Everyday I feel like I'm reliving that day. I try and not show how bad around Darrius Tee and Vonte but baby ma is so weak. I feel like every breath I take hurts. My heart hurts every time I say your name I wake up crying . How I ask Why I ask can this be happening why did I had to loose you . So much life so many dreams . I got to go get your things you had on that day in a few days and it hurts to know that I can't bring you from the hospital. My hold perception on life has changed. When I hear somebody is in hospital I say I will pray for them cause i know that they are blessed to have made it God kept them. I have question all my belief all that is in me to know end. I know that God has you but it took a while for me to even except that I just believed that you belong to me. There will never be another you the child who always wanted to ride with ma no matter what. Baby you are so loved and so missed tears for life. Now all I do is seek justice for the ones that took and innocent child life while he was at home the very place I taught you was safe. When the day come ? I miss you baby more each passing day. I would've given my life for you to live ma would've.

There’s some things I wanna show you,There’s a lot I wanna tell you, i miss the days where i can call you and ask what we getting into when i come down there. we have did some crazy stuff that only me and you know about. Still remember when we was at ol girl house and we had to jump out the window cause her pops came. I talk to you every night bruh i hope you hear me. Thats the only thing that keeps peace inside me because i dont have anybody else to talk too. It hurts everyday to know you not hear bruh like it dont even feel real that you not physically here. It hurts the most when im around grandma and aunt vicky because i see how much they are trying not to show how they feel. Since you left bruh i been keeping  to myself and dont really talk to many people in school. When i come where you at we gon turn up ok bruh. I love you , I love You bruh. If you was here you would say stop being soft. but i miss you and hope we turn up soon. Love you bruh.

--Montae