- 46 years old
- Date of birth: Apr 7, 1958
- Date of passing: Feb 1, 2005
|Let the memory of William (Billy) be with us forever|
This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, William (Billy) Self Jr., 46, born on April 7, 1958 and passed away on February 1, 2005. We will remember him forever. He had a love for life that included family and so many friends, he always had the most infectious smile and laugh, there was just no way anyone could be unhappy for long when he was around. He enjoyed having cookouts for all that wanted to show up. Our holidays were so special with Billy,
he was always there to make his Mom smile (me). He was a awesome carpenter,everything he made was with his heart and soul put into each item.He was known for the furniture he made as Christmas gifts for his family. If you ever met him, you would never forget where or when. Billy was the oldest of 7 children, he did not always agree with his brothers or sisters, but you can bet your last dollar that he would be where ever he was needed for any part of his family right or wrong and he would fight you to the end..
"Happy Birthday Son, my heart was so sad I could not come to your page and write on your special day. Angie And I are keeping your place of rest decorated for each holiday. My Benji died recently and I cry for him too. I miss you so very much, It seems some times That I get lost in my younger days and am holding you close to me while you ate, you were such a good baby. I am trying to just remember the good times our family had together with you and Carol sharing our holidays. I miss my Lady bugs, I haven't seen one in about a year. Not sure how much longer I can grieve. You would be proud of Susan, she is very happy with her new life. No more of being hurt. Well guess I should get off of here and finish my cleaning. I Love you honey, please keep your eyes on us when you can. Dad sends his love upwards to you. Today is Susan's Birthday so send some penny's from heaven for her to find."
"Happy birthday BILLY! We love you and miss your laughter."
"Another year without you, we miss you so very much, me and mom spend quite a bit of time visiting you and keeping your place all nice and clean. Wishing you a happy birthday and wishing you were here, I know you are so happy in heaven, but we sure do miss that sweet smile and that crazy wonderful laugh of yours. Save me a spot in heaven, keep an eye out for me, what a awesome day when we can meet again.
I love you more today than yesterday
"Happy Birthday I miss our life so much, not sure how much longer I can go without you. Carol"
"Billy you are loved and missed very much. I know you are happy in Heaven and that I will see you again one day. I miss your laugh very much."
"Billy; It has been along time since I talk with you. I do missed you and miss working along side you. I think of our times talking about having our cookouts with all the family. I am and always will be proud to call you son. Will talk more soon. Dad"
"Well here we are again 12 years later, it's so hard to take a breath when I think of you and all that our family has missed without you. I still grieve
and there is not a day that goes by without a few tears. Honey, I am so looking forward to hugging Jesus and then to hold you forever. Son for the first two years of your life was really hard at times, but God brought us through it. and he is still here to help me. My faith is very strong and I know that whatever happens that God has a reason for it. I wish you would send me a few Lady Bugs, I haven't seen one in a long time. Angie and I fixed your resting place really pretty for Christmas, well at least we thought it was pretty. Today we got started decorating it for Valentine Day. So as you can see you are never alone all the time. We Love to do this for you and will continue. I Love and miss you so much that my heart hurts. Please stay close to that Gate. With every breath that I take one is for you. I always keep a candle lit for you.
Always and for eternity I'll Love you. Mama"
"Where is the time going, its been 12 long yrs since you left us, 12 Christmases, 12 Easters, 12 birthdays, without you, without your sweet smile, and your crazy self. I don't think I will ever get use to you being gone, so much has happened since you left, some good and some not so good. There is a new little one that has joined our family, her name is Jayde, she is so very precious to us, but she came to soon, so if you could ask god to please be with her, she is quite the little fighter, but she is very small and undeveloped, we pray that god will help her to be strong and to keep fighting. I will love you forever and always"
"Laura Ashleigh and I went to your grave site yesterday to rake away the leaves and plant some flowers. While we were there an older gentleman pulled up. Asked who could he contact about burying his brother. We told him who to contact, and he proceeded to tell us his story. The whole time he was telling us, he was smiling and cutting up. Even though you could tell his heart was heavy and his eyes were a tad sad, he was smiling! You could tell he loved his brother very much. His laugh was silly. His jokes were many. Kinda reminded me of someone- YOU! it was almost as if you were there. Cracking jokes. Making us smile. I will always miss you, but your memories are so big in my heart. I love you!"
"I love you. I miss you. Our home has never been the same without you in it."
