44 years since I birthed you
44 years since you fell asleep
44 years of loving you
44 years of missing you
44 years of wondering
What would have been
44 years of being a mummy to a son I never got to see or hold
44 years of heartbreak
44 years of silent and secret crying
But also 44 years closer to holding you for the first time
I never got to see you, but I will know you as soon as I do
I know you’re with our loved ones so fly high baby boy and watch over us
I think of you  I speak your name
Life has never been the same
From then until now I hope you know  Just how much I love you so
Sleep tight baby boy
Brian Kenneth Wilson
Born asleep 17th January 1978

Another year had passed baby boy
Another year closer to seeing you for the first time
Another year closer to holding you for the first time
And another year closer to never letting you go
I wonder every day which one of any of your sisters snd brothers you would have looked like
I wonder what your life would have been like
But I know for sure you would have been and still are loved unconditionally
Until we meet meet in heaven son I hope your nana and Granda are looking after you
I love and miss you every day of my life xxxx

Hey baby boy  You’ve been in my thoughts even more than usual lately
My heart is sore when I think about what you would have been like  How great you would have been  How loving you would have been  So many things have been running through my head 
So I’ve decided I’m going to write down my journey with you  It’s all I’ve got to leave to your siblings  I don’t ever want anyone to ever forget you
So until we meet for the first time  Fly high baby boy and wait for me xxxxx
I love you 

Another year of loving and missing you
I wish with all my heart I had seen your face son but I wasn't allowed  But I know without ever seeing you on earth I will know you as soon as I see you in heaven  Sleep tight beautiful boy until we meet again
I know your Nana and Granda will keep you safe and loved for me
I love you and miss you with all my heart xxx mummy xxx

Another year has past without you son  There is never a day passes without a loving thought of you. I will love and miss you until we meet again  You were a little flower just lent not given to bud in my tummy  Then bloom in heaven xxx even though I never got to see you I will know you when I do. Beautiful boy xxx love from your mummy always xxx

No matter how many years pass I still love you and miss you more  The brightest star in the sky at night. Is my baby boy saying good night xxxx

I will always and forever treasure the feeling of you kicking and turning somersaults in my tummy. I only wish with all my heart that I had have been allowed to see you. You were born asleep after a long labour and I firmly believed the doctors had got it wrong and I would take you home, this was not to be, but you will forever be my beautiful baby boy in my heart and mind.Forever young x