July 4, 2014
July 4, 2014
Hi dad, You came to visit me last night in my dreams. I am sorry. I know that nothing I say or nothing I do can fix our relationship now, and I regret every moment of it. The night I found out you passed I had a dream that I married my better half and you were there. We danced. I couldn't let go. I was so mad when I woke up, it was saying good bye again. I wish you would come back and I could have another chance. I need you, like never before. I had to get tested for cancer and I got scared , thought crazy things but in the end , If I was diagnosed with it. That would of been GOD's way of letting us be together and start a new future, where you would be there and id never leave you again. I have your urn, its safe and right in front of you is this picture I have , where I can see you, smiling with some crazy 80's hair dad! Also this funny egg shaped white rock that I remember you laughing at because you said it was an egg. Your were so goofy! I also have a couple things , I have a pocket watch which was yours , I'm going to give it to your grandson when I tell him about you. I have a gold cross on a chain now that will never be away from you, its wrapped around your urn. I'm so sorry , Most of all , I forgive you too. Come visit me again soon, please.