"Well my sweet brother...that day is here again. I miss you every minute of every day..You were missed at Thanksgiving, you were missed at Christmas and at mom very 1st birthday party and everyday before and after. There are just so many just one more times, If we could just hear that crazy laugh..just one more time, if we could have just one more hug, or just one more cookout. But I know we will all be together one more time and until that day please watch over us....I love you the most"
"Well here we go again, its Jan, 29th 2016 and Feb 1st is right around the corner and my heart is so very sad: I've had more down days than
Happy ones. Billy I miss you so much that I feel like I'm losing my mind sometimes. My time is getting shorter in this world. I'm not ready to die, but when Death comes I will be ready to go and if God has forgiven me and he said he has, I'll be heaven bound. I missed you at my first ever Birthday party and it was my 75th. until I get there watch over your family. I Love you son"
"Another year is here, and you're not. We miss you dear brother."
"miss you man...."
"Being alone for most of my days make me remember, think about and miss you........... Always"
"You have been so heavy on mind... I miss you so much, if I could just here that laugh.... just one more time, or get that little nudge... just one more time..... I love you"
"Hope you knew that I loved you and I that I thought you were a great friend. I respected you and appreciated you very much my big brother. just my thoughts on this rainy day.....smiling through tears as I walk through memory lane."
"Happy Birthday, I love and miss you more than I can put into words. I know your happy in Heaven with Jesus. You are missed so much by everyone here. I miss your laugh so much, you could always make everyone smile. I can't wait to see you again one day. I love you"
"This candle is lit and burning so that I will never lose hope and site of where you are. When its my time, I want to be able to follow the same path as you did. .As birds sing and the flowers bloom and remembering
Christ death and being risen, it does bring so much joy to my heart, and I'm happy where you are, just would like you to be closer to me. I Love you with all that I am or ever will be. I thank God for letting me be your mother and friend.. Happy Birthday my sweet boy .Dad and I love you"
TIME heals a many things,
Or so the old saying goes,
But until you've lost a loved one,
There's such a pain that no one knows.
An aching heart, a loneliness,
A wounded spirit cut so deep,
That at the mere mention of their name,
the soul begins to weep.
Oh, as the time slowly passes,
There are moments which are grand,
As you recall the good life they had lived,
It feels like they're still holding your hand.
But some things big and even small,
Cause such pain, knowing they are gone,
Certain smells in the air, things often said,
And all the special days, all the year long.
No time could ever heal such an aching heart,
Or fill the space they left when they went away.
Time only seems to makes it worse...
...as missing them grows stronger with each passing day.
by Norman Martin
in loving memory of William "Billy" Self
Happy Birthday! dear brother.
I love you."
"Happy Birthday Billy. We love you and we miss you."
"Well today is your birthday...I miss you so much...I love you with my whole heart, I know you are having the best birthday party ever... and I know you are looking down on us and giving us a that little nudge to keep going when we feel like we can't , mom misses you so much, sometimes so much that it scares me, hold her in your arms and keep her safe for us, I love you with everything in me"
"Happy birthday Uncle Billy!! Words can't express how much I miss you. I love you so much. You made me promise to never forget you and even after all these years that could never be possible bc I miss you and think of you every day."
"Well its the first day of April and we should be planning for your 57th Birthday party, but since that is not possible we will get together at your place of rest and sing and lay flowers and let balloons go toward heaven. I Love and Miss you baby. Thanks for sending Angie a God Wink. I sure could use one. Stay close."
"Sleeping in a dresser drawer. ⬇️⬇️ Now that's funny. Miss ya Billy."
"You are my most favorite oldest SON and I miss and Love you dearly.
Today all I can think about is you. Remembering you as a beautiful little
baby that slept in my dresser drawer. you were my life then and now. I Love and Miss you baby."
"Just a quick note to let you know I heard someone saying something today that reminded me of you. Whut' zup, is what I heard. Geez the many, many times you answered your phone that way! Missing you- Billy-him-self very much!"
"Hello my big brother, I'm missing you a lot, you are never far from my thoughts, It seems like the older I get, my heart yarn to have you near me. 'if heaven weren't so faraway I'd pack up the kids an go for the day"
"I miss you my brother. William2105"
"That is a beautiful poem that your sister wrote to you Honey, I hope that God is letting you see and feel all the love that you left here on earth. Life here is getting so hard, there is so much evil in the world. I know one day soon we will all be there with you as God want let this happen for much longer, I Love You Son with all my heart. See you soon."
