Hi Billy brother I miss you so much I couldn't come to write yesterday and it hurts so much wish you were here to guide me through the problems I'm going through. I had to get another roommate because I fell behind on my bills I miss you so much Billy and go lie I turn into a b**** this time of year every year I just wish you were here to help me and to guide me I know you're watching over me and I'm grateful for that just know that I miss and love you so so much Tell Mom and Dad I said hi I love you Billy your little sister

It's been 11 years today since you left us. It's harder for me this year....I'm still dealing with mom passing away. At first I didn't realize what today was until I saw my memories. I miss you so very much. I wish you were here to tell me everything will be ok....you're not.
Happy Valentine's Day....I didn't forget sweetie. I love and miss you so very much. 

Merry Christmas sweetie. I'm a bit late only by a couple of days. It still doesn't seem fair that you aren't here with us. It's our son's anniversary of his birthday and death....he would have been 38 today. I'm going to the cemetery later on today to put flowers on his grave. We miss you so much Billy. It's hard without you. I love you.

Happy Thanksgiving sweetie....another holiday that you aren't with us. It's so hard not being able to talk to you or call you. We'll see each other again. I love you and I miss you so very much.

Happy heavenly birthday Billy!! Another birthday without you, I don't think I'll ever get use to you being gone. I know in my mind that you're not here but my heart still doesn't believe it. I will ALWAYS love you.

Happy Father's Day sweetie. I'm so sorry it's late, I didn't forget. Mom's not doin very good. I've been going back and forth to the hospital. I wish you were here so I could talk to you. I can't do this on my own. I miss you so much. I love you.

Happy Easter sweetie!! Just wanted to let you know that I miss you and still love you. I wish you were here with me. I wish heaven had a damn phone....guess they can't afford it...lol. Give our son a huge hug from me please. 

Hi sweetie.....it's been 10 years already since you left us. I think about you all the time. It's hard for me sometimes, I don't want you to think that I've forgotten you.....trust me, I haven't. I finally was able to go see Stefanie and Amy and the kids. Jackson, Airyan and Khloe have grown so much. I really hated to leave. I tried not to cry but I did. I got sick after I came back home...it's just an upper respiratory infection, I'm getting over it. I know I've missed a few holidays.....Christmas, Valentine's Day.....it's ok....you're still on my mind every second of the day. I know you're in heaven watching over all of us. I still wish heaven had a phone, I miss talking to you so much. Never forget that I love you with all my heart.

Hey Billy, chill little sister I know it’s been a while and I’m sorry I’ve been so busy. Trying to get my jobs in order in just working my ass off. I got a new dog he’s a German shepherd. His name is Zeus. He’s beautiful he’s only a puppy he’s got a weeks old he’s amazing I just wish I can potty train him faster it’s just hard with me working and not being home that much. I miss you so much I might not write all the time but I sure do talk to you a lot. I miss you so much. Tell mom dad in Norman Rio said hi and grandpa I love you Billy I miss you . I love your little sister

Happy Thanksgiving sweetie....another year without you. I wish that heaven had a phone, I have so much to tell you. I thought about the Thanksgivings we shared.....there were alot. I love and miss you every day. You're always on my mind.

I too am thinking of you Billy have been for a minute I am missing you so much I wish you was here so I could talk to you even though you are not here I still talk to you at least once a week.

Just thinking about you

Happy birthday brother I miss you so much I know you are watching over me I love you also tell Eric I said I’m thinking of him and miss him also. Also tell mom and dad I live and miss them too oh don’t forget to tell grandma and grandpa I love and miss you all. I am trying so hard to get through this summer. So I can start working more hours. Happy birthday. I love and miss you so much.

Happy 65th birthday sweetie.....I still have your old phone number and yeah I called it....just a recording like always. I wish I could hear your voice again. I miss your laugh....I can still hear it. Have a happy heavenly birthday baby. Tell Eric and the family I said hi and I miss them too. I love and miss you.....always and forever.

