I cannot believe Adam is gone. Adam is one of, if not the most, important figure of my youth. I spent so many years believing that he would be the one I'd be with forever, the man I would marry. Ali and I even once had a late night drunken conversation about planning a wedding on a budget at Kelly's wedding. But life pushes and shoves and in the end we were toxic to each other. It took me a solid year to come to the realization that I'd have to make a life without him. I always hoped, wished, and prayed that he'd find love again, settle down, have a family, and just lead a happy, fulfilling, and prosperous life. That opportunity has been taken from him. How I wish the news were different. I thought about him at my nursing graduation. I even thought about him on my own wedding day. Few people have impacted my life as much as Adam and his family. There was a point in my life where my whole life was him. It's so strange to have once been so close to someone but he became someone I just used to know. I am deeply saddened to hear of his passing. I would have loved to have said to goodbye; to close the chapters with fuzzy vague endings, to tie the loose ends. To let him know that I never stopped loving him, we just were not right for each other any more. And that's okay. Because love always prevails and he was an easy one to love.
To the family;
For all of you I pray for peace, love, and closure.
With love,
Paula
Aka "pooty" or "poopskid"