Austin, I miss you so much. My life has changed so much since you left to go be with our Lord in Heaven, Some times I wonder just how my heart is still beating. I don't really know how it keeps going. I really thought the day you left I would not be here any longer than 6 months at the most. That I would be with you in Heaven with our Lord. It's been 3 years and 7 days now since you left, I am still here. I know that one day I will be with you again, to never be apart again. God has Promise me that. I worry about your Daddy, I guess maybe God wants me to keep looking out for him. I see the hurt, and pain he carries with him every day. It hurts so bad, I can't take away the pain like I could when he was a child.I pray for him every day. They say with time the pain I feel and carry in my Heart will heal. No I don't think so. It some times feels like my Heart is going to burst .Don't think I am not grateful for my life here, I am. I just miss you so much and want to put my arms around you and hold you like I did that last night we were together. I thank God for the time he let me have you here on earth. But I still miss you. I will always remember the last words you said to me on that Christmas night, You said Ganna I love you more. then you ran down stairs and was laughing, because I couldn't catch you and tell you, No I love you more. I remember looking down the stairs and seeing you laughing,and that Beautiful smile on your face. I thank God I am able to remember that last night.when I think of the smile you had on your face that night, it brings a smile to my face. People have told me I need to let you go, but as you know I can't do that. I never will be able to. I guess you know that by now. Austin, I'll stop for now, but remember that I LOVE you and MISS you so very much. Never forget this my baby boy. Please don't forget our promise we made , I Love you, never forget. Love you Austin, Ganna