“How lucky I am to have something
that makes saying goodbye so hard”
I have been meaning to write this for sometime now. At first I couldn't, I just wasn't ready. Then there was no time, no internet, no whatever. But everything happens for a reason and today, now is my time, not to say goodbye, to remember and smile at the treasured memories I shared with an amazing person. Today I needed strength. Today I needed to remember Stacey.
Stacey and I had an 'unconventional' friendship. 9 years ago when I first 'met' her, I knew her as UwouldntBelieve, one of her favourite 311 songs, in an msn chatroom. We just clicked. I had never met a person who was WEIRD as I was! Ha, it was awesome. We would chat for hours about nothing and have the best laughs.
We had the same insane random thought patterns that very few people could follow our conversations. So often we'd type the same thing at the same time. Making up our own gang signs out of baseball signals. We were and always will be Nutz and Fudge, the two best ice cream toppings!
One of my favourite conversations was about a news article. 40 drunken santas raided a town centre stealing and running a muck. They even attacked a Christmas Tree. Part of the conversation...
Kung Pao Ninja Hurt (Me) says:
trippin people with garland tied between two trees
Smalls McNinja (Stacey) says:
wearing fake santa beards with signs that say damn the man
Kung Pao Ninja Hurt (Me) says:
posting naughty pictures of the elf's "after hours" party last year
Smalls McNinja (Stacey) says:
LMFAO
Kung Pao Ninja Hurt (Me) says:
hahahahaha
Smalls McNinja (Stacey) says:
mean while one drunk emotion tree sits on the curb holding a box of tooth picks crying, pouring out a little tree water for his fallen homies
Kung Pao Ninja Hurt (Me) says:
all those wrongfully chopped down without a permit
The end of our conversation went a lil something like that....
Smalls McNinja (Stacey) says:
only to find out that walruses are cheap jew like members of the SP [south pole] who don't tip well enough to make a living
Kung Pao Ninja Hurt (Me) says:
This year's christmas show "Rud ‘take its all’ olph"
Smalls McNinja (Stacey) says:
omg omg omg breatheeeeeeeeeee!
Kung Pao Ninja Hurt (Me) says:
HAHAHAHA
Smalls McNinja (Stacey) says:
how is it possible for us to take christmas and turn it into a protest and reindeer porno?
Kung Pao Ninja Hurt (Me) says:
We’re just that good! Great minds like dirty…. I mean alike?
Smalls McNinja (Stacey) says:
nothing is sacred with us lmao
Kung Pao Ninja Hurt (Me) says:
LMFAO aawww life wont be as much fun if it was... and we would never be allowed to speak.. or type!
Kung Pao Ninja Hurt (Me) says:
Im so saving this conversation for the grand kids!
Like I said, just crazy randomness. Stacey was the only one I could do that with. She was one of my best friends. She was there for the good times and the bad. I tried to be there for her.
Sept 25, 2009, the day before my wedding ranks up in my 10 best days ever because Stacey and I finally met! BWAHAHA! She was an honorary bridesmaid. Her parents, being the wonderful people they are, drove Stacey 8 hours to be there for me. Something I will never ever forget. Having Stacey there meant the world to me. Everyone who had made a major impact on my life was there, her presence made it complete.
If there was anyone in the world who truly understood me and accepted me and boosted my 'creativity', it was Stacey. She was my soul twin. And my music guru! Although a small part of my heart will always have sadness for her lose, my heart won't be so big without her. My life won't have been so colourful without her. My future won't be so bright without her looking over me.
I hope to have half of Stacey's strength to live life to the fullest. I want to see the colour pink and remember her smile. To celebrate 3/11 every year. To make sure Napoleon Dynamite lives on FOREVER! To own crazy socks. To care for our four-legged and scale covered and water breathing family members. To watch Judge Judy every day... ok maybe not so much that one, but to remember how luck I am to have Stacey in my heart and her family was my friends.
Stacey, you rock my socks and brighten my life. I love you and will miss you always.
Forever, Fudge – Xtine - Christine