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December 10, 2023
Hi Grandma, 

It’s been awhile and today had me thinking about you a lot and wishing that you were still here with us. Today we all got together for our cookie decorating day and spent time with Kirk, the kids and grandpa max. So I thought I would update you on somethings going on. 

Emma is finishing up her first semester of college classes and getting out there more and more. Q is a black and red belt who is getting ready to go to high school. Bailey is almost done with her first semester of high school and growing more than you would believe. Pablito is work and spending lots of time with his girlfriend. Grandpa Max is still working of course and planning lots of fun stuff for us kids. 

For some big news I am getting married! Looking back it’s really a day I never thought would come. I always wondered who would be able to put up with my moods and constant need to be perfect. Well little did I know the answer would be Jesus. He is so kind, patient and he cares for me so much. We do argue quite a bit but I wouldn’t give up the time I get to spend with him for anything. He is helping me grow as a person each day by teaching me to be more patient, kind, have fun and not care of what people think. He also loves all of my family like they are his own and I know he would do anything for them. So by June 8th we will be married. You will also never guess who is going to marry us. None other than Grandpa Max. I know right, he agreed to that? Not only did he agree to that but I do think he is actually excited to do it. To me it means a lot to get to have someone who has been such a big part of my life and gives us a little piece of you be such a big part of the day. It means a lot to me that Jesus loves him as much as I do. Bailey, Emma, Q and Paul are also all going to be in the wedding party. I am excited that I get to share this day with them and I know it would warm your heart that we all still get to be together. I can’t wait to marry my best friend and spend the day with those I love most. I do wish you could be there though. 

Now an update on your oldest. She does worry me and I am sure she worries you as you watch down on her. She has a lot of stress going on in life and although she is handling it well it can not be good for her. She is always amazing at all that she does and although that is not changing it does cause her to put a lot on herself. So please watch over her and help her to realize that she will be amazing at whatever she does. Also please help to remind her that we are all here for her no matter what. Grandpa Max, my dad and Jesus and I would do anything for her at the drop of a hat. So if you could watch out for her and help us remind her everyday that she is loved and so strong that would be amazing! She is always so worried about making sure that everyone else is okay and I hope she can take a small break from that to care for herself. I do not live at home so it has been really hard for me to support her through the little things. Please help Pablito see this and help her with those little things and not cause her more stress. 

I love you Grandma and although we are all hanging in there and moving forward in life we will never forget you. Hopefully in June I will be able to update you with some family photos but for now here is my favorite engagement picture. Again I hope you are hanging out with Grandma Verna and Grandma June. Please make sure all three of you are watching out for mom and helping her as much as possible. I will make sure I can do as much down here for both her and Grandpa Max. I love you my sweet Angel. 


My Graduation

October 3, 2022
Hey Grandma,

This weekend we were playing cards with grandpa max and we started talking about how long you have been gone. It is really hard to believe it has already been more than 7 years. We miss you more and more each year and event. This year has been a pretty big year for our family. Emma graduated from high school! You would be amazed at how big and brilliant she has become. Little Bailey isn’t so little anymore, she is now a teenager. Q keeps earning more and more belts. Little Paul has a job that he has stuck with for awhile and loves. He is such an amazing kid and has done so much. As for me I finally graduated from College. I ended up with two degrees and two certificates. Mom threw an amazing party who a lot of family came to. We got to catch up with Aunt Nancy and Aunt Jackie. Grandpa Max and Kirk and the kids came of course. As I was looking back through some pictures I found two I think would have warmed your heart. 

As you know Grandpa Max is truly the best grandpa and is always there no matter what. He is always all of our biggest cheerleader and so glad to see us succeed. Bailey and I get to spend a lot of time with him of course. So Mom captured this moment of all three of us smiling and looking at my graduation cap. Of course miss Bailey was in attendance as well and even got up early to help get seats. Even though you weren’t there physically I know you would have been so proud. I am just glad I have some amazing pictures with you I could include on my cap so you could still be apart of the day. 

We spend a lot of time with Kirk and the kids, which we all know you would have loved. Uncle Kirk is always willing to come hangout with us and come celebrate with us. I actually had him and Aunt Laura out to my apartment to celebrate my birthday. At my graduation party I got everyone to agree to a picture which is amazing! It’s really nice to have family that I know we could count on for anything. I am glad I get to spend more time with Uncle Kirk as well as the kids. I hope knowing we all still stick together would make you smile. 

