Thanks for visiting me in my dreams the last few days, I've really needed it. But you already know that. Miss you more every day. I love you.

Missing you so much Brett.. See your pictures everyday and hope you know up in heaven how much we all love you. I was just telling someone at work a couple days ago, how you would bite the back of my head- makes me smile. I love you.

YEAH!!! Happy news Brother!

Hey Daddy. Just wanted to tell you that you're gonna be a grandpa again, but you were the first to know, I know that this little bundle of joy spent all of its time with you before it was sent down to me. I love you so much.

I sure do miss you. I wish I could talk to you. Laugh with you. You could always make me laugh. So many amazing memories of you. Wish we were still making them. I love you Brother

Hi Daddy! I know it's a week late, but, Happy Father's Day. (LOL as I was typing "father's I accidentally wrote "farters" ..thank goodness for autocorrect!! But I know you would have laughed at that).

I just got back home to Carson City yesterday after a two-week vacation! Tyler and I went to Salt Lake to watch his brother get married and then went to Cancun, Mexico for a week. It was awesome.

Utah was great! I went to visit Grandma and Grandpa Lawrence and even saw aunt Shauna. When I looked at grandma all I could see was YOUR face. I am so happy that Tyler got to meet them.. next best thing to you. His brother's wedding was very beautiful too! I used to love weddings.. I mean, I still do, but I seem to dread them a little bit since you've gone. I am sad that you don't get to walk me down the aisle. I am also sad that I don't get to have a father-daughter dance with you.. Tyler's brother's new wife, Justine, danced with her dad to our song, My Little Girl by Tim McGraw and I bawled my head off thinking of how much I wish that would be you and I someday. I know you are always with me though, and you will be with me during those special times when those times come for me..

Mexico was a blast too. We celebrated Kalvin's birthday there, I can't believe he is 15. Mom and I talk about how much we see of you in him. ESPECIALLY the "sarcastic asshole" part haha. But I personally love it. He misses you too ya know, he has just never been a man of many words nor is he very good at coming on this page and writing anything.. but he tells me.

Anyways I just thought I would let you know I am thinking of you (always) and I am missing you so much. See you in my dreams, I love you dad.

It's Fathers Day Daddy, I sure hope that heaven knows what a special guy they've got up there. I miss you so much, I am so thankful for every memory I am lucky enough to have, I only wish we could've made more. Happy Fathers Day to the most amazing daddy I ever could've been blessed with. I love you so much.

I'm sorry... I missed our time, forgive me. I love you little brother. Always and forever. Saw your sweet girl a few days ago, and those precious boys. Our visit wasn't long enough but it was so good to see Brittany- she has your heart..

I miss you everyday Daddy but I sure wish I could hear you're voice today. You always knew how to bring me out of my rotten moods. I don't understand still how I'm supposed to go on everyday with out you. I know you're watching and you're in my heart but I so selfishly wish that I could still have you here sitting next to me or on the other end of the phone. I can't believe how much I took my time with you for granted, because I am here and you're not. No amount of time with you could have ever been enough. There's not much I wouldn't do for just one more day. I love you.

It amazes that coming to your page to honor you still provokes so much emotion. Memories haven't faded and the loss of you still feels so tremendous. I hope it never goes away, because you deserved to be honored, remembered, missed and I will never stop feeling the loss of you, my sweet baby brother. The promise of knowing I will see you in heaven gives me comfort, but I still feel selfish most days and wish we could still have you here with us. I love you Brett.. See you again. XXXOO Big Sis...

Hi Daddy,

I have TONS to tell you. Wish I could pick up the phone and call you, or better yet see your handsome face! Well for starters, I finally moved out of Elko... 21 years later. I am sad - I miss mom. it is really hard being away from family. I can only imagine this is how you felt (maybe worse) when you moved to Utah. I wish I could go back to then knowing what I know now. I promise I would have visited WAY more.. I'm sorry about that. :(

I am living with my boyfriend, Tyler, in Carson City. I know you hated all my other boyfriends but I think you would really like Tyler. He is very good to me, and I love him very much. He is a smartass just like you so I know you would have gotten along with him just fine! We have a really cozy apartment.. I still work for State Farm but I miss my old coworkers. My new ones are old and cranky!