Happy Father's Day hun wish you were here. Hope you're resting well

Happy Father's Day sweetie....we love and miss you alot

Hi Billy well I just wanna wish you a happy Father’s Day and know that I love and miss you so much you will be so proud of me I’m doing so good I wish you were here to see it tell dad and Eric I said happy Father’s Day love always your little sister Tina

Hey brother I just want to say I love you I’m sorry I missed saying happy Easter a lot going on I just found my neighbor passed away so I just want to say I love you and I miss you so much love your little sister Tina

Happy Easter sweetie....
I haven't forgotten about you, you are still on my mind all the time.
I love you.

Who goes another year Billy I miss you so much bye-bye now you know Eric‘s up there with you I can’t believe you’re gone both of you tell mom and dad I miss him and love him I miss you so much you would be so proud of me I’ve got three jobs they’re all part time I’m doing really good I’m still clean and you guys should be so proud of me I just wish somebody was here with me I miss you all so much I know you guys are all watching over me and I will see you one day again I love you all Billy I miss you so much  Tell everybody I miss and love them and don’t forget Norman Ray I miss you all love you little sister Tina

Well it's been 9 years since you got your wings and it still feels like just yesterday. We all love and miss you. Tony's good and so big. He'll be 12 next month and he looks just like you. Til we meet again

I miss you so much Billy I posted a picture of me and as a boy I look just like you I love and miss you so much merry Christmas love your baby sister

Merry Christmas baby!!! I remember how much you loved Christmas. You were like one of the kids, so excited. I think about you all the time. I wish heaven had phone service, I would so love to hear your voice again. Tell everyone in heaven Merry Christmas for me. I miss and love you so much. 

Merry Christmas eve sweetie!! Another holiday without you. I love and miss you so much.

Happy Thanksgiving sweetie....your favorite holiday. I remember how much you loved the food. Have a wonderful day in heaven with all our family. I miss and love you 

Happy birthday sweetie!! I wish I could call you like I use to but heaven doesn't have phone service yet. I really wish they did. You are so missed by the girls, Tina and me. I love you so much. I always will. Happy birthday baby

Happy birthday Billy, I miss you so so much you would be so proud of me I still live by myself I’m taking care of all my bills I wish you were here to be here with me. You would love it no cars that go speeding by no stop lights in town no stop sign I just want to tell you I love you so much and I miss you and I wish you the very happiest birthday I love you brother love your little sister Tina

Happy Father's Day sweetie....we wish you were still here with us. Even after all this time, it's hard not to want to call you....but heaven doesn't have phone service. I love you and I miss you every day.

Hi sweetie.....well I made 15 years being clean. I can't believe it's been that long. I know that you're proud of me. I'm pretty proud of myself too. I wish you could be here to help me celebrate it. I know that you're watching. I love and miss you.

Happy Easter sweetie.

Hi Billy I just want to say happy Easter and let you know I miss you so so much I wish you were here I love you tell mom and dad in Norman Ray and grandma and grandpa’s tonight I love you your sister

I've been thinking about you alot lately....I wish I could talk to you. I know that's impossible. I have so much I want to say......questions I wish I could ask you....I love you.

Billy it’s been eight years ago today lord how I you. I wish that you would’ve never went away you’d still be here I miss you so so much I know you know what’s happening between me and Leisa I’m done now with her I never again want to be around her. But as for me I’m doing really good I still work I like my job I love this house I love where I live but I miss my family I’m by myself which I think is good I just wish you were here with me I miss you so much Billy one day again I will see you. I’ll see the brother that I’ve always remembered my superman you were always there for me I love you Billy I miss you so so much love always your little sister Tina. PS I’ve been talking to DD And Vine and I’m trying to get her cousin to let meet Tony and they changed his name Noah I think I can’t remember what she told me but yeah I’ve been talking to her if I got any nephews out there I want to meet them one of these days Nick and Ray are going to come see me I hope to see him soon the only one I’ve got a find now is David I’m also talking to Sherry and Kim I talk to them all except for David. Well just know that you are missed so much and I love you so much tell mom and dad and Norman Ray and grandpa and grandma and aunt Tresa and uncle Joe and aunt Billie and uncle Merle-and the baby and that I said hi and I love you all so much I miss you guys

Hello you talked to Tina and sent her pictures of Tony and she said he's your mini you lol I thought that was cute. Well I miss you and thank you everyday for that beautiful boy Everytime I look at his pictures. Well I just wanted to drop in and send our love. Rest peacefully

Well I talked to Dee last night and she sent me a picture of Tony  I’m staying cordial with her. Well give mom and dad and Norman Ray a hug from me I miss you all so much. I live you and miss you

Happy Valentine's day sweetie. I know I'm a day late....I tried not to think about it. It's hard for me without you. I miss you so much. I love you to infinity and beyond.

