hey there Bubba sorry it has been a little since my last post but been trying to work things out with my husband jim he seems like he has changed alot since he left as i have to be careful as i have others to think of as well.Just cause i havent posted doesnt mean i havent thought of you or even spoke your name as i cant seem to ease this pain as i will never get over losing you and Dylan is looking more like you and he got a deer already going out for more i guess you would be so proud of him and what he has became i know you are in heaven looking down on the kids and be proud of what they have become as we all are i try to keep in contact with them all but now that they are older they have their own lives and to busy to answer me but hey i can understand that.Alot has happened since my last post thins are getting a little better with things now that Jim is home doing work on the place and helping me with m shit i teom and dad Dj i am worried about them they are getting older and they both cant hear worth sh*t l them both they need hearing aids but hey who am i i can only tell them cant make them do it as they miss drs appts as i cant always get take time off work to take them as i have kids to support and i really dont get any help with that at all as i made a promise to you and i will keep it..Well bubba ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER AND SHINE ON XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

D!!!! It's hard to believe how long you've been gone ! I have so many memories that have you in them , you were like my uncle , brother , co worker and friend all rolled into one. I've had so many good times with you in the fire dept and you actually was the one that got me in the porta tank for my rookie dumping ( a couple years after me first starting !! Lol) , softball games and how close our families are and have been . I always looked up to you and treasured your company and friendship !! I miss your jokes and smartass remarks ! Lol . I rushed to the hospital when I got the call about you passing and I just couldn't believe it ...... it was like time was moving in slow motion. I prayed over you and asked God to except you into the kingdom but I knew I didn't have to ask on your behalf cuz he already had you with him no doubt! I was so nervous to officiate your services I could only try to find the words to be worthy of the job I had. I hope I made you proud brother . I hate that your gone and not with us here but I know thats my own selfishness speaking because I know you are home now where the Bible promises all Gods children will be without pain and the worries of our world . You are at the creators right hand in all his glory and now your glory also ! You are where you should be yet it's sooner than we would ever want you to leave us here . There's no doubt in my mind you watch over everyone from your new station assignment above us making sure we are safe guiding us and communicating with us in your own special ways . We will forever miss you my friend till we meet our end here and cross the river to see you on the opposite shoreline waiting to greet us home as we transition in our journey . I can't wait to give you a big bear hug ! I know my grampas rite there with you too ( help keep him under control up there please D! Lol) Till we meet agian my friend ...................

hey there Bubba sorry i havent posted in awhile but things have been hectic here my hot water heater went and it took me a week to get things back to somewhat normal and helping tammie as she got evicted and has no place to go just because i was busy didnt mean i didnt think of you as i often do that as i miss you a great deal,,,Our brother Ricky has been busy helping us all out he had to help our sister Roberta as her fuse box almost caught fire because of the mice chewing the wiring so he was there fixing that and i know you were there watching over her and the family and then he had to come to my place help me figure out why i wasnt getting hot water as we got a brand new hot water heater and it still wasnt getting hot water come to find out the element was bad in the new one so i had dad take the old element out of the old heater and now we have hot water then last night blake was in the shower and lost water again come to find out the tank had a air bubble in it as i was telling blake i am greatful all he did to put the hot water hutheater in and figure it all out he has done alot for me since jim left and cant thank him enough..Other then that things havent been to bad just dealing with hot water situation and mom and dad are doing good just need to keep an eye out on them the depression since they lost you is horrible but you can believe i have them both the only one that bothers or talks with them is Ricky but that is fine as i know the rest are busy with there own family just hurts as they cant pick up a phone to text mom i know our brother eddie has which suprised me but makes me feel good he thinks of them..Brit is having problems so can you watch over her extra close her depression gets the best of her at times and same with bree i love them as my own i try to always be there for them......Well bubba just wanted you to know I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER AND DONT FORGET TO SHINE ON BIG BROTHER XOXOXOXOXOOXOX

