when you are missing your best friends and days get long without them

INSPIRED MY LIFE GONE ONE DAY AND ONE NIGHT AND DAY MAY IT SO UNBEARABLE FOR ME AND ALWAYS WILL. HOW DO YOU SUPPOSE TO FEEL WHEN YOUR BABIES ARE GONE OHYSICALLY FROM YOUR LIFE. IT HURTS LIKE HELL FOR ME, MANY WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND YOU TWO WERE THE MY SUNSET SUNSHINE MY CLOUDY DAYS AND MY NIGHT. EVERTHING TO ME. GOON TO SOON AND I HAD THAT PLEASURE OF LOVING YOU TOO BABIES. PRAYING YOU ARE TOGETHER, AND STILL SHARING WHAT I TAUGHT YOU HERE. KEEP THAT LOVE I SHOWN YOU FOR MANY YEARS.

BE AS WONDERFUL THERE IN HEAVEN AS YOU WERE HERE WITH ME, MY TEARS STILL FLOW. MY BEAUTIFUL BABIES, YOU WERE AND STILL IS MY SUNSHINE. LOVE YOU BOTH.

SAY THE SAME ON EVERY VISIT TO THIS PAGE...MISS YOU LOVE YOU, CAN'T GET OVER FACT THE THE TWO OF YOU ARE GONE STILL MISS AND LOVE YOU TWO. THE WEATHER IS TRYING TO BREAK AND I KNOW THIS THE SEASON WE USE TO GET PREPARED TO HANGOUT IN OUR YARD AND DO SOME WORK.. I AM STILL SADDEN THAT MY BABIES ARE GONE AND I CAN'T VISIBLE SEE YOU BUT I DO FEEL YALL AROUND ME ANYONE CAN SAY I AM SICK WITH ALL THIS BUT I KNOW WHAT I FEEL.. ALL I HEAR IS GET ANOTHER DOG OR DOGS, NO I CAN'T DO THAT I FEEL I WILL BE REPLACING MY KNYTRO AND ZEYNA..THAT WOULD NEVER HELP ME, BUT I GOT INTO A PEACE ZONE AND REMEMBER ALL THE GOOD THINGS ABOUT HAVING YALL AROUND AND ACTING SILLY... BUT I WILL CONTINUE TO MISS AND LOVE THE BOTH OF YOU FOR ALL MY LIFE...

LOVE FOREVER YOUR MOMMY...

WELL BABIES ITS COLD OUT HERE AND KNYTRO THIS YOUR KIND OF WEATHER , ZEYNA YOUR BUTT IS IN THE HOUSE LOOKING AT THIS CRAZY KNYT OUT THERE, I MISS YOU BOTH AS ALWAYS AND I STILL HURT AS ALWAYS I REALLY DON'T THINK THAT PAIN EVER GOES AWAY, I JUST THANK GOD THAT THE BOTH OF YOU ARE TOGETHER AND PLAYING AND RUNNING AROUND. I AM THANKFUL THAT YALL TOOK THAT ONE PICTURE TOGETHER I LOOK AT IT EVERYDAY I COME UP THE STAIRS ITS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PICTURE. I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU TWO..SEE YOU MY DREAMS!!!!!