Last thing is I am hoping you can do me a favor. As you know your daughter she is amazingly strong and stubborn. She has been having a lot of pain and suffering a lot after getting her wisdom teeth removed. If you could just keep an eye on her and make sure she stays here and starts to feel better I would really appreciate it. It is hard to watch her in so much pain and I am hoping they will be able to find something to help her soon. Also watching out for Grandpa Max as he gets older as well. You know him very private and I don’t think he would tell us if something was wrong, so please watch out for him. Losing you was really hard on me and I can’t handle losing either of them right now. I also want to make sure Bailey and Q don’t have to go through such a big lose at such a young age. They are both really close with grandpa and aunt kehle and I know that would be hard on them, especially Bailey. So please help me look out for both of them and make sure they stay healthy and safe. 

I love you so much and I know you would be so proud of everyone. I hope you are getting to hangout with Grandma June and Grandma Verna.

Always lived life to the fullest

May 11, 2021
My little sister always Squeezed the most of life out of every moment.  This was my last night with my precious Debbie.  We played cards and even your smile showed great love for all those around you. The night before Mother's day will always be the most difficult time for me because it was the last time I got to see you and hear you and love you. We all miss you so very much...Most beloved sister.

Long time

November 18, 2020
Hey Grandma! 

It has been awhile since I have talked to you on here. I know you are watching over us and you know all the things going on but sometimes it’s nice to feel like we are telling you things. Emma is driving now! Paul graduates this year! Bailey is getting so big, but she acts twice her age all the time! And Q is still such a little comedian! Now me, well I’m in my 3rd year of college and half way through. I only have a year and a half left and about 17 classes left. I am still on student senate but this year I am the director of student affairs, which is cabinet. I get paid more now and I also get to do more things all across campus! It is definitely more stressful but is so much fun and I really couldn’t be prouder to be doing it and I know you would be proud of me to. Lately I have been thinking about you a lot more the closer I get to graduation. I really wish that you could be here to see me finally walk across that stage and finally be the first in the family to graduate college. You would love how grandpa Mac is continuing to do all the things you would do! He is always helping me out by coming to visit or giving me grocery cards, which has been nice since now I live in an apartment I have to buy groceries and life is definitely way more expensive than I thought! Over all life is definitely really hard and sometimes it seems so much easier to just quit but then I remember Bailey and even though she isn’t my only little cousin I know she watches everything I do! I know that she looks up to me and that she is going to do what I do and I want her to have a great life and do amazing things. She is always so proud of me and she always reminds me of all the things I am doing and how she is looking up to me! You would be so proud of everyone and we really all would love to have you here with us to enjoy all of the amazing things going on! I love and miss you more and more each day and I know you would wish you were here with us too

Missing you

September 3, 2020
 I miss you so much grandma...
realizing your not gonna be here tomorrow to go to kansas breaks my heart and breaks grandpas to.
I wish you were here and with emma,paul,elena,quinten,me,grandpa,the girls, dillon, ella the whole family. Where everyone would go it breaks my heart to see less faces at the renouin. I love u

Missing you

November 3, 2019
Hey Grandma just me. I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately. As I’m sure you know Grandma Verna passed away a couple weeks ago so it’s been rough lately. This weekend was her funeral and it was really the only other funeral I have been to other than yours. It’s hard to think that the only two people I have ever lost in my life have been my grandmas and both from cancer. It makes me look at life in a whole new way with a disappointment and envy of those who are lucky enough to still have grandmothers. Grandpa Max, Bailey and my best friend Paloma all came down to the funeral this weekend and I honestly don’t think I could have gotten through it without them. I always say Bailey is my little protector because she really is, she’s like a mini you in that way she is always protecting me and making sure I’m okay. School hasn’t been the easiest lately and I’m struggling because I’m not doing as well as I’m used to and I feel like I dug myself a hole and I am having to work a lot harder to get out of it. This semester is really testing me and making me wonder why I chose to go to school and if I can even do it. I’m really enjoying my job on campus and I think that’s the only reason I have hung in so long this semester. I don’t know if there is a place above that you are looking down on us but if there is and you can send me a sign of what I’m supposed to be doing I would really appreciate it because I am feeling kind of lost right now. I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing or if what I’m doing is even right. Will next semester be better because I’m not so preoccupied or will school just continue to get harder and harder and can I even do it? Should I quit and try something else? I guess life has just been feeling a little all over the place and I am really lost and I feel like I have no direction or purpose right now. I really wish you were here right now. I miss you and grandma Verna so much and I know you are both watching over us and protecting us. Please watch

