEL AND THE BLONDE HAIR TO GO WITH IT AND SHE IS SO GREAT TO ME. I love you SO MUCH MY INSIDES HURTS,IT WILL NEVER GET BETTER I KNOW AS YOU AND I WERE ONE.MOM AND BEST FRIEND <3