2 years tomorrow we lost you I cant believe how fast that's gone as it still only seems like yesterday that you closed your eyes and drifted off to another place in the sky,i bet you have made lots of use your golden wings that you gained up there in heaven I hope you are at peace son I feel that you are.you are in my mind every day and my heart forever.theres not a day goes by that I don't think about you,i so wish you was still here with us all I really do.my life will never be the same again I just cant find a meaning to it at the moment and I very much doubt I ever will.your loss has been massive to me but you always knew it would be didn't you.i wake up every morning with you on my mind and your the last person I think of before I go to sleep,kellys having her counselling now to help her understand why she has lost you,she loves you so much,she said she seen you the other day in the dinning room I hope she did and I think she is very lucky to of seen you I just wish it was me who seen you as I really need too.i been up the cemetery today and put your flowers on for you I hope you like them all.Of all the things to happen to lose a son I truly adore I feel so empty this is so wrong as it should of been you burying me 1st,how messed up is this cruel world taking a precious person from me,my lovely son,i will never get my head around that ever,Guide your kids through there next grief that's about to hit them ,they are about to lose their papa William I feel so sorry for them all this grief they have had to deal with throughout there lives,if its anything I truly hate right now its got to be the way this cruel world works.we love you so much darron oh and we are totally hopeless without you here,its the not knowing what to do with myself that's getting harder,i manage to smile and laugh but the reall sadness that no one sees is inside its there all the time,i love you son with all my heart and I miss you every day,im living in hope that I will be back with you one day,and when that times comes make sure you are there for me,untill we meet again son lots of love forever your loving mum x x x god bless kid x x x ynwa x