Thinking about you

March 4, 2019

Hey grandma it’s Elena just been thinking about you a lot lately as for the last month and a half I have got to spend at least one day a week with Kirk, Q and Bailey. Everyone is doing beyond amazing and having a blast always getting to hang out so much fun. We have all been supporting the little ones in their basketball games and let me tell you they are both little stars. They both have that aggression and don’t let anyone push them around Q ball is quite the little defender and last week rebounded and dribbled the ball all the way down the court. Bailey makes baskets left and right. Q is more excited for soccer season which is coming up. Bailey loves basketball and it quit good and works really hard and I think you can already see an improvement. Bailey also had her school play this week and she did amazing she was bossing everyone around and knew that play like the back of her hand. Everytime we are at these events it’s hard to not think of you and how you would have been there cheering them on and getting just as mad as Bailey and Me when we think they are cheating poor Q’s team. Grandpa Max is always there never misses the game if he has the time and cheers right along side all of us. Mom is doing good me and her are actually about to take a trip and I am super excited. Kirk is good it’s amazing to see his face light up as he watches those kids. I don’t know much about how Emma and Paul are doing we don’t see much of them these days but they do hang out with us on occasion and seem to be super happy as well. You would be so proud of everyone and how far we are all growing. In the last year I would definitely say I have had my ups and downs but I feel better and I have my people. I have an amazing support system Mom, Dad and Paloma and of course my little hearts outside my body Q and bailey. We all have our ups and downs at times but I am glad you helped us mend these relationships over the years because without them I truly would be lost. School definitely is rough and it’s nice to have the escape of these games and watching their little faces light up after they have done something right that’s why I haven’t missed a game yet. I had a rough couple of weeks at the beginning of the year and I think between the self care and basketball weekend mix it truly has helped me brighten my spirts. I just wanted to give you an update and let you know we all still think and treminiscence about you. I love and miss you grandma. Have a good week

Christmas Without You

December 23, 2018

It’s Christams time right about now which means that we begin to reminisce about all of our time together. We always had such an amazing time with you, especially when all the kids could be together. Today would have made your beautiful heart so happy. Kirk, Laura, Grandpa Max, and all your beautiful grandchildren got to spend the day together. We had lunch, exchanged gifts and just talked. It was one of the best times I have had in a long time. While you were here with us all you every wanted was for us to all spend time together and we have continued to do this and loved every minute of it. To catch you up on all the kids I will start with little Q ball. He is quite the little heart melter he has the sweetest heart and I swear that kid doesn’t have a bad bone in his body. He loves hanging out with the family and he is about to turn 9. I don’t think you would believe how big he has gotten. Then little miss Bailey, who isn’t so little anymore, is quite ambitious she wants to play professional basketball and she is still a total health nut. In fact I am going to take her to one of my college women’s basketball on Sunday and I think she is pretty excited. In about a month she will turn 10 years old the big double digits. Me and her have a lot in common she is so responsible and would choose family over anyone. Her and grandpa have quite the bond and she keeps him company. Emma is quite the beautiful girl she has her first boyfriend and he really makes her happy. Even though that means we don’t get to see her as much. She is a strong kid and I know you would be so beyond proud of her. She has had some mistakes but she is growing and getting tall she is just as tall as me. Pablito has been having a little bit of a rough time and he misses you so much. He passed all of his classes this semester. He is a strong kid and when he applies himself man you can’t stop that kid. He has really been so amazing with me and supported me. He really could use you and your support right now. Grandpa Max has been good he has been lonely and it really shows which breaks my heart. We try and have lunch or breakfast with him at least once a week. He still works and I don’t think he will ever stop. He still keeps up with us kids and he has got to go back to Kansas quite a bit. Mom and Kirk have been good as well pretty busy and hard to keep up with but amazing. Last of all me I just finished my first semester of college with a 3.6 GPA and then I took a 4 week class over break and am doing pretty good there as well. I love getting to see the family and have the kids up to hang out with. We all miss you like crazy and wish you would have been here with us to see everything that we know you would have wanted to be here for. We love and miss you our beautiful angel and we think about you all the time. 