A NEW HAS COME AGAIN, AND I WILL NEVER OVER THAT FEELING OF NOT HAVING MY BABIES WITH ME, KNYTRO AND ZEYNA II HAVE HEARD NOISES IN THE HOUSE ONLY THE TWO OF YOU MAKE, I KNOW YOUR SOUNDS, AND KNYT EVERY TIME I LEAVE I HEAR THAT SONG YOU LIKED.. WELL I CAME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT BOTH OF YOU WERE STILL SECURING THE HOUSE AND TRYING IN SOME WAY TO GIVE ME A MESSAGE WELL I GOT IT.. I WENT TO THE SITE AND SAW WHAT WAS GOING ON, AND ALSO I FORGOT TO SECURELY LOCK THE HOUSE AND SAW MY MISTAKE THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN, PEOPLE MAY THINK THAT I AM LOSING MY MIND OVER THE BOTH OF YOU BUT I KNOW DIFFERENT, SO I EXPRESS THE WAY I FEEL ON THIS MEMORIAL FOR YOU AND ZEYNA. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE AND FEEL THE PRESENCE OF MY BABIES, THE HEART DON'T LIE.. IT'S COLD AND SO MUCH SNOW WHICH YOU KNYT WILL BE OUT THERE PLAYING AND EATING THAT COLD SNOW ZEYNA WOULD BE IN THE HOUSE LOOKING AT YOU LIKE YOU'RE CRAZY.. I PRAY ALL THE TIME THAT BOTH OF YOU ARE IN GOD'S GLORIOUS PLAYGROUND HAVING FUN WITH ALL THE OTHER PRECIOUS ANIMALS, AND BEING HAPPY. I CAN'T STOP MISSING YOU TWO NEVER WILL I FORGET HOW MUCH HAPPINESS AND LOVE I HAVE FOR THE BOTH OF YOU..GOD KNOWS...ALL MY LOVE MY BEAUTIFUL BABIES..

DECEMBER IS COMING VERY FAST AND I KNOW YOU'RE AT PEACE NOW, YOU WERE SO VERY SICK AT THIS TIME WE BOTH WERE WITH ME HAVING PANIC ATTACKS CAUSE YOU WERE SO ILL. I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH, YOU WERE SO STRONG AND STILL PROTECTED ME FROM A VICIOUS DOG AT THE VET OFFICE. KNOWING YOU WERE SO DOWN AND SICK.. I ADORE YOU AND YOUR FAITHFULLNESS TO ME. LOVE YOU ALWAYS PRINCESS ZEYNA MAE LACHAE..MY HEART STILL HURT BABY..

KNYTRO AND ZEYNA I HAVE A BIG POTRAIT OF YOU BOTH RIGHT AT THE TOP OF OUR STAIRS SO I CAN SEE YOUR FACES, YOU TWO LOOK SO GORGEOUS IN THAT PHOTO TOGETHER, I NEED TO SEE YOU WHEN I COME UPSTAIRS THAT HELPS ME TO NEVER FORGET ANYTHING ABOUT YOU TWO.
WELL ZEYNA THAT COLD WINTER IS COMING OF COURSE YOU DON'T WANNA GO OUT THERE, BUT KNYTRO YOU LOVED IT AND I KNOW THIS YOUR SEASON TO ENJOY. I MISS YALL AT THE SAME PEEK I DID WHEN YOU LEFT.
I AM DOING SOME REMOLDELING AND I PLAN TO CHANGE A FEW THINGS IN LIFE TO TRY AND GET MYSELF TOGETHER.
I WILL ALWAYS CONTINUE TO BE AT THE SITE I HAD TO LEAVE YOU TWO. AND IT IS BEAUTIFUL. YOU TWO ARE NEVER OUT MY HEART AND FOREVER WILL LOVE YOU..
I DONT WHEN I WILL FEEL COMFORT I TRULY DON'T BELIEVE THERE IS ANY, BUT I JUST PRAY YOU BOTH ARE IN PEACE.
PEOPLE COME OVER AND SAY THEY SOMETIMES FORGET YOU TWO ARE NOT HERE BUT I TELL THEM YOU ARE. JUST FOR ME ONLY. I MISS YOU I LOVE YOU AND YOU WILL ALLWAYS BE IN MY HEART BABIES.

