My name is Aaron. 

Chris was a friend of mine from middle school all the way into our early adult lives. We lived together, got our first jobs together, laughed together, cried together, and shared our visions of the future. We shared the most personal stories of our lives with each other, from our families, friends, and love interests and everything else. I would not be who I am today without him. 

I will be married soon, to a wonderful women. Chris and I were suppose to have kids that would grow up to be friends like we were. It pains my heart to think it will never come to fruition. 

Chrises memory never leaves me more than a short period. The pain of losing him has matured into a copia of different emotions. His death has made me mature more than any other life experience to date. Everything happpens for a reason I guess. It’s whatever. 

Thank you Chris. Thank you. I cry as I write this but I know now it had to happen. I feel you watching over us, guiding us, consoling us. Thank you. I know you get the letters I leave you at the cemetery. Continue to watch over us. Help Wayne and his kid, watch over Isaiah and his family, I hope Dustin hasn’t lost his way, and continue to send my family reassuring messages the way you have been. 

I believe in things now I never did growing up. I appreciate the way I see the world now, in a way I never would have been able to. You can never genuinely appreciate the good times  until you’ve experienced the bad times. I can appreciate now that times are good. A time for everything.  “Ecclesiastes 3”

Continue to teach us lessons and watch over us. We miss you Chris. I miss you. We love you. I love you. Until we meet again my closest friend. 

Your friend -Aaron. 

I hope she dies soon, not because i hate her but because i love her, she was diognosed with terminal cancer and is going to die from it, so she is at the end of her life, she is on her death bed, if she dies now she will avoid all of the suffering, the longer she remains alive the more she will suffer which is why i hope she dies sooner than later. i know this is Burr's page but i think my thoughts are related to his death. and i hope that Deanne can accept our mothers death the way i have (even though Ma hasn't died yet) Mom is on her way back home to heaven, where we all end up, and i hope that she can understand that Christopher is lucky because he returned home at such a young age, he does not have to deal with all of the shit we who are still alive have to deal with, he no longer has to deal with world events like the world we still live in where terrorism exists, he does not have to worry about what we have to deal with, he is in heaven because he fulfilled the reason why he was sent here in the first place, life on earth is like a job, Chris did his job and God took his soul back, God took his soul back because he did not belong here longer than his reason for being here, none of us do, we are here for a limited time, some are here longer than others for reasons we may never understand, all of us die but we do not die, when we end our time here on earth we go back to heaven, heaven is where we all live, earth is where we all come to die, then we return to heaven where eternity exists, life on earth is like a job, we come here and when our job is complete we go back home, i accept that Chris died because it means he went back home and i am happy that he completed the reason he came to earth, don't get me wrong i am not happy with the way he died but i had no choice in that matter, and i am not happy with the way my mother is leaving either, but we do not have control over that. life on earth is temporary and we are born only to complete the reason we were sent here, then we die and go back home, as for you who are reading this, i am assuming that you know my mother's history with her kids, i found out she was terminal, i want to remember her when she was active, she is on her death bed and i refuse to see her, trust me i know that she understands, i am in touch with her, i sent her flowers, a teddy bear, and a card, she loves carnations, which i sent her, and also appreciates a simple card (even more), the teddy bear is for her to hold as she thinks about me when i am not there, the card i wrote to her does not say get well (because we both know she is dying) i talked to her on the phone and told her i love her and i hope she feels better, none of this (fake) get well soon crap, i know she is dying, (there is no more get well soon) and i wanted to be honest with her, as i said if you know our history you will appreciate what i wrote, i saved it in a file for future reference. here is what my sister Debbie read to her:  
Mom, life is a mystery and everything happens for a reason, our time on earth is temporary, heaven is our real home, every choice you made was the right one even if you think you made some mistakes, they are all forgiven. love, Keith
i felt that would be better than "please Mommy don't die" death is a BIG part of life so accept it even if you think you can't, you really have no choice either way. we all die.
Keith.