My dear sweet Son wish you were here, last night they had a basketball game out front of our home yes all the kids are back in front of the house everyday playing. Bear bought them a new basketball goal. They all love this new one. It's spring break and they started playing basketball at 3:00 pm and finished at 12:30 am. There must have been 15/20 kids out here with your family. Sure missed the neighborhood kids coming and playing the other Hoop got broken so Bear bought a really nice one. I know you were watching all the fun, Bear, Tom Tom, Blake, Baby Don , Breezy, Stephine, I think that's all your family. The rest were the neighborhood kids. Guess I'M going to have to charge cover charge of a box of snacks, and drinks, these kids are eating me out of snacks. Honey I just wanted to talk to you so I'M telling you about everyone's day Sunday were headed to The springs for the day. Sure wish you could be here. Looking out at everyone having a good time and smiles on there faces. And then I look for you OH How I feel a big hole in the middle of my heart. When I can't see you here. I know you were watching everyone yesterday smiling while they were all having so much fun. While I was watching them I whisper to you and said Carl Joe I think I see you playing with them, so I began to picture you standing there playing basketball, I was praying to here your voice, yes just to here you say just one thing or even here you laugh. There is nothing wrong with dreaming wishing you were here. All's I have is memories of you and there are times I see them beautiful memories and place you right in front of me. Son I just want you to know I'm never gonna forget you if I have to dream I see you right here just to see you still with your family that's just what I'll do. Missing you is so hard for me to do and loving you is so easy, and losing you has ripped me in to peices and I'm barely hanging on. So my dreams and memories and all I have too hang on too until we meet again. You are forever in my heart and soul. I love you always and forever Mom