We sent balloons to you today as it is your 50th and we would never forget that  day i signed everyones name to them as we all love and miss you a great deal i wanted happy 50th but they didnt have them so i got your so special happy birthday and a smiley face as your smile is one that no one can forget i know you are as it over us all...I hate it for the last 4 years you have been gone it rained on your birthday sometimes i am like Bubba is crying today but then i remember you are no longer in any pain and your up in heaven laughing ,smiling,joking being free of pain..Today is your birthday and tomorrow we lost uncle terry i know he is there with you and penny little grandma and etc.you are surrounded by loved ones on your birthday but it isnt fair as us down here wanted to celebrate it with you i was gonna make a cake for your birthday but mom and dad are having a rough time with losing you have from day one they say they are ok i know better because all of us arent and wont we deal with losing you the best way we know how the pain never goes away we just learn to deal with it trust me i know it seems like yesterday still and it has been 4 years...........Make sure you give uncle terry and hug and kiss from me and especaily our little grandma...Spread the wings and fly my sweet brother SHIN ON AND ALWAYS REMEMBER WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOUXOXOXOXO

hey there bubba today is a rainy day and a depression kind of day i hate days like this as i know it is angels crying and it makes me feel sad to think you are crying and i cant be there to (((HUG))) you as i sure could use a hug from my big brother people things for granted and think nothing will ever happen to our siblings and i am here to say we all thought you would grow old with all of us and your birthday is coming up suppose to throw you that big party I talked to your son tyler he has a gf and he is doing good he keeps in contact with me every now and then which is good so i know how your kids are doing and OMG DYLIE looks just like you now that he is older there is times i cry when i look at his pictures as i am completely lost here doesnt seem like i will find the direction i am suppose to be going......Mom and dad are doing good pain in the A** sometimes but i wouldnt trade them for the world i will be able to say i kept my promise to you the day you left us and there is times it is hard as i worry about there depression try to get them to go to counseling and they say they dont need it well i am here to say they do as they do nothing but set in there room all day everyday dad will go outside not mom i counseling would help them both as it was a tramatic thing they went threw and your siblings hurt to i went to counseling helped me understand you arent alone and you arent in any pain anymore.....Well i will post again soon ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU BUBBA FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER SHINE ON XOXOOXOXOXOXOOXOXOOXOXOXOOXOOX

hey there bubba sure do love and miss you the days arent getting any easier as i think of you everyday as i always do they say time heals all wounds well that is a lie as my heartache is still there just like that day you protected us younger ones for years and you know what i sure do miss that as i am always talking to you not sure you hear or pay attention but i often wonder what you would do in certain situations and think what you would do i listen to that song you shouldve been here let me tell you that hits hard..Your birthday is coming up you would have been the big 50 this year oh boy we would have had a party and i would have got to spend time with you as we hardly did thru the years we did but when we got older we all had our own lives but that doesnt mean i still didnt love you the same as Dj you were the oldest of the boys and i am the oldest of the girls and sometimes i often wonder why you had to leave us so soon i understand your no longer in pain and i am greatful for that but bubba what about our pain as it isnt easing up at all still feels like the day you left us ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE AND MISS YOU BUBBA SPREAD THEM WINGS AND FLY MY SWEET BROTHER SHINE ON XOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXO

hey there Bubba been a while since my last post our brother ricky got married on sept 9th and it was an awesome day full of enjoy the only thing that was missing was you thought of you that day as i always think of you not getting any easier for me just missing you more and more..Dad has been at the drs as he keeps losing weight and they dont know why probably all the coffee he drinks all day long i worry that is to much caffeine for him and his stomach and mom is in good health strong woman she is.....i hope someday i am just like her when i get older.Alot of hurricanes and there was in florida where uncle dale lives we called to check on him try to talk him into leaving and he said he wasnt going anywhere so he stayed thank god he made it threw it says he lost a couple trees but everything was still intact which was a good thing...I cant seem to stop thinking how things would be if you were still here i know alot different then they are you were the oldest of us 6 kids and us younger ones seemed to always listen to you because if we didnt we would regret it lol Your birthday is coming up next month and you would have been 50 oh boy the big 50 we will be sending balloons to heaven that day for you with messages for you as we all love and miss you dearly please continue on watching over you loved ones and there was a fire up at ALEXBAY blake says you either worked on it or used to eat there cant remember.......i will post again Bubba ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SHINE ON AND SPREAD THEM WINGS AND FLY XOXOOXOOXOOXOXOXOOXOO

