June 5, 2020
June 5, 2020
hello nan its me charlotte i just want you to know that i think of your everyday and although the days have gotten easier it dosent mean i dont love you any less its simply because since you have died ive had to teach myself to be strong! sometimes i get cold shivers or feel like someone is with me and i feel like thats you reminding me that im doing just fine and your giving me the gentle reminder to keep going. i know im not perfect but i do try to be the best version of myself and thats thanks to you! i promised you i would do well in school and i done that and because i done that its made me the person i am today. you are the the first biggest pain i ever felt in my life but i also know you leaving was the best thing for you because you was no longer in pain but i guess you dont realise that when your so young. i still remember the feel of your soft wrinkled hands in my hand and your soft face looking so peaceful. i hope when its my time i see u on the other side but for now i know u will continue to watch over me and my son and for that is what keeps me at peace with your death! i loved you so much and still do i just wish my son could have met you. sorry for not posting in so long but i promise i havent forgot u . love u always xxxx charlotte