HELLO, MY BABIES, I MAKE IT TO VISIT YOUR GRAVESITE , MAKING SURE THAT THE WEEDS AND ELEMENTS DIDN'T DESTROY YOUR SITE, I HAVE MAKE IT VERY BEAUTIFUL FOR THE BOTH OF YOU, KNYT I HOPE YOU ARE BEING THE GOOD ONE CAUSE WE KNOW ZEYNA HAS A MIND OF HER OWN, AND I PRAY THAT YOU TWO ARE TOGETHER, CAUSE KNYT YOU WILL USUALLY DO WHAT ZEYNA DOES, YOU TRUST HER SO MUCH. I MISS YOU MY BABIES AND I KNOW THEIR ARE MANY WHO THINK I MAY BE CRAZY, BUT THAT DOESN'T BOTHER ME, NO ONE WILL NEVER KNOW THE BOND THE THREE OF US HAD.
AND THAT BOND REMAINS EVEN IF YOU AND ZEYNA ARE NOT PHYSICALLY HERE AT HOME, CAUSE MY HEART WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU. SOME THINGS I HAVE PACKED UP BUT OTHER THINGS YOU TWO HAD IS STILL IN OUR HOME AND REMAIN THERE. I SEE YOU KNYT AND ZEYNA EVERYDAY I LEAVE I PUT YOUR PICTURE WHERE I CAN SEE IT AND BLOW MY KISSES TO YALL EVERYDAY. PEOPLE TELL ME KHRYS GET SOME ROTTWEILERS, I THINK THEY ARE CRAZY, WHY WELL BECAUSE WHEN I TRAINED YOU TWO I HAD THE VERY BEST AND NOW I DON'T HAVE THE ENERGY TO INVEST IN ANOTHER. TO ME THAT WOULD BE REPLACING MY BABIES AND I CAN'T DO THAT.THE WAY I SEE IT, IT'S OK FOR THE TWO OF TO REPLACE ME WITH LORD(GOD) WHO IS MORE POWERFUL AND WILL FOREVER BE THERE FOR YOU. BUT NO OTHER CAN REPLACE YOU MY BABIES YALL WERE MY POWER. ZEYNA YOU STAY OUT FLIGHT AND GETTIN BARKEY DON'T TRIGGER KNYTRO CAUSE HE'S ALWAYS THERE WHEN YOU NEED HIM. THE MONTHS ARE GETTING COOLER ZEYNA YOU DON'T LIKE THAT AND KNYTRO THE COLD IS COMING AND SOON YOUR SNOW. I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE SEASONS AND WHAT WE USE TO DO PLAYING IN THEM. PLEASE LORD THEY ARE VERY GOOD, TAKE CARE OF MY BABIES....I LOVE THEM SOOO MUCH. REST WELL MY DARLINGS I MISS HUGGING AND SQUEEZING MY BIG BABIES..KISSES AND HUGS..

JUNE 16TH,2013..

WOW !! KNYTRO I REMEMERED WHEN YOU BECAME A FATHER, ZEYNA GAVE BIRTH TO ALL THOSE BABIES I BELIEVE IT WAS 12 OF THOSE LITTLE PUPPIES. I WATCHED YOU LOOKING AS SHE WAS GIVING BIRTH, YOU WERE WATCHING VERY CLOSELY, AND WANTED TO HELP ZEYNA, BUT SHE STOPPED YOU IN YOUR TRACKS. SHE WAS HANDLING ALL THAT, AND IN THE POOL. EVERTIME A PUP CAME OUT YOU WOULD GIVE A LOW WOOF!! TO LET THEM KNOW YOU WERE THERE, WE LAUGHED ABOUT THAT.

I BOUGHT EACH AND EVERY ONE OF THEM TO YOU SO YOU COULD SEE THEM. AND YOU LICKED ALL OF THEM I THOUGHT THAT WAS SO CUTE OF YOU. LETTING THEM KNOW YOU WERE THE FATHER.

AFTER THEY GOT SIX WEEKS YOU WOULD BE IN THE YARD WITH THEM WATCHING AND LETTING THEM COME TO YOUR NOSE AND YOU WOULD PUSH THEM GENTLY INTO A PILE TO STAY TOGETHER. WHILE I WOULD CLEAN ZEYNA.

YOU SLEPT BY THE CAGE AND WATCHED OVER THEM DAY AND NIGHT. THAT'S WHAT MADE YOU A VERY GOOD FATHER.

THOSE PUPS HAD TO EAT SOFT FOOD AND I HAD TO WARM IT, WELL I SAW YOU TASTING IT MAYBE YOU THOUGHT IT WAS TO HOT, THEN YOU WOOF AND ALL THOSE PUPS CAME TO EAT.. YOU WERE WONDERFUL IS THE REASON I HAVE TO GIVE YOU YOUR PROPS AS A FATHER.

