Feb 7th your girls came to see you Christina and shane and ant.yep your oldest loves crystals and lord she is really tall and beautiful your youngest looks so much like you and lord she is tall and beautiful and yes she like crystals too you can see the hurt in her eyes it's like she's lost...I told her not to listen to all the bs. I talk to or text Christina every other day I'm just glad there in my life not a day goes by I don't miss you our talk about you 

It's been 8 months today and the pain is so unbearable I know you came to take your granma home just a few weeks ago your sister hasn't come to the grave or your brother I think they feel if they dont your not gone you know tara loved you so much I hope you keep a watch out for her when you first left I felt your presence around me so much now I know you left and got your wings and our heavenly father now has you I can just hear you laughing with Doug... u both I know are keeping watch I just wish I could hug u one more time and hear your voice please tell mom I'm sorry for letting her down I miss her and I love you all so much..and miss you i hope you benighted with your dogs and are running through the fields free from all the pain and hurt