Dad, your dreams
"Dad im writing this , same time tears running down my eyes.....If only you could get up alive to see the pain youve left on my shoulder, i know you will jion me to cry profusely.....Daddy, you know ive never had anyone in my whole life as caring and loving like you.....You were not rich, you didnt come from a rich family, but you had a gift and a charm the world admired.....You shared the last penny you had in your pocket to make sure your children get the best education in the world.....Daddy, you even transfered that love to even the students you thaught.....Growing up was hard and harsh, especially days when the government refused to pay your salaries.....You had no money to send us to school, but that never stoped you from fighting to make sure your children get education and a better future.....Day after day, after teaching from school, all tired, you will nap for 3hrs only, then pick up your cutlass into the farms to look for food for the family to eat.....Daddy youve suffered...All i wanted was for God to bring you to America to met your baby boy that you raised to be an ambitious youngman, to take good care of you and keep you around peace, calm and rest.....Daddy i always remembered calling you for 10yrs on the phone that ivent seen you since i travelled to America in 2006.....I can hear you always laughing , so excited to hear my vioce and telling everyone ***thats my american boy****.Daddy, your greatest joy was to met me ones again after all these years....Just when you were ready to met me, thats when the devil struck you with terminal illness, somthing that kept you in the hospital for 7months.....Just when everyone thaught you will die, God raised you up on your feet.....God finally presented you in my arms in america on April 1.....I could see the excitement when i saw you on that wheelchair at the airport....You almost got off your chair on those paralysed feet to grap me.....*****my son***dad burst into tears of joy.....10yrs is a long time missing a son in a fathers arms......I also remember vividly you staring at this new evolution of life, this new found place, country full with golden lights at night and tall towers, the lights that was dazzling as we drove over the JFK bridge in New York city....Daddy was so excited to see America hes always been told.....Daddy called America ***paradise on earth****.Daddy will call everyone in Cameroon to tell them of the glamour in america......Eventhough dad was in pain from his illness, he never felt it cox he was so caught up in the beauty scenery of America.......At home, me and dad had the best time ever.....His back pain was killing him, i will carry him on my back to the bathroom were he gets his bath.....In the bathroom, dad said somthing that i will forever keep in my heart.....dad said....""""O God, thank you for giving me a son"""""he even said,""""If i die today, Patrice, i will be happy because youve showed me paradise""""::****Youve done it""::were his last words on his dying bed......April 4 i took daddy to the hospital were he was given the best treatment for his illness ever......unfortunately, the illness had taken a hold on dad, and Doctors told me he was getting worst......We prayed with pastors, my pastor Rev.Ruzor George, we prayed with family members, i even asked daddy to pray with me....I told him to be strong, that God will never let him die.....Daddy will respond in a hidden tone "amen"""......Nothing could lift dads spirit or energy at this time that his been confined on his bed for over 2weeks, eating nothing, looking frail and weak, except for one thing......his favorite music....****dark city sisters****Everyday, at home, in the car or on his hospital bed, daddy will ask me to play that albulm.....This epic south african song will lift dads spirit as i watch him nodding and clapping his hands while he was waiting for dead to come......Dads favorite scripture before he passed was ****John 3:16......This is the scripture he last quoted when Rev Rizor asked him what his favorite scripture was......His best baptist song was*****Abraham blessings are mine*****At exactly 6:20 on April 23, dad passed away, somthing thats been a big scare on the hearts of his family, friends and children who still dont know why God should take dad just that moment when his just getting to enjoy life with a son his not set eyes on for 10yrs.....Daddy im so depressed each day, we had dreams, so much to accomplish together....now ive to do it without you..
Werever you are, may your spirit be with me so i can finish what you left uncompleted, especially unite your family and take good care of the family...
I love you so much, and you know that....
R.I.P my hero..
Your son, Patrice..."