hey there Bubba been a little bit since my last post but that doesnt mean you didnt cross my mind as i am always thinking of you and how things would be if you didnt leave us so early i am sure you have been busy up there in heaven hopefully you are watching over all of us i have been seeing alot of butterflies lately i know it is you checking on things and i whisper tell my brother DJ i love and miss him dearly.....Our brother Ricky is getting married in sept...hopefully you will be there watching us on his special day....Mom and dad are doing good going to the drs the way the should dad argues with me and mom saying he isnt gonna go there is nothing wrong with him well i make sure there isnt as i learned alot from you passing i thought you were doing good as you were losing weight and i thought you were ok but how wrong i was and i know i couldnt fix your BROKEN HEART but i could have tried to help you threw it no one knows the pain you went threw as you always kept things in and i hate that fact if you would have told someone you would be here today i am always thinking of what you would say with certain situations that happen i am like what would dj say and do i know your shoes are the HARDEST TO FILL...ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER SHINE ON XOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOOXOXO

I knew there was a reason I didn't wanna get out of bed this am today is the day we lost you there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you or even speak of you I have a picture of you in my car and I kiss it every time I am in my car...A lot of unspoken words and I have seen a lot of butterflies lately I always whisper tell my brother DJ I love and miss him terribly..we are gonna set balloons off with messages this weekend for you.they say time heals all wounds well I am here to say they lie as it seems like yesterday that you left us heartache is still there..I got to see Tyler he came to visit me when he was in New York made me feel good....Laays remember I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU BUBBA spread your wings and fly my sweet brother xoxoxoxoxo

hey there bubba today is mom and dads anniversary man we miss you so much bubba i have been thinking about you alot lately as i often do and i hope you were with baby reba july 7 th as that was the anniversary of her death i stopped there yesterday when i was in town to clean it off so sad not a thing on her garve but you know what i cleaned it up and kissed her picture as i always do i know you are up there playing with her as you loved babies it is so unfair as you were taken from us without letting us know you were sick i have so many questions why and so many unspoken words i know you know i love and miss you with every breathe i take i cant seem to get past all this as you were suppose to get old with us and i always kiss your pic in my car say i love and miss you bubba well i have got to get housework done and ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY BUBBA FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER AND SHINE ON XOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOX

Happy 4th of july i sure do miss you bubba things arent isnt as Michelle said when we were younger we all thought that peopole that love will always live forever and i am yet to understand why you had to go i know you were tired and that is all i can come up with as if LOVE could have saved you then you wold have never left as people had so much love for you such a LOVEABLE person you always reminded me of a cuddly bear as when you met someone new you always touched there hearts and they would never forget that smile that would light up anyones world as i know i sure miss that i have pics of you on my desktop always looking and wondering what would have been i know you are around all of us as i see butterflies,Robins and i have 4 little rabbit in my yard so cute well bubba i know you are present when i see these things and we are doing better well mom and dad are gotta keep them healthy for you as that is a promise i made to you the day you left us let me tell you your shoes are one hard pair to fill our brother Ed was in the hospital he had global amensia he is under alot of stress so please watch over him and our brother Ricky has been having chest pains i guess the shunts he has arent working so please keep a close on him as well i have our parents.Roberta is doing pretty good working and loves to be chief at penneville she is one hell of a firefighter keep your memory going as u taught her well and she loves it just like you did and Michelle moved to Pa to start fresh good forher she deserves it i guess i sure miss her she was my best friend and now i dont have her i could tell her all my problems and she would help me if she could well best of luck for her.Well bubba i will post again soon ALEAYS REMEMBER I LOVE AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER AND SHINE ON XOXOXOXOXOOXO

HAPPY EASTER BUBBA been awhile since my last post but that doesnt mean that i didnt think of you as i always do i miss you more and more with everyday that passes i often think of you in certain situations and wonder what you would do.Dylan now has a permit you would be so proud of him and trust me he looks alot like you now that he is older i so see u in his face Jordyn bought her first vehicle which would have made you proud,Tyler now has his license and him and jordyn are in the fire dept there guess it is in there blood have to keep going as u always did until god called u home so u can be free of all your pain and fly high.Mom and dad are doing good moms is gone as she had a CT scan and that it came back normal so i hope and pray that it is dadnis still dad has changed there i make sure they make their doctor appts with the their regular dr and there specialist to make sure everything is going ok..It seems like the days should be easier well they arent we just learn to live here without you i love and miss you so much bubba so much has changed since you left here..ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU DEARLY FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER SHINE ON TIL WE MEET AGAIN XOXOXOOXOXO