YOU BECAME VERY AGGRESSIVE WHEN SOMEONE CAME TO PURCHASE YOU AND ZEYNA BABIES I HAD TO PUT YOU AWAY UNTIL THEY LEFT. AND ZEYNA WOULD LAY NEXT TO YOU TO SAY IT'S ALRIGHT AND LICK YOUR FACE..YOU 2 WERE AMAZING.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY !!! STILL REMEMBER EVERY DETAIL OF OUR LIVES TOGETHER....LOVE YOU BOTHXOXOXO...

THIS IS THE LAST DAY OF MAY.. AND I JUST LOST YOU KNYT, ON MAY 8TH..I COULDN'T LET THIS MONTH GO OUT WITHOUT SAYING I STILL LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU AND ZEYNA, I AM TRYING SO HARD TO MOVE ON, BUT IT'S JUST THAT I STILL SEE THINGS THAT BELONG TO BOTH OF YOU AND I AGAIN START TO CRY AND START ALL THE MEMORIES OVER AGAIN.

I DECIDED TO STOP RUNNING FROM WHAT I FEEL AND EMBRACE WHAT WE MEANT TO ONE ANOTHER. I HAD ANOTHER DREAM LASTNITE, BUT I WAS ABOUT ANOTHER ROTTIE, AT FIRST I THOUGHT IT WAS YOU, BUT THEN I TOOK ANOTHER LOOK, AND IT WASN'T YOU OR ZEYNA. BUT I EXPECT THESE KIND OF DREAMS CAUSE OF MY LOVE FOR YOU TWO.

AND I ALSO CAME TO PEACE WITH HANGING YOU AND ZEYNA PICTURE BACK UP. I STILL FEEL YOU TWO AROUND ME, I FIND COMFORT IN THAT. THANK YOU TWO FOR BEING IN MY LIFE AND LOVING ME. I PRAY I DID EVERYTHING RIGHT FOR THE BOTH OF YOU, AND IT WAS JUST THAT TIME.

WITH ALL LOVE !!!!XOXOXO

KNYTRO I WAS SADDEN WITH KNOWING YOU HAVE BEEN GONE A YEAR TO THIS DATE MAY 8TH.. BUT WITH THIS SADNESS I ALSO TOOK TIME TO REMEMBER ALL THE GOOD TIMES WE SHARED AND DID TOGETHER.
I CAN SMILE WHEN I THINK OF THIS CERTAIN SONG YOU GRASP AND USE TO LOVE TO DANCE TOO.
THE SONG WAS ATOMIC DOG..EVERY TIME YOU HEARD THAT SONG YOU WOULD JUMP UP AND BARK AND IF SOMEONE DANCED ON THE SONG YOU WOULD JUMP ON THEM AND GRAB ON AND START YOUR LITTLE HUMP WE ALL JUST USE TO LAUGH AND  SAY DAMN HOW KNYTRO KNOW TO DANCE TO THAT SONG. YOU WERE SO AMAZING IN WHAT YOU DO. MY FRIENDS USE TO SAY YOU WERE HUMANIZED..THERE WILL NEVER BE A DAY I WOULD'NT MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU.
SOME PEOPLE LOSE THEIR HUMAN CHILDREN, WELL I CAN UNDERSTAND CAUSE I LOST MY SON WHICH IS YOU. AND IT CAN NEVER BE FORGOTTEN.
BE WITH PEACE WITH THE LORD, AND TAKE CARE OF OUR ZEYNA.

                                                           YOUR MOMMY
                                                            WHERE EVER YOUR SPIRIT MAY BE

TODAY IS MAY7TH,2013..