Hi brother, just a quick note to tell you I miss you so much it hurts every time I think about you being gone you would be so proud of me I’m doing so good it’s hard at times but it’s doing good oh my friends are passing away my sister‘s niece passed away a couple weeks ago she was only 53. Francine sent me some pictures of everybody’s graves grandma and grandpas the babies Ronnie’s dad’s I wish I was able to go get mom’s ashes but they’re already gone I miss you so much Billy I love you always will you’re a little sister Tina

Hi sweetie....I went to the cemetery this afternoon to put flowers on our son's grave. I tried not to cry, it didn't work. I ended up calling Amy, she helped me get through it. It's still a bit hard especially since you've been gone. I walked over to dad's grave and put flowers on his too. I stopped by Ronnie Porterfield's grave for a minute. I miss everyone so much. I wish everything could be like it was.....I know it can't be. I love you so much. Give our son a hug for me please. 

Hi sweetie....it's our son's birthday today, he would have been 35. I always sit and wonder what he would have been like or how would his life have been. I think about him always. Give our son a huge hug from me please. I love you both so much.

Merry Late Christmas brother I miss you so much it was a long day yesterday I love you so much and you are missed everyday love your sister

Merry Christmas baby. I miss and love you so much. Always in my heart, always on my mind.

Happy Thanksgiving sweetie....one of your favorite holidays. You are so very much missed by all of us. I have alot of memories with you and the family especially during the holidays. I miss and love you so much.

Well brother your little sister made it 10 years clean I’ve been out of prison for one year one month today I love and miss you so much you’ll be so proud of me I’m also working at the restaurant in town at the old hotel I live in an old ghost town I have a house that I rent it’s a little house it’s a one bedroom but it’s a pretty good size Leisa staying here with me right now tell mom and dad I said hi and I love and miss them too

Happy Halloween sweetie....I miss and love you. Always.

Happy heavenly birthday sweetie. I have so much that I want to tell you but you're not here for me to tell you. I just remembered something....remember the birthday in Oxnard, I told you I had a surprise for you. We all walked outside to Norman Ray's driveway.....I told you I brought you a motorcycle, you were so excited. We got outside and you were looking around. I got you this tiny little you motorcycle.....you bent down to pick it up and started laughing. It was all I could afford but you loved it anyway. I made you smile, that's all that mattered. I love you and miss you so very much. .

To my loving brother, I miss you Billy so so so much I want to tell you happy birthday you’re gone but never forgotten in my heart you would be so proud of me Billy I’m doing so good I have a house I rent I’m not working yet but I am looking for work again I’ve got my own vehicle now i’m still with Brian we’re getting along so much better I’ve been sober now for almost 10 years God I wish you were here I would love to bring you up to this house you would love it it’s quiet it’s peaceful the serenity here is just amazing I’ve got a great neighbor I live right outside of Bullhead city right outside of Laughlin. But most of all I just want to wish you the best day tell mom I said hi and dad too I know you guys are all together I love you Billy and I miss you so much happy birthday big brother love always your little sister

Hi sweetie,
I guess you know by now that our daughter Stefanie got married to DJ....July 11th, 2020 in Reno. I wish you could have been there with us. You would really like DJ. He's good for Stefanie. DJ loves Airyan like his own daughter. Jackson walked in your place along with me. Amy was the maid of honor, Khloe was the flower girl and Airyan held the rings. I know you were watching everything from heaven. We really missed you that day.

Happy Father's Day sweetie! You are so very much missed. I think about you all the time. I love you....forever and ever.

Hello u, I just wanted to let you know Tony is now ten and looks just like u. Thank you for giving me such a beautiful blessing. We miss u and will see u again one day. Send my love to my mom.

HI Billy I want to wish you a happy Easter and to ask you to tell mom dad Norman and grandpa and grandma I said hi and wish all of you a very happy Easter just want to let you In still doing great and I love and miss you all have a blessed day I will see you again One Day love your little sister