hey there Bubba been aWhile since my last post the weather is starting to get nice again a little chilly today but warm weather is around the corner better then the snow even though u used to love it i remember playing tackle football in the middle of emery road during a storm and the cold i remember quite a few times that u would tackle someone in the bank because they were so high from the plows or going ice skating on the pond down the road you were always there telling us smaller ones to be careful and was there to help us up when we fell or when it was summer time we played in the cow pasture you would always say be careful the cows dont chase after you guys see you were always there for us smaller one...I will never forget when we were playing in the pines jumping tree to tree and then it was Rickys bright idea to start the pine needles on fire and boy did you ever yell at him made him go tell mom and dad he started the pines on fire so mom called the fire trucks to put the pines out boy did we ever get into trouble after they left and the time Ricky was taking mom cigarettes and you said mom will know and sure enough she did had uncle terry bring a green cigar and he was made to smoke it and you laughed at him because it made him sick and uncle terry was yelling at him and made him smoke the whole thing..Remember the time we went up the road to the barn and jumped from the rafters in the hay we had so much fun we had aunt Bonnies kids with us and they had a ball.I remember going to the pond and killing the frogs so mom could have frog legs everytime u would go after a frog you would say come here u little B*STARD and u would put it in the bag and then we got home and you would clean them saying stuff...Then the night you told Roberta and Michelle the bats were gonna get in there hair they ran in crying and told mom and you laughed when mom asked u if you said it you go i was joking lol...Bubba please watch over Junior he injured his spleen may need surgery watch over him and help heal him.I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY BUBBA FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER AND SHINE ON XOXOXOOXOX

hey there bubba things have been really stressful lately and i am always looking for your guidance threw it and praying to god to help me as well sometimes i feel i cant make it threw it as i know stress isnt good for a person but if i didnt have so much to worry about i wouldnt be stressed out i cant seem to get mom and dad out of there room that is all they do as they have went down hill since we lost you and i pray to god to get them better i say they need counceling but they tell me no they can handle it well i am here to say they cant and havent been able to handle losing you and the only one that helps me with them is Ricky as i know i can turn to him for help and it is sad as Michelle always asks them for help or something but she cant take time out of her busy schedule to help take them to a doctors appt or anything taking them to dinner or anything but i know i am the one that will always be there for them and can honestly say i never turned my back on them as at the end of the day i am taking care of them sometimes i get so mad at them but i can say they are here with me when no one wanted to help with them yes Jim had them move in and then he left but i still have them with me i wouldnt change it for the world...I keep telling them they need to pay off your funeral bill as Jim and I were then jim left so i had to take care of the bills they just dont know how to pay bills that they should pay they think someone else will do it i love your parents and wouldnt change them for the world but bubba pplease help me by guiding me to have them get better as they arent showering the way they should i understand that losing you was a horrible thing as i live it everyday but i know you would kick me in the a** if i didnt move on i WILL NEVER FORGET YOU ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU BUBBa FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER AND SHINE ONXOXOOXOOXOOXOXO

hey there Bubba been a few days since my last post there wasnt a day that passed that i didnt think of you as i always do i am dealing with losing you as it is hard on me as you were the oldest of the boys and i was oldest of the girls and you always were there protecting any of us weither we were in the right or not you were always there and when i lost you i lost that protector and i am completely lost with out it as i sure could use some guidance Bubba there was alot that i sure could have used you to help me threw but it has made me a stronger person as when i wanted to just give up on everything i thought of what you would say and do to me and i know you ride with me everytime i am in the durango i can feel you Blake almost had an accident not paying attention and i knew you gave me a sign that you were there and i cant thank you enough for always being there when one of us are in the durango as you left us and still protecting us as well......I am gonna go for now but i promise i will be back to post again til then always remember I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY BUBBA FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER AND MAKE SURE YOU SHINE ON XOXOOXOOXOXO

hey there bubba been thinking of you lately as i always do i cant seem to realize i will not beable to walk threw my door what i wouldnt give for that to me this is all a bad dream and someday i will wake up and u will be here with all of us.There was alot of unspoken words as we never knew that god would that u so young i understand that u were in alot of pain and god seen that but i just wish u would have let us all know as maybe u would still be here to..Watch over Dylan he has been sick he is getting excited he will be getting his permit soon doesnt seem he is that old now wow where has the time go.As u seen we gave him your shot gun as we knew that is what u would have waited the only one of your kids that didnt get anything of yours was Jordyn and i am trying to figure out what we can do for her....i know you arent in any pain anymore and i am happy for that but bubba what about our pain here as it isnt getting any easier they say time heals well i am here to say that is a LIE.........I will post again til then ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS U BUBBA FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER AND SHINE ON XOXOOXOXOOOXO