AND IT'S EARLY IN THE MORNING AND I JUST KEPT THINKING THAT TOMORROW WILL BE THE THE FIRST YEAR OF YOUR DEATH, AND HOW WILL I HANDLE IT. WWELL I TELL YOU IT WON'T BE EASY FOR ME. I AM ALREADY SADDEN WITH THE FACT THAT YOU ARE GONE AND TO REMEMBER ALL THE WONDERFUL DAYS WE HAD TOGETHER, I CAN PRAY AND CRY, AND BEG , BUT THAT WON'T BRING YOU BACK INTO MY ARMS. I DO SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS AND I CAN FEEL YOU, BUT THEN THE DREAM GOES AWAY AND ONCE AGAIN I LEFT WITHOUT YOU. I LOVED YOU SO MUCH AND I JUST PRAY YOUR SPIRIT IS AT PEACE NOW, AND YOU ARE BLESSED BY GOD..LOVE YOU KNYT..

I MISS YOU, I TOOK A NAP  TODAY AND ALL I COULD REMEMBER IS THAT I WAS HANGING OR SEPARATING CHRISTMAS LIGHTS. AND YOU KEPT WALKING AROUND AND SMELLING EVERYTHING AND THEN I DECIDED TO TAKE A NAP, I SAID KNYT COME AND LAY DOWN A TAKE A NAP WITH ME, I HEARD THE BED CAVING IN AND YOU SNUGGLING UNDER THE COVER AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN WE WERE GOING DOWN ON SOME TRACKS AND STARTED GOING AROUND SOME MOUNTAINS REAL FAST AND YOU LOOKED UP , I SAID KNYT WHAT THE HELL WHERE WE GOING, SO WE JUST KEPT ON RIDING, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THAT WAS ABOUT, BUT I AM YOU WITH ME AND I FELT YOU, YOUR FUR WAS SO WARM, AND I WASN'T AFRAID. NEVER WAS I AFRAID, BECAUSE I TRUSTED YOU SO MUCH...  I MISS MISS YOU,   ALL MY LOVE!!!

MARCH 22,2013..

NOTHING HAS CHANGED AS FAR OF MISSING YOU KNYT AND ZEYNA..DAYS STILL COME AND GO WHEN I CRY OR WAKE UP LOOKING FOR YOU. I HAD MY SURGERY DONE AND I WOKE TODAY LOOKING FOR YOU KNYTRO CAUSE U WERE THE ONE WHO TRULY GOT ME THRU THE LAST ONE. ZEYNA WAS ALWAYS THERE TO HELP ME ONT HE STAIRS, KNYTRO AND ZEYNA I CANT DRIVE RIGHT NOW BUT AS SOON AS I CAN , I WILL BE TO THE GRAVESITE TO VISIT.  MY HEART WILL FOREVER ACHE FROM  M ISSING YOU TWO. I TRULY HAVE BECOME STRONGER FROM HAVING BOTH OF YOU, AND I HAVE LEARNED NOT TO FEAR ANYTHING AND TAKE CARE OF MYSELF, YOU CAN LEARN ALOT FROM YOUR BABIES WHEN YOU TRULY LOVE THEM.

FEBRUARY 16TH,2013

I WAS AT THE GRAVESITE FOR THE BOTH OF YOU THIS MORNING, JUST TO SAY A PRAYER AND LET GOD KNOW I STILL LOVE AND MISS THE TWO OF YOU. I CAN'T EXPRESS MY GRIEVING ALL I KNOW IS THAT I ALONE WITH YOU AND ZEYNA IN MY HEART. I ASK GOD EVERYDAY  TO BLESS YALL AND TO GIVE THOSE KISSES I USE TO GIVE TO THE BOTH OF YOU EVERYDAY. IT'S HARD AND ALL I DO IS KEEP ALL THOSE VERY GOOD MEMORIES OF ALL THE TIME WE SHARED TOGETHER. SOMETIMES I LAUGH AT ALL THE FOOLISHNESS YOU TWO GOT INTO AND THE WAY YOU DID THINGS. I WAS SO BLESSED TO HAVE THE TWO OF YOU IN MY LIFE AND MY HEART. KNYT YOUR SON IS A DEFINITE AND TOTAL YOU AND SOMETIMES IT BOTHERS ME TO BE AROUND LIGHNING. HE HAS ALL YOUR BIRTHMARKS AND THE WAY HE DOES THINGS YOU DID..THAT ONE IS YOUR TWIN. ZEYNA DID GOOD IN GIVING BIRTH TO ALL YOUR PUPS.. XOXOXO

