Man before you passed I went thru so much and I always felt like it was the worst things ever and I could always tell you about my life and you would understand. Even tho I was younger I was still older mentally and we always connected like we really were sisters but really since you been gone I've changed so much I can never tell if it's good or bad but I been so lost without you. I miss you so much! Your laugh, your smile, your voice, your face , all of your being . I still remember that morning at 4 I had a whole bunch of missed calls from you and I finally woke up and seen and I called back asap cus it's 4 in the morning something must be wrong ... Only to have willie answer the phone and tell me you were gone . It really breaks my heart that tragedy where not only you lost your life but two others and I miss Donavan a lot too he was a good person such a beautiful smile and I wish things could have been different for everyone. Hed always play with my son and Lyssa kids when we was at sweets place he always had a smile, good personality ❤️ Rest in peace Kenya. It was just so random I still find it hard to think about. It was almost a whole month since the last time I got to see my cousin , even though we texted on and off thru then I still never got to see you and the fact it was that long since the last time I seen you and I know I'll never have another chance eats me up. I just wish more than anything you could still be here , you been with me since day 1 literally , I miss you so much it hurts so much. Tell pop pop I miss him soooooo much too. Y'all were the closest to me.. Nothing ever the same no more. Most times just wish I could be with y'all this world ain't no good and neither are these people in it. Your babies getting so big I swear I love them like they were my own! I know you love watching them every day . Wish they could have their mommy back though. Alyssa Malee Carr aka Sweet ❤️ You was my favorite , I love you. 

Alyssa was always a pretty easy goinq girl.. As a young child she would always laugh at everything & have a caring attitude.. She absolutely LOVED Barney lol,, & it was funny because she could set their for hours & hours watchinq the same 6 hour video tape over & over...She was very smart when it came to her memorizing words to songs because she knew every single song like the back of her hands