yesterday was valentines days i got busy but i wanted to say happy belated valetines day i love you and miss you bubba fly high my sweet brother and shine on xooxoxoxox

hey there Bubba boy do we ever have some snow you would have loved it if we still had the snowmobiles maybe you wouldnt get dropped in a middle of a field like when dad turned and lost you mom was pissed..I think of you all the time and wonder what you would do in a certain situation and always looking for your guidance down the road that i should be going down.Alot of our friends we had in the fire dpt are passing away sad but you probably already know that..If you see uncle terry and grandma trumble please give them a hug and kiss them for me please as i miss them as well.Can you please watch over our brother ricky he has been having issues with his heart again i know you are watching over him as i shouldnt ask but doesnt hurt to ask you anyways,,I will post again soon ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY SPREAD THEM WINGS AND FLY HIGH MY SWEET BEOTHER SHINE ON XOXOOXOXOOXOO

Hey there Bubba i know it has been a few weeks since my last post but that doesnt mean i didnt think of you as i often do.Things are getting a little better but not much as i worry about mom and dad as they grieve everyday and i am watch them just fade away i know it was a tragetic thing they went threw well the rest of us did to i wish u would give them a sign that you are doing fine as i know you are i can feel it in my heart as i know the pain i still feel til this day still seems like yesterday that took you away from all your loved ones.I often think about how things would be if you were still here as i know that alot of things wouldnt be going on as u would set us all straight and u would kick us all in the ass u were the rock of all us kids and i miss that i would do anything to hear your voice again or guide me threw all this as it is so hard for me as u were the oldest of the boys and i am the oldest of the girls so i try to be there for all my siblings but i cant do it anymore i have to think of my boys and mom and dad as ricky is the only one that has helped me with our parents since the day you left us so he has stepped up alot more then the rest has and i am greatful to him for that as i cant thank him enough as i try to tell him all the time to let him know i appericate the stuff he has done to help me threw all this.......I know my heart is still heavy bubba and the pain is still there not easing at all and i dont expect it to as we may have fought but i didnt love you any less made me love you more as u were the oldest of all us kids i was always there helping you threw stuff as that is what sisters do..well i am gonna post again til then A;WAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU BUBBA FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER SPREAD THEM WINGS......SHINE ON BROTHER XOXOXOOXOXOXO

HAPPY NEW YEAR BUBBA another year without you here with us the pain isnt easing at all i think of you everyday and always ask myself what you would do in certain situations or even ask for your guidance as i know you are around your around your loved ones.i cant seem to get passed the thought of you walking threw my door and sayhey B*TH my heart hurts everyday as i know the pain should ease well it isnt and never will as you were the strong one that kept us all straight alot of bullshit has been going on out of control..Please guide us threw all this bubba you maybe gone but YOUR NEVER FORGOTTEN FLY HGH MY SWEET BROTHER SHINE ON XOXOXOXOXXOXOXO

hey there bubba sorry it has been awhile since my last post but things have been crazy doesnt mean i didnt think of you as i do that eveyday often speak your name as i truly miss you my sweetest brother you left us and pain isnt easing any at all still seems like yesterday you left i miss you terribly as i understand you arent in any pain and i am greatful for that i sure you are having fun up in heaven but bubba what about my pain i cant get over losing you

hey there bubba things have been crazy here lately but that doesnt mean i wasnt thinking of you as i do that everyday another year is approaching and i dont like that as means that means another year without you ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER SHINE ON XOXOXOOXOXOXO