"You showed me a lot of things,
I learned a lot I didn't know,
But you forgot to teach me one last thing
How to let you go,
I know you didn't mean to leave me,
Sometimes we have no choice,
I miss being your little sister,
Hearing my name called by your voice,
I wish I got to say "I Love You"
Before you were given to the sky,
If God could grant me one last wish
I'd ask to say "Goodbye"
You always meant a lot to me,
I could never love you less,
I Know It's True When They Say
"HE ONLY TAKES THE BEST""
"I can't believe it's been 10 years since we seen your beautiful smile, as I look at your picture and hear your voice we recorded, it breaks my heart that I can't tell you I love you and how much you meant to me. I know one day I will see you again in Heaven. I know you are happy with Jesus and aren't in any pain and I am thankful for that. I love and miss you so much!!!"
"I woke up early on Sunday had cried most of the night. Its Feb.! 2015
And I open up the news paper right away to find your memorial, But it wasn't there, that started my down hill spiral for the rest of my day and night. So for our family and friends that won't see this in the paper. Please take the time to write some thing here. Thanks for reading and remembering My loving Son who always had a smile for everyone
In Loving Memory Of
William(Billy) Self Jr.
April 7.1958-February 1,2005
In tears we saw you sinking,
We watched you fade away,
All our hearts were broken,
You fought so hard to stay,
But when we saw you sleeping,
So peacefully free from pain,
We could not wish you back,
To suffer that again.
God, Thank you for the Angel
You Loaned us for awhile
He brought us Love and Laughter
That will be our everlasting Smile
WE Love you Honey
Mom Dad Wife Carol
And Your Loving Family"
"We, your family, gather by your side today, to clean up the winter droppings and plant flowers. There was food and laughter, with loving thoughts of you. Still, our hearts were heavy with your absence. We shed a few tears, missing you and wishing we still had you with us. The wind blew with a chilly wind, as though you were urging us to not linger, with grieving hearts, for too long by an empty grave. I know you aren't there. I know you're in a safe, better place. I know we shall meet again. I love you, always."
"Only three words come to mind about you today on this ten year anniversary, I Miss You."
"Good morning, I think of and miss you everyday of my life, but every year when this day comes my heart aches more, I miss you more than you will ever know, oh how I miss that infectious giggle you had, and yes even your crazy humor, I smile now just thinking about you, you deft kept us laughing. Please watch over mom, she has the biggest heart of any mom I know, but she grieves for you so much that her heart aches I miss you...I love you Oh Carol came to moms birthday dinner, it was wonderful to see and talk with her, she misses you so much"
"Hey Honey, well its 2 days after Christmas and everything here is good.
I held it together while everyone was here, but cried for so long after all had left that I fell asleep crying and woke up with my pillow all wet and still crying. I miss you so very much. It seems that as the years pass without you the more sadness replaces the happy in my heart. I do love you so."
"Hello My darling son, another year is coming to a close and as always my sadness out weights the happiness that should be in my heart. Another Christmas without you, when does the grief end? We will see Tracy Ann and your grandchildren after Christmas, I wish that we could have found her before you had to leave us. You looked for your daughter for so many years and she was so close, she is sadden that she didn't get to know you as well. You would be so proud of her honey and it hurts that you didn't get to know her. I know in my heart that you are in the heaven and wouldn't want to come back here even if you could. Just know that you are loved and missed so much. Every second and hour, You were gone to soon. I love you."
"Good afternoon honey, missing you a lot today, Its a hot humid one. I don't go out much , I can't stand the heat. I miss you like crazy. Everyone here are all good, Since Susan got a divorce,she seems to be
happier. If you can please keep an eye out for her and push her if something is right for her"
"Hello Love Bug, its been awhile and its time for one of those little red bugs. I still miss you with every breath I take and that won't change. I don't cry everyday with real tears on the outside, but I'm always grieving in my heart. My life continues on here and God isn't ready for me yet and that is ok for I know that someday I'll be there with Jesus and you. Until then I'll be here loving and missing you. I Love you Son."
"What I wouldn't give to hear your silly giggle, it was so infectious , and could make me smile on the saddest of day's. I love and miss you lots."
"Hello honey, I am so anxious tonight not really sure why, but its bad, I have taken an Ativan I hope it works soon. Lord do I miss you, I have a lot of blessing here on earth, but my heart still grieves so deeply for you. I know that Jesus walks with me and he carries me many times when I simply can't go on and my baggage is to heavy. Watch over all of our family. I Love you so very much and I need my Lady bug, Please"
"Hello my handsome big brother, I miss you so very much, plz continue to look down on and protect us, I miss you lots"
"sure would love a wrap around porch on my house....i bet i could talk you in to coming to texas and helping me out, miss you man"
"Hello my sweet brother, please continue looking down on and watching over mom...she misses you so so much, it breaks my heart watching her be so sad. I miss you more today then I did yesterday."