HELLO MY BABIES, TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY FEBRUARY 1ST. AND I AM MISSING THE BOTH OF YOU SO MUCH TODAY. WE HAVE ALWAYS SHARED OUR BIRTHDAYS TOGETHER, BUT I KNEW THAT YOU AND ZEYNA WAS WITH ME, SHARING THIS DAY WITH ME CAUSE I FELT YOU AND, I DID VISIT YOUR SON TODAY KNYT AND ZEYNA, I CAN'T BELIEVE ZEYNA HOW LIGHTNIN IS SO IDENTICAL TO KNYTRO IT AMAZING, THEY EVEN HAVE THE SAME SAME BIRTH MARKINGS THEIR TEETH ARE PLACED THE SAME WAY, I REMEMBER ZEYNA THAT WAS THE PUP YOU KEPT BRINGING TO ME  AND I TOOK A PERSONAL INTEREST IN, IS WHY I LET MY SISTER TAKE YOUR BABY. SO I WOULD BE ABLE TO SEE HIM. WELL TO SAY THIS I MISS YOU TWO STILL SO VERY MUCH AND  BEING AROUND YOUR SON MADE ME REALIZE I STILL HAD THE TWO OF YOU TODAY AND I GOT SOME COMFORT FROM THAT. I BEEN TOLDED TO GET ANOTHER DOG I CAN'T BECAUSE I CAN'T REPLACE TWO OF THE ONE'S I EVER HAD. I REALLY CAN'T ADMIT TO THE BOTH OF YOU BEING GONE. I JUST WON'T DO THAT. IF I SAY IT TO ME WILL BECOME REAL, AND I STILL CAN'T ACCEPT IT.MY HEART BELONGS TO YOU KNYTRO AND ZEYNA.. NO REPLACEMENT REST IN PEACE MY BABIES. AND I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH...

MY BABIES, KNYTRO AND ZEYNA I WAITED TO WRITE THESE WORDS TO YOU BOTH, I DID COME TO YOUR PLACE OF BURIAL, AND PLACED BEAUTIFUL ORNAMENTS WITH YOU TWO. I TRY TO KEEP EVERYTHING SO CLEAN AND PEACEFUL AND WONDERFUL FOR THE BOTH OF YOU. I STILL HAVE A HEAVY HEART AND I TRULY WILL ALWAYS MISS AND LOVE YOU TWO. WINTER HAS COME AND I KNOW KNYT HOW YOU LOVED IT. AND ZEYNA HOW YOU WOULDN'T DEAL WITH IT HA HA. SWEETIE. SOMETIIMES IT GETS SO LONELY AND I GET SO SAD AND UPSET. BUT TO KNOW THAT YOU'RE WITH  THE ANIMAL ANGELS AND BEING GOOD THAT GIVES ME GOOD THOUGHTS. KNOW THAT MY LOVE IS WITH YOU BOTH AND HOPEFULLY YOU ARE TOGETHER. ISEE YOUR BABIES AND IT BREAKS MY HEART. LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH. NO OTHER CAN TAKE YOUR PLACES.
                       YOUR MOMMY....

OK MY BIG BABY THANKSGIVING IS COMING THURSDAY TODAY IS TUESDAY AND I AM MISSING YOU AND ZEYNA. I REMEMBER THE TIMES I WOULD BE COOKING AND YOU NOT ZEYNA WAS SITTING THERE WAITING FOR ME TO DROP SOMETHING OR JUST WANTING THE BIG BONES COMING YOUR WAY, SHE WAS SO COOL ABOUT IT AND YOU JUST COULDN'T WAIT. SO I WOULD CUT THE TURKEY UP FOR YOU AND ZEYNA TO GET THOSE BIG BONES, DAG KNYT IT WAS GONE IN 2.5 SECONDS. HAD TO MAKE YOU DRINK ALOT OF WATER TO MAKE SURE IT WENT DOWN BOY. BUT HTIS YEAR I AM COOKING AT tINA HOUSE CAUSE I CAN'T DO IT HERE AT OUR HOME CAUSE I WILL THINK ABOUT ALL THE GOOD TIMES  WATCHING YOU AND ZEYNA AND US BEING UP ALL NIGHT COOKING. AND YOU 2 HANGING IN THE YARD RUNNING AROUND. I MISS BOTH OF YOU SO MUCH. LOVE YOU ETERNALLY.