hey there DJ i know it has been awhile since i posted but that doesnt mean i wasnt thinking of you as i am always wondering what you would say or do with some situations i have been in i miss you more and more everyday it still seems like yesterday that you left us alot of unspoken words and answers i still ask myself why you had to leave us so soon i understand that god seen you were in pain but you know what Dj we are still in pain as they say time heals all wounds well i am here to say that is a lie it is we just learn to deal with the pain we live our lives but i cant seem to stop loving and missing you i know you are up in heaven having some fun and i understand you are no longer in any pain and i am greatful for that but my pain hasnt eased and i dont think it ever will til we meet again i find myself trying to understand why and i cant come up with an answer just you were in pain.Dj please be with all of us during the holidays as we are all gonna need your help as these are the worst just like your birthday and anniversary i remember you coming to my place for dinner i enjoyed it as it gave me time with my big brother i know i may not have said the right words or tell you that i love you and missed you but trust me i did and still do ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU DEARLY DJ SPREAD THEM WINGS AND FLY AND DONT FORGET TO SHINE ON MY BIG BROTHER and you know the saying you dont know what have til it is gone oh trust me i do as i miss my big brother xoxoxoxxoxooxooxo

hey there Bubba setting here thinking of you loving and missing you the pain is horrible i cant seem to understand why you had to go so soon i know god knows why and he seen you were in pain but you know Bubba so are we your family the pain never eases as i am alway wondering what u would say or do with the things that have been going on i know you would kick us all in the A** as you were the oldest and always kept us on line lol If they had visiting hours in heaven i would be there everyday visiting you just to hear your voice and see that smile upon your face Bubba please watch over all of us and guide us threw the things we are going threw YOU MAYBE GONE BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN I CARRY YOU IN MY HEART AND THOUGHT EVERYDAY ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE AND MISS YOU BUBBA FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER AND SHINE ON XOXOXOOXOXXOOXO

hey there my sweet brother i have been thinking of you alot lately i cant seem to come to reality that you are gone and i cant smiling face and miss them wise cracks you dont know how much i miss that people take things for granted as we always think we will see that person again the next day and we dont realize tomorrow is never promised well you know what i have realized that more now that you left us dj my heart aches everyday as there was alot of unspoken words that should have been said and i hope you know i love you may not have said it as often as i should but i do and always will you maybe gone but never forgotten i carry your memory with me everyday and think of the things we used to do as kids i will never forget the time dad lost you on the back of the snowmobile mom was pissed you werent scared just went to a house and called mom......I remember swimming in the pond and going frog hunting for frog legs you would just hit the frog over the head and move to the next one.......Playing tackle football in the of emery rd eveyone always wanted u on there team lol..cold days but we played anyway til it got dark and then sometimes we played then...Then the time you kept telling us girls that the bats were gonna get caught in our hair and jumping

thinnking of you today always in my thoughts and heart I LOVE AND MISS YOU BUBBA FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER SHINE ON XOXOXOOXOXO

Happy birthday my dearest brother I cant seem to stop loving and missing u tears are flowing today because we miss you so much i cant stop thinking how things would you would still be here i klnow my heart wouldnt hurt so much they say it gets easier they lie DJ as it still seems like yesterday thinking of you alot lately you were always there for your siblings no matter the problem you were always there i am completely lost without you Dj always remember i love you and miss you terribly I LOVE YOU AND TERRIBLY MISS YOU SHHINE ON SPREAD THEM WINGS AND FLY XOXOXOOXOX

hey there bubba well tomorrow is your birthday is tomorrow you would have been 51 my heart will be heavy tomorrow as i think of you often and your kids came to see me when they were here it was nice to see them there grandma ranieri toms mother passed away which you probably already know i sure do miss you bubba and the fact i cant seem to get past that i cant hear your voice or see your smiling face til we meet again always remember i love and miss you dearly bubba think of you quite often fly high my sweet brother SHINE ON xoxoxoxoxoxooxooxoxo

hey there Bubba i have been thinking about you alot lately your birthday is this month you would have been 51 that day is gonna be hard just like any other day as i cant seem to ease this pain they say time heals all wounds welll i am here to say they lie as it still seems like yesterday that you left us.Your son tyler e to moved with his mother and never said by me and i was the only one that took him when he wanted to stay with us and your baby dylan has your shot gun as we knew you would want him to have it he hurt me as well never said bye but it is what it is i guess..mom and dad are getting worse bubba they do nothing mom plays on here tablet everyday all day does nothing to help around the house and Blake is having a hard time with it all i make sure they go to the doctors and take there meds yes but that isnt it we are all watching them weither away and michelle seems to think i took over on our parents no i didnt no one else would take them so jim and i did to make sure they would take care of themselves i dont know what more i can do maybe you can send signs or something to get them to do more dad went and said he doesnt feel like living anymore and that hurts as i lost you cant handle that yea dad and i may argue everyday as we are to much alike but that doesnt mean i dont love him....well bubba i will post again soon but ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER TIL WE MEET AGAIN XOXOXOXOX