"Hello Son, I tried so hard to get out of bed yesterday to write you here, but just didn't have enough strength to face another Mothers Day without all of my children. Not to mention all the pain I was going through after surgery, but of course I can not down play what your sisters and your brother Martin did for me. I hope you could see the pictures that he had put on canvas to hang on the wall, one of my favorites was of our last picture together, we were both so happy and it was your Birthday, which made it even more special. Honey I miss you so very much and I still cry a lot. I think all mothers that have lost a child feels the lost forever in her heart. The kids gave me a forever heart necklace that the diamond in the center is constantly in motion.I will think of that diamond as being you. All in all I had a good Mothers Day. I Love you."
"I've had you on my mind so much lately, You would have been so very proud of Laura Ashleigh, and I know you would have been her biggest and loudest part of our family at her collage graduation Sat. I felt your presents with me there and my heart was so full of happiness for her.
Thank you for always being close when I need you the most. I Love you."
"hello my brother, thinking of you alot today"
"thinking of you"
"Wishing my son a very Happy Birthday in Heaven, I think I'm a little envious of where you are, but I know one day we will celebrate all our Birthdays with Jesus. We can only give you flowers for awhile, Please wait on each of us at Heavens gate. I Love you more than words can express and miss you more with each day that passes."
"Mr. Self, I never had the pleasure of meeting you, but I have had the pleasure of meeting some of your family and friends. All of whom spoke very highly of you! GOD brought your daughter, Tracy, into my life and I knew I had been BLESSED from the moment I met her. I vow to you that I will Love, Honor and Cherish her and your grandchildren for as long as I live!!! I know that you are watching over them from Heaven with Pride! Sir, you are the Father of a very Special Woman, Mother and Wife whom you should be very proud of. She personifies the Very Best traits that everyone remembers and cherishes about you!! She misses you very much and loves you, therefore I miss you and relish in the fact that I will meet you in God's Kingdom of Heaven one day! Happy Birthday Sir!!"
"Happy Birthday in Heaven Dad! I'm sure celebrating with God is surely special! I've been wanting to write you a lot lately, thank you Nana for creating this so that I could put my thoughts into words. I hate more than anything that we missed so much of each other's lives, and here on earth I will never understand the why's of it but I know when I get to Heaven everything will fall into place. I've been blessed with your family that loves me and they never missed a beat with that. They keep your memory alive and help me with the peace of knowing that I have one of the best angels looking out for me each and every day of my life. I know you're watching me and your grandchildren grow up, and I can feel you with us in my heart and I know that you are happy. So today we celebrate you, and your life, and I thank you for bringing me into it. Until we see each other again, keep holding my hand through this life, I'll certainly have yours. I love you. Your forever little girl. Tracy Ann"
"Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetime, is certain for those who are friends. ~Richard Bach
We all miss you as family and friend, and we'll all see you again."
"happy birthday billy"
"I know you are having the biggest birthday party ever, and celebration in heaven today, but we miss you here on earth so very much, if only we could have one more birthday, one more Christmas, one more Easter, just one more day...I miss you oh so much and love you bigger than the sky"
"Even now that I am all grown, there are still times I need my big brother. When I sit and reflect on the times that we shared, the vacations we went on, the cookouts, those 5 am calls wanting me to braid your hair before you went to work. Or the times you'd just show up at the house wanting to chat. I miss those days. I miss your crazy stories and jokes. Your infectious laugh. I am grateful to of been a part of your life's journey. I know this is only temporary. We will all be with you again one day. More than likely you will have new stories to share, more love to give, and the laugh.....cannot wait to hear it again. Until then, I will hold your memories close to my heart. I love you my brother. ~tg"
"A day doesn't pass that you aren't in our thoughts. Though you had your faults, your love for your family and friends out weighed all of them. We will see you again buddy."
"My Life will never be the same without him, but God has Blessed me with much, I have 2 wonderful sons and 4 beautiful daughters grand's and great grand's and My wonderful husband Larry, Lord thank you for without you, My husband and my children I would not be able to go on with my life
I Love all of You so much. Please share your lives with me, I need all of you more than you know
Your Mama, Mom and mommy"
"Although I only knew you for a short time, you made a big impression in my life. I am blessed for having known you and happy to share with my wife her memories of you."
"Billy, I know your with Jesus and happy, we miss you, your laugh and smile. I love you so very much"
"Billy I miss you so very much"
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