Going through all of this change is tough. I am thankful I've had you, my guardian angel, watching over me and helping me get through it all. I don't know if I could do it without you. I miss you so much. Please, keep holding my hand through my journey. I love you dad.

Sweet brother... Miss you, miss you, miss you... Will see you in heaven. I love you!

You've been on my mind a lot the last few days Daddy, you're always on my mind but especially so lately. Wish I could hear your voice again. Missing you.

Miss you today... miss you always... You're in my heart little brother and I wish I could talk to you. You always make me smile. I love you so very much!

Thinking of you as I always do... Want you to know you are always in my heart and that I love you endlessly.

I hope you had the Merriest Christmas Daddy. I'm sorry I couldn't write yesterday, we're visiting Mom and her service is here and there. But I hope you know I miss you with my whole heart. I love you so much.

Merry Christmas little brother. Missing you so much. Sending lot's of love to you in heaven!! Always and forever love you.

Happy Birthday little Brother!! I know you are having a celebration we couldn't possibly imagine in heaven. I love you to the moon and back and miss you so much. I'll keep on with strength and solace in knowing I'll see you again!

Happy Birthday Daddy!!! I hope that you have the best day in heaven, and I hope that you know that we are celebrating you today and every day down here. I miss you more than you could ever know. I love you big!

Happiest of birthday's to my daddy in heaven! I would give just about anything to be able to call you right now and hear your voice, but better yet to see you and be able to give you a big hug. Your Little Tiny misses you more than I could ever put into words. I love you so much.. then, now, and forever. See you in my dreams.
Xoxo.

There is a promise that I am holding on to. I love you Brother and miss you everyday. You still make me smile, laugh and cry.

Your photo sits where I can see it everyday- both home and work. Your handsome face smiling back at me- I miss you so much brother, that will never go away. I will see you again in heaven and I find solace and peace in knowing that truth. Love you to the moon and back!

Daddy,
I've been dreading this day. One year has gone by without you. One year without seeing you, or hearing your voice, or hugging you. This has been the worst year of my life, and I would give just about anything to have one more day with you, and that may be selfish but I wasn't ready to let you go. I'm still not ready to let you go, and I don't think I ever will be. I miss you so much. The boys miss you, they ask about you all the time, and sometimes I just don't know what to tell them. I know you're looking down on us up there, but it's just not the same. Daddy, I promise you that if love could've saved you, you would have loved forever. Tears fall everyday without you here, and you will live on forever, because you will live on forever in my heart and my memory. I miss you. I miss you more than words could ever express. I love you Daddy.

How is it possible that it has been a year already? It seems like only yesterday that we were talking about getting you home, that we saw you in California and you were laughing and drinking way to much soda. Smiling and taking pictures together. God had plans for you and as much as I miss you and tears still come like I just got the news. I know you are at peace, restored both body and mind and that you are happy and know joy that we can not understand yet, but we will, when we all are together in heaven. I need your strength little brother.

I love you to the moon and back.

I wish that I would've tried calling you on this date a year ago, I wish I would've texted to tell you hi. I wish I would've know I'd only have two more days and I would've driven down just to see you. I miss you Daddy, so so much.

I love you brother. I miss you so much and I wish more than anything I could just tell you one more time that I love you to the moon and back. Tears still come when I think about you being gone. I wish I could have done more for you, eased your pain, protected you and brought you home. Forgive me.

You have to be so proud of your precious kids. The gestures to say thank you touched my heart. I love them with all heart. You did good little Brother. I miss you so much!

We did it!! Bitter sweet day, but I know I couldn't have gotten through this without you as my guardian angel. I love you so much and my heart still breaks, and the tears still come when I think about not having you here. I miss you Brother.

I can't believe 9 months have gone by without you here, 9 months to the day in fact. So many moments have passed that I've wanted to call, send a picture, and see your face. All the firsts have been hard without you, but today is the first Father's Day and it hits a touch harder. I love you and miss you so much, and I just want you to know, that no matter where you are, I celebrate you, and I'm so grateful I got to have you as my Daddy.