hey there Bubba i first want to say i love and miss you terribly the pain isnt easing at all there is alot going on as mom and dad arent getting any better they stay in there room all day everyday i understand there pain as all of us have the same pain..i have been thinking about u alot lately and i cant seem to stop thinking you are alone even though your not sometimes it drives me crazy as there was alot that i needed to say to you before you left and never got the chance to maybe that is why i cant stop thinking your alone not a kiss bye or a i love you and a hug as i am completely lost without that you were my protector now i dont have that and i am scared.i really need you as Blake is out of control with his temper and that thing of a gf he flips out alot and i am getting him in the doctor to see what they can do he cried and said i wish my uncle was here so i could talk to him he is lost he says he lost his best friend as we all did i know you would snatch him up and have hime recheck himself ha ha ha that is what he needs.And i have kept my promise with taken care of mom and dad just need your guidance with all that business,,Ok i have bored you enough gonna close for now ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE AND MISS YOU BUBBA FLY HIGH MY SWEET BROTHER TIL WE MEET AGAIN XOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXXOO

i love and miss you terribly bubba you maybe gone but NEVER FORGETTEN fly high my sweet brother shine on xoxox

Well my brother today you have been gone for 3 years and it still seems like yesterday the pain hasnt eased up any as i am always waiting for you to walk threw my door and say hey B*TCH and when you would leave i would get a hug and kiss even though you hated it but did it is hard for everyone when it comes to this day and your birthday you know they say timee heals all wounds well i am here to say they all lied as there are certain songs that make me cry thinking how i love and miss you dearly as we know you love and miss us as today it is raining and he has rained the last two years we needed the rain as everything is so dry thank you bubba....I have to go to the other website to write on there to ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU BUBBA XOXOXOOXOOXO

Good morning bubba it is sure cold out today the sun is shining today sure miss you as i remember having snowball fights or playing tackle football even though it was cold we always played anyways.bubba i  need you to help me understand why you left us as my heart is broken and there is an empty spot there that can never be filled as i dont have you it is not easy to go on with life because your gone and i promised you when i kissed you at the hopsital we would take care of mom and dad for you.....i love you and miss you bubba terribly everyday plz watch over all of us hugs and kisses sent to heaven for you from all of us makd sure you catch them all fly high my sweet brother i love you and miss you bubba xoxoxoxoxox

Good morning bubba the sun is shining today as i know you had something to do with that you have to be proud of berta as she is car two in penneville and ed is car two in phoenix see they are doing it for you as you loved being a firefighter so plz watch over them when they respond to a call... i love you and miss you so much bubba xoxo

Hey bubba just stopping by to say I love ypou and miss you terribly fly high our sweet brother XOXO

dj i cant not seem to come to understand why you had to leave us as the hurt is not getting any easier just worst because i cant see your smiling face or hear your wise cracks.Especially if i need a bear hug who is gonna give me them i lay in bed at night thinking of all the things we did as kids and i remember playing tackle football in the middle of the road in winter time and everyone wanted DJ on there team i wonder why that was lol.I remember the fights we all used to get into who was there to break it up Dj as you always used to say knock the shit off and we always did because we were scared lol...god i love you and miss you so much it tears me up inside.We all had our ups and downs but when there was a problem we all came together and helped out..I remember being at the hospital the first time you were in december i sat at your bed side and you were complaining about the oxygen you had to wear I said you need it so use it then the last time you got out of the hopsital Jim and I came got you and when i got there you were already dressed and i said you didnt wait for anything to get dressed you said you wanted out of that place then you complained they brought you down in a wheel chair boy you didnt like that but dealt with it,......I was talking with mom awile back and she said she had a dream you were walking up my driveway asking her where she has been she said wendys lol you know where to find them and we were watching tv one day and the tv switched channels and we know it was you not wanting to watch that tv show that is ok come visit us anytime day or night bubba as we all miss you and love you dearly rest in peace my sweet brother hugs and kisss sent to heaven for you xooxoxoxoxoxoxo from all of us I love you bubba

My dear sweet D.j..U ALWAYS HAD A SPECEIL PLACE IN MY HEART...you are miss so much by your family n friends....I have always thought of u...R.I.P....                 Love u .....love aunt marge