Claire loved all kinds of art and creativity. She was very wise and insightfull about many things she had no personal experience of. She had obviously been been here before and had learned a lot. Claire enjoyed reciting this poem ;
Twice Shy by Seamus Heaney
Her scarf a la Bardot,
In suede flats for the walk,
She came with me one evening
For air and friendly talk.
We crossed the quiet river,
Took the embankment walk.
Traffic holding its breath,
Sky a tense diaphragm:
Dusk hung like a backcloth
That shook where a swan swam,
Tremulous as a hawk
Hanging deadly, calm.
A vacuum of need
Collapsed each hunting heart
But tremulously we held
As hawk and prey apart,
Preserved classic decorm,
Deployed our talk with art.
Our Juvenillia
Had taught us both to wait,
Not to publish feeling
And regret it all to late -
Mushroom loves already
Had puffed and burst in hate.
So, charry and excited,
As a thrush linked on a hawk,
We thrilled to the March twilight
With nervous childish talk:
Due to medical negligence, Claire was severley physically disabled. But she did not have a learning disability. Claires life and mine was destroyed by social services agencies making it a legal fact that she had. and so gave them all the legal power to take a front seat in every aspect of our lives. Her rights. and mine were disregarded. it blows my mind to the point that i cant bear to even think of it for a second. of a second , how much wisdom Claire had in her little finger in comparison to each and every one of those so called professionals. They are meer fools. Claire did not suffer fools. it must have been absolute tortoure for her to have to endure being patronised and handled by so so many fools. Claire was like a diamond, so many shimmering faucets to her character and personality, great dignity, integrity and class. She really really was one of a kind. regretably i turned out to be a fool also, because i ended up taking Claire for granted, to my lasting shame. The light has gone out of me without her.
I am So Sorry. my life and existence since has made sure that i pay the price for making so many mistakes. Never with intention, just being a selfish idiot, such a long list of fools Claire had to put up with, its bizarre. truely bizarre lives we have both had.