I remember that time you took Alex fishing when she was three and promised you would watch her like a hawk. Well i sneaked down to the pond to see how things were going as soon as I did I saw Alex go jead first into tje pond, lol. It scared me to death but you were so cool and calm you gently picked her up quickly, looked around to see if anyone saw and kept right on fishing and she didnt even cry! I thought that was so funny. You were always so cool, calm and collected. The traits I loved most about you. My favorite was how you told me everyday how much you loved me and i am so glad for that. We did it to each other and our children before and after they walked through the door and as often as possible. It was as if you knew you wouldnt be here with me toll the end of our lives, old age. I will miss growing old with you sweet love. The love you had for our family knew no bounds. Come back to me in my dreams sweet Brad, my handsome love. For you are already deeply sketched into my heart, soul and mind. We miss you so much, maybe too much. I dont care all i know is how i feel and i miss you more than the flowers miss the rain. Wish you couldve been with us on the pontoon boat yesterday you wouldve love it. You wouldve packed it full of your fishing poles and dove into that water and slowly swam as u always did, enjoying every moment. You were with us baby, we all felt your presence. I wish i could hold your face in my hands and rub on your beard and run my fingers through your hair as i always did. To feel your hands on my hair and face i would trade all my material possessions just for one moment of it. To feel your rough hands on my face and neck like you use to do. 

Thinking about you all day again as usual. I love you so much and will till the day i die. You were my one and only and always will be my dear. Your life was cut too short. Right when you were ready to live it to the fullest then you were cut down. I'll never understand why.