I love you Shaudon. I miss you so much , please continue to watch over me . Love you forever and always .

I dreamt about you last night you were so handsome and smiled so beautifully. I woke myself up after seeing your smile, because I couldn’t take it. My dream felt so real I felt the love and than a heavy feeling in my chest. I laid in bed for a moment telling myself that your gone and it was just a dream. All I could do in that moment was cry and tell you I love you and how much I miss you.

19 years........ This still hasn't gotten any easier . Shaudon I miss you tremendously, I often sit and think about us growing up . You would always protect me and show me you cared. How I pray that things would have been different. 19 years and I still don't know what really happened to you that night , that hurts a lot . But , I know your with me in spirit continuing to protect and watch over me from heaven . Kiss Lonnie for me . Love you for forever and always .

Sitting here thinking 39 would’ve looked good on you, but life happened and 20 is where you stopped (our son is 20 years old, that’s crazy huh?). This world has changed so much since you left, but two things will always remain the same how much I love you and miss you. I wish things could’ve been different I begged and pleaded with God, but he knows what’s best and that was for you to leave this place and enjoy paradise. I can’t be mad at that, but you’re missed. I was watching this documentary about people who’ve lost loved ones, and send signs that they’re ok. I cried watching it cause all these years later I still have my moments. I know I’m not the only one wishing heaven had a phone . I just want you to know I’ll always love you and will forever miss you. Oh you’re going to be a papa again our son is having another baby that’ll make 2 (he’s hoping for a boy this time). Happy early Birthday my love!!

Opening my emails and seeing your name takes my breath away. I’ll never be ok with how you left and I’ll never believe you deserved a short life. I love you and miss you daily. Lord knows I wish you were here especially now that you’re a papa :) Our granddaughter is so precious and our son is shaping up to be a good loving father. Time flies our son will be 20 years old and he’s a dad :) I wish I could share these happy times with you. I miss everything about you Shaudon and I’ll love you forever.

I’m just missing you I love you always!!

Words can never describe the pain I feel. You are more than my “cousin” you are my brother and
my protector. I will FOREVER be my brothers keeper as long as I breathe air through my lungs. Today I celebrate the memories, you loving me unconditionally, living fearlessly. That is the part of you I keep inside me forever. I remember you telling me “ Terri, I am your gun? Point me and I will shoot “. You protected me when I couldn’t protect myself . I need you more than ever right now Shaudon. Please continue to protect me . Love FOREVER AND ALWAYS until we meet again. Your cousin/sister
Love is FOREVER ♾

—Terri

A religious love for you baby
Every night I pray
That heaven will send you back to me
Baby you're all I ever needed
Dearly beloved, why did you go
When being with you forever is all I hope
Slowly the rain is falling in our home
Come back and start right from going wrong
I'll be still until I hear from you
And I'll be waiting until you return this message
A religious love for you baby
Every night I pray
That heaven will send you back to me
Baby you're all I ever needed
A religious love for ya baby
Every night I pray
That someday I'll have you for my wife
Baby you are my life, please believe me
For only God knows how much I miss you
And for us to be as one it takes two
So don't you go dying on me not right now
Please change the impossible to somehow
I'll be still there until I hear from you
And I'll be praying until you return this message
A religious love for you baby
Every night I pray
That heaven will send you back to me
Baby you're all I ever needed
A religious love for ya baby
Every night I pray
That someday I'll have you for my wife
Baby you are my life, please believe me
In the middle of the night, I'll be callin' you
Every single breath I take I hope to see you there
If you should ever need, if ever you need a friend
Baby I am here and don't forget to remember me
Oh baby, come to me, don't leave me lonely
I need you here with me so return this message
A religious love for you baby
Every night I pray
That heaven will send you back to me
Baby you're all I ever needed
A religious love for ya baby
Every night I pray
That someday I'll have you for my wife
Baby you are my life, please believe me

ON THE 28th of DECEMBER we love you..but God loves you