Happy Father's Day little Brother. We honor you today for the amazing Father that you have been for your precious children! Cherish you always for the love you shared. We miss you!

Hey Daddy. Trystin graduated preschool today. I wish you could've been there, but I know you were watching. I bet you're just as proud of him as I am. I miss you.

Hey you... Thinking about you and want you to know that I still get sad sometimes when I think about you not being here. But there happy memories are making me smile again. Your silly sense of humor. Your famous "head bite." That was original little brother. No one like you. I miss you and love you to the moon and back.

Almost there Brother. This battle is almost over and want you to know that I am fighting to keep my promise to you. I love you and I miss you so much. I think about you everyday.

Missing you Daddy. Tomorrow is Mother's Day and you always made me feel so special. I always looked forward to your text messages, phone calls, and sweet cards. I could always count on you. I wish I could hear your voice. I love you so much.

Thinking of you and missing you brother, take good care of Princess. Blessed in knowing we will all be together again. I love you!

So sad little brother.... Feels like its just to much sometimes, but like you, I'll keep on until it's time for me to see you again. I love you to the moon and back!

6 months have gone by without you here daddy, I miss you so much. So many times I've picked up the phone to call you and had to stop myself and remember you can't pick up. It doesn't get easier, the pain doesn't dull, or go away. It's a constant emptiness in my heart. I wish you were here, and I hope you're resting easy up there. I love you bigger.

Sweet Brother... I cannot believe its been six months, my heart feels heavy. I miss you and I know you are watching over me. And when something silly happens, I tell myself its you up in heaven still messing with big sister.. And it always makes me smile so thank you.

Love you Brother!

I hate that the time keeps passing and you've gone longer and longer. It's selfish of me, I know but I miss you. I wish there were a window that would just allow a glimpse to see you again, happy, healthy and at peace. There hasn't been a day, not a single day that has passed that I haven't thought of you. I love you so very much.

Brother.... I love you. And sissy has me on the phone try to help create a response to an amazing message she got... Need your help.

I found more pictures of you Brother. You looked so happy. We were at Mom's and your girls were just little. I miss you so much. I got to talk to all three of your beautiful girls today. Kalvin is a bit elusive or like is Dad when it comes to talking on the phone. Love you to the moon and back!

Daddy I'm so excited today, I finally found the most perfect and beautiful urn for you. I've struggled all this time because I've felt nothing has been good or worthy enough to hold the best dad ever. The boys even got to add their own personal touch. I just have to pick a couple pictures and it'll be perfect. I miss you so much and love you even more!!

Thinking of you as I do. Still find myself wanting to pick up the phone and share something with you. I love you.

4 months have passed without you Daddy, so many tears have fallen, so many questions unanswered, so many wishes that won't ever be filled. My heart hurts and I miss you. I love you bigger.

I had an awful day today little brother. I was so emotional and irritable and burst into tears several times today. And it wasn't until I got home that I realized its been four months after seeing Brittany's tribute. I guess I knew deep down. I see you everyday- I have your picture up on the wall at work. I sit down and there you are looking back at me, so sweet. you look happy, the sun is shining on you. Its one of my favorite pictures. Then when I get home and sit down, there you are again! I asked you today to let me know something... If you heard me, can you tell me please? I love you so much. My heart still hurts but I smile when I see your face!

"Sometimes you will never know the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory."

I read this quote today in the news and it occured to me how profound those words are. Now all I have is memories and I cherish every single one. I miss your face little brother.

It's a New Year~ I would like to say happy, but just not there yet. I love you so much brother. You're in my thoughts every single day

It's New Years Eve Daddy, and I'm kinda sad because I know I won't get that Happy New Years text from you tonight. You're on my mind, and in my heart always Daddy. Celebrate for us up there, you have the best view of the fireworks. I love you bigger.

Merry Christmas Daddy. I made your favorite ham, and rolls. I'll send you a plate, like always. Missing you always. I love you big.

Merry Christmas little brother.. Big Sister couldn't have said it more perfectly. You're having the best Christmas ever. We will be together again someday to celebrate. I love you to the moon and back!