Today's my bday, and I woke up thinking about u. Always on my heart. It's been too heart wrenching thinking of writing to u on here. Today though, my heart has no choice but to spill out how much you're missed and just how much I think of u on a daily. we were suppose to meet up, suppose to have our usual Beach Hut Deli date. Of course, I was just too busy working to make our girls date. Every single day of my life that you are gone I will never forgive myself for allowing that day to pass without seeing u. Courtnie, u were always the ray of sunshine I needed on the most unbearable of days. When everyone else looked to me for strength, for a smile to help them get thru their own bs, u were mine without even realizing it. It never failed, when I needed a last minute, save my heiny, save my job hail mary, u had my back. I remember when I called u, needing a girl to work an event in less than 20 mins, you were at a party, had nothing with u, didn't even have a ride. Girl, I swooped u up, brought u a Jean skirt, and a tank, and u rocked my bosses event like a champ, then went right back to ur party without ever thinking twice. I will never forget just how loyal, lovely and oh so genuine that heart of yours was/is. I feel u quite often around, can almost hear ur infectious laugh when I crack my sarcastic jokes. Shoot, I don't need anyone to get my jokes, cuz I got u dying of laughter any given time. HaHa! love u, baby girl. I pray you're singing that beautiful, angelic voice above because it certainly is missed. This bday just isn't quite the same without u... and never will be.