It’s been 7 months and one day since I’ve seen you. Touched you. Talked to you alive. Eleni misses you so much. She always asks to see pictures or videos of you. She smells your perfume and says “ that smells like granny!” We both cry for you. I know you were sick for a long time, I just can’t believe you’re gone. I’m working through it though. I’ll never be the same but I’ll be okay. I miss you. I had to sew Elenis rapunzel dress the other day and I just couldn’t stop thinking about you. I dream about you all the time. ALL THE TIME. I’d like to think it’s you coming to visit. I’m sober too mom. Been sober three and a half months and wish you could be here to see it. I love you. Goodnight

Dear momma, it’s been 3 and a half months almost you’ve been gone. guess what? It’s august! You know what that means. Daddy has been gone 5 years now and sometimes I feel very alone without you, my best friend, to call and tell everything about my day and see how you’re doing. Goodness momma, Eleni is SO BIG lol you would have a freakin field day with her little spunky self haha oh mom. I miss you endlessly. I hope you’re doing okay too, I have a lot of hope you’re in heaven because I’m pretty sure I saw and felt Jesus show up in the hospital room the night you died, well, morning. I was there with you momma. I never left you that day. I’m so sorry I fell asleep but I’m grateful too because watching you slowly take longer pauses between breaths was so frightening. Oh I love you so much my best sweet friend. I love you mom. I always will. Eleni and I miss you. She talks about you all the time. Her granny. I’m so thankful to have give you a granddaughter before you left me. I know how much joy she brought you. Well I’m just rambling now, like we used to on the phone. We’d say goodbye and then talk for 20 more minutes ahahaha my girl. My number one. My everything. Rest in love and peace my #1 girl. Forever