Daddy, it's the 7 year itch!! Today started off so shitty. First the coffee went all over the floor, then no gas in my car and then the internet was down at work forever! I miss you so much and I can't even explain the pain I feel in my heart right now! It's supposed to get easier and it seems like it's harder now then before. Your granddaughter is such a pain in my ass, but she sometimes talks about you like she knows you. It's insane. I still keep you as close to my heart as I can and I know that you watch over all of us down here everyday! Please know that no matter how long it's been, my heart hurts the same. I'll never forget the numbness I felt when mom called to tell me you finally passed. It took so long for me to finally feel the pain/heartbreak of knowing that you were truly gone. It sometimes still feels like you're just on a temporary vacation instead of in heaven. I wish that you could meet DJ, who will be your son in law in less than 2 months. He treats us very good and does so much for us. He loves Airyan like she is his own daughter. I'm almost positive I found the right one this time. I know that you will be there in spirit while mom & hopefully Aunt Tina walk me down the aisle. I hope that you always watch over us and please if you could, would come see Airyan in her dreams to tell her to be good and to do her hardest in school. She is having such a hard time in second grade. I hope that at least one of the balloons we released reached you by 7pm. Say hi to Jimmie and both of my Joe's. I love and miss you so much!!