NOVEMBER 14TH,WAS A HARD BITTER SWEET DAY FOR ME. I WENT TO YOUR GRAVESITE JUST TO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU 10 YEARS OLD U WOULD HAVE BEEN, I PRAYED AND CRIED WHY WAS I LOOKING AROUND  LIKE I WAS EXPECTING YOU TO COME RUNNING TO ME AND KNOWING THAT WASN'T GOING TO HAPPEN. I NEED FOR YOU KNOW WHEREVER YOU ARE THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, AND MY HEART STILL WEIGH HEAVY ON MISSING YOU. HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU'RE MY BABY FOR LIFE,

XXOOXXOOOXXXO.

KNYTRO ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY AND IT'S SAD FOR ME TO KNOW YOU'RE NOT HERE TO BE HUGGED AND KISSED. BUT IN MY HEART I HAVE ALL LOVE AND KISSES FOR YOU. I MISS YOU BABY, AND AS I SAID BEFORE ALWAYS WILL. I CAN FEEL YOUR LOVE FOR ME EVERYTIME I DO CERTAIN THINGS. YOU ARE 10 YEARS OLD TODAY NOVEMBER14TH. AND TRULY I WANT TO JUST HUG YOU AND LIGHT A  CANDLE FOR ALL YOUR YEARS OF BEING MY BEST FRIEND.... WE SHARED SO MUCH DID MANY THINGS TOGETHER, WE LIVED OUR LIVES AS ONE. THERE WILL NEVER BE A DAY I FORGET YOU. THANKS FOR ALL THE WONDERFUL AND ENDEARING TIMES WE SHARED I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! A CANDLE WILL ALWAYS BURN FOR YOU.

WHEN YOU OWN A PET AND THEY BECOME A MEMBER OF THE FAMILY YOU FEED THEM YOU CARE FOR THEM YOU PROTECT THEM, YOU GIVE YOUR HEART TO THEM. THE BOTTOM LINE IS YOU BECOME THE PET AND DOING WHAT IS NECCESARY OUT OF LOVE, IN RETURN THEY GIVE IT ALL  TO YOU..

SEPTEMBER 26,2012

I HAD TO DO WHAT MUST BE DONE, I HAD A BURIAL(FUNERAL) FOR KNYTRO AND HIS BELOVED ZEYNA, IT WAS VERY SAD AND THERE WAS SOME MANY PEOPLE WHO ATTENDED SOME WITH THEIR PETS, I APPRECIATED THAT. IT WAS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL HOME GOING FOR MY BABIES AND I DID PUT THEM TOGETHER WITH THINGS THEY SHARE IN THEIR LIVES TOGETHER. I CAN DESCRIBE THEIR HOMEGOING TO A HUMAN PERSON. THEY WERE LOVED BY ME AND MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS, ONE THING IS FOR SURE THEY WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED AND LOVED.. IT TOUCHED AND HURT ALL OF US TO SEE THEM GO. I WAS SO HURT AND I AM AND WILL GRIEVE THE LOST OF OF MY BABIES(KNYTRO AND ZEYNA). I WILL NEVER OWN ANOTHER I HAVE LOST THE HAPPINESS IN MY LIFE AND THE LOVES OF MY LIFE. I CAN ONLY PRAY TO BE ABLE TO GO ON AND KEEP ALL THE THE WONDERFUL MEMORIES OF THEM.. JUST KEEP ME AND MY BABIES IN YOUR PRAYERS.

