Dad,
I never thought I'd have to go so long without you. I had taken for granted the most recent times I've had with you. I would do anything to get those times back. You struggled with so much and I never really saw all that you struggled with. Now I have my own struggles dealing with the loss of an incredible father. My heat is in pieces and I try every day to find a happiness I don't think I'll ever find. My life has changed forever and I miss you more than anyone will ever know. I think how if I have kids one day, they will never get to meet you, and if I get married how you wont be there to walk me down the aisle. Everyone says you'll be there watching over me, well unfortunately that's not good enough for me. I'd much rather have you there to share each happy moment when and if they ever come with you. I hope one day we will meet again so I can tell you how much you mean to me and how much I love you. I'll think about you and miss you every day. I love you so much dad!
Love always,
Ashley