Just like yesterday
It does not seem like it has been almost 9 years without you Shandi, It still seems as if it were yesterday and the questions are still the same. No questions were ever answered. It still is not fair. Living life without you is sometime unbareable. Nothing is fair about this. Your daughter is getting so big and she misses you so much.. She is so grown up but this little girl should have to live a life this way without her mother. She is an exact twin of you. Her voice, her walk, her attitude, its just like watching you. Which then it makes us miss you more..
There is not a day that goes by that I dont think about you and where you would be today.. what would she be doing right now if she were with us? Would you be married?. Would you have more babies? The list goes on and on.. The "what if's" are something that never goes away and somedays are worse than others. You have reached out to us and we feel you. You have spoken to us and we have heard you.. we just wish it was more. The more we hear.. the more we want. your heart was so good and your messages show us that. Being a mother that has lost a child now makes it hard to see other mothers heartbreak when things happen.I know that heartache.. that hate, that guilt, that fear, that anger.. It should never be like this.. I will treasure the day that you meet me at the light to take my had to be with you. That broken link sometime will be repaired. Until then.. We love an miss you more than anyone could imagine. your daughter misses you and asks about you all the time.Please watch over us all.. Your brother, your sisters and your baby girl. Until that special day... Always and Forever... MOM...