WHEN I DECIDED I WANTED TO BE A ROTTWEILER OWNER, I KNEW I NEEDED TO WORKOUT AND HAVE A STRONG PERSONALITY, SO I WOULD BE ABLE TO HANDLE SUCH A MASSIVE BIG DOG, MY SON-IN-LAW SAYS TO ME DO YOU KNOW HOW BIG THESE ROTTIES GET, I SAID OH YEA! BUT I CAN DO IT.. WELL I NOT ONLY  GOT 1 I NEEDED ANOTHER, A FEMALE RAISED THEM TOGETHER AND I LOVED IT. THEY WERE THE BEST OF THE BEST, POWERFUL, HUGE, AND GORGEOUS. I MADE SURE THEY WANTED FOR ANYTHING, RIGHT THERE ON MY SIDE, DAY AND NIGHT. II EXPERIENCE A LIFE WITH THEM OTHERS COULD'NT IMAGINE, BUT WE SHARED GOOD TIMES, FUN TIMES, SICK TIMES.. KNYTRO LOVED WINTER TIME ALL THAT SNOW I COULD'NT KEEP HIM FROM OUTSIDE, SNOW RUNNING, AND PARK HIKING IN IT, WADDLING IN IT I SAID I AM COLD, HE KEPT AT IT. LOVE BATHS AND ALWAYS AFFECTIONATE TO ME. LOVE TO LAY HIS HEAD ON MY LAP AND GO TO SLEEP WITH HIS HEAVY SELF.I FELL AFTER A KNEE SURGERY, I CALLED OUT AND MY TWO ROTTIES CAME AND I SAID PULL ME UP I GRABBED THE COLLARS AND THEY PULLED SO HARD I THOUGHT I WAS FLYING. SPOILED IS THE WORD FOR MY BABIES.

When I first moved in to my new house -Knyt was the first one to greet me.  I was standing in the snow in my back yard and looked over the fence and I noticed a huge dog- I thought to myself" this dog must be on a snow pile or something because he was huge"  the most muscular dog I had ever known.  Even though he looked like a giant - he had a heart of a lamb, what a lover.  The relationship he had with his mistress (Khrys) was amazing.  He was so well trained and took his job of protecting his home and family as his mission in life.  His girlfriend went to heaven a few months before he did- I think he missed her so much and wanted to be with her again.  Rest in peace big guy- I'm gonna miss you.

PS- Bella secretly had a crush on you :)

I ALWAYS HAD SOMEONE TO TRUST AND KNEW THEY WERE THERE FOR ME, AS ANY OCCASION OR SITUATION THAT WAS MY KNYTRO. MASSIVE STRONG AND ALWAYS HAPPY WITH A NO FUSS ATTITUDE. MY RIGHT HAND PARTNER. ELEGANT, SMOOTH, LOVING, AND UNDERSTANDING. ALWAYS GRATEFUL AND FULL OF ENERGY, HAPPY TO BE WITH FAMILY AND ENJOYING PARTIES AND PLAYING AROUND. I REMEMBER WHEN I USE TO DO LAUNDRY HE ALWAYS WANTED TO CARRY THE CLOTHES FOR ME, BUT HE ALWAYS GRABBED HIS BEDDING AND WANTED IT WASHED SAT TO WAIT FOR IT DRY TO CARRY IT TO HIS ROOM. WHEN HE WANTED ANYTHING HE PULL ME STRAIGHT TO IT, I JUST SMILED AND GOT IT. KNYT KNEW TIME OUT OF HABIT, KNEW WHEN IT WAS TIME FOR US TO GO TO SLEEP FOR THE NEXT DAY HE WOULD  GET ON THE STEPS AND GIVE ME A LOOK, AND WAKE ME EVERY MORNING. HE FOUGHT FOR ME, PROTECTED ME, LIVED HIS LIFE FOR ME. SAYING PRAYERS AT NIGHT HE WOULD SIT ON THE EDGE OF BED AND KNEEL HIS HEAD. LOVED TO DANCE. THERE IS JUST TO MUCH ABOUT HIM, HE WAS AMAZING!!!!I WILL FOREVER MISS HIM AND THERE WILL NEVER BE ANYONE TO TAKE HIS PLACE. HE DIED WITH SUCH DIGNITY AND RESPECT TO ME.