P.S. we had a little piece of you here today as we had your little Starskey

Holidays

November 21, 2018

Everyone always says that the holidays are the hardest times and I truly don’t think that the holidays are hard because it’s a holiday but because we begin to realize all that we miss about you. I miss hearing that you were proud of me I miss you laugh I miss you smile I miss your hugs I miss you walking through the door I miss you looking about me and me just knowing that you were always going to be there. When you passed away it made me look at the world in a new way. It made me realize that life is never fair and sometimes it can all fall apart. As I have grown older and not had you in my life I had to find little ways to fill those voids in my life and I think one of them was cutting them out. If I started to feel a void where you should have been I just cut it off. I began school at the University of Northern Colorado in August and I don’t think I have ever been more scared in my entire life. I realized that I cut things out when they get tough by going to school. I am struggling and not necessarily just with school but even just having the motivation to continue school. I have been thinking long and hard lately about quitting school because I am getting to this point especially because I think normally you would have been there encouraging me telling me I am doing great and telling me you are proud of me and making me want to keep going but you aren’t because you died. I love school but I don’t know I if I can keep going without your love and support. I miss you beyond belief and I really wish you could be here to tell me it’s all going to be ok and that you are proud of me but you aren’t. I don’t even know if school is something you would want me to do but I know that you would have been proud because it’s what I wanted. This holiday is definitely the hardest after ever special event you haven’t been here for recently. I love and miss you more than you will ever know.



Ps. The picture is from when the girls came to visit me at UNC

When I miss you most

October 7, 2018

These last two months I have realized more than ever how much my mom must miss you. I remember hearing her say that when anything happened she wanted to call you and at first I didn’t get it. Now I understand why because although I don’t live very far from home I miss her and anytime anything happens the first thing I wanna do is call her. We all miss you greatly. This year has definitely been the hardest year without you, so many big milestones that I thought you would be here for and then you weren’t in a split second. I graduated high school and I got to receive my diploma from my mom which made that day so many times greater. I am now attending college which is much harder than I thought. But I am lucky to have so many people supporting me every step of the way. I love and miss you and I wish you could be here to see how well everyone is doing and celebrate the big milestones with all of us. I miss you more than you will ever know, my heart aches without you. When I feel an extreme pain for you this website helps me feel that you are hearing me and that you can still be a huge part of my life as always. I love and miss you have a great day and smile big for me. I can’t wait to get another hug from you one day

Left us in good hands

March 23, 2018

It’s been a while since I have checked in with you but I just wanted you to know everyone is doing great! We all miss you like crazy. Grandpa does everything that you would continue to do for us. We invite him to any of our activities or dinners and he is always more than willing to show up. I thought you would have loved to have seen this photo. Recently I was a part of FLHS play of Stranger Happenings. I was an actual actor and I had two parts. Grandpa, just as you would have, came to support me and actually let us take a picture of him. I know he misses you like crazy, you were his beautiful, because every time you are brought up he begins to tear up. He does the same for Kirks kids. Over spring break he is actually gonna take Bailey, Q and myself to Kansas for 5 days to cost. Due to the fact that I will be in college next year we may not have the opportunity to take that trip back all of us to the family reunion. I also really wish you were here to meet my amazing boyfriend because everyone loves him and I know you would to. I hope you are happy and I am glad you are no longer suffering it definitely took me a long time to get to this place but I still miss you like crazy and tear up when we talk about you. I love you so very much!

Today

December 17, 2017

Today I came across this picture of us and i couldn’t help but cry. Not like a couple tears but like completely balling. All I wanted to do was go back to this day we’re you were hugging me like this! Finals week is getting close and I am hoping I can get the 4.0 I have been hoping for, this will give me so much joy because I will have made at least myself proud. Days like today are hard because I wish you were here to at least give me that smile and say everything is gonna be okay because you are loved and it may not seem like it but it’s true. I miss you so much but most of all I miss how you made me feel. 

The day you died.

December 10, 2017

I remember the day you died like it was yesterday. A lot of nights I have nightmares about the day you died, laying next to you watching you take your last breath. Sometimes it just keeps replaying in my head over and over again and it feels like I will never wake up. I miss you so much! I miss the days when we would sit on the couch and you would tell me how proud of me you are. I miss sleepovers at your house or card nights and overhearing you brag to everyone about me. Days lately have been kind of lonely and it makes me miss you. We have 169 days left till graduation and I feel like I am doing this all for myself. In a way that makes me proud but it also makes me miss doing it for you. If you were here I would long for the days when I could call you and tell you I got into my 7th college or that I made A honor roll again and hearing that voice that you would make everytime you got proud. I miss your smiles and your long hugs when you could tell I needed it. I miss our deep conversations and most of all I miss seeing you the way I did before you passed away.  I hope you look down and are proud of all that is going on down here with everyone. I love and miss you so much and I feel a lot better. I’ll see you one day

A day I usually would share with you

October 17, 2017

I turned 47 today!  I have never been a fan of birthdays but now that you are gone I especially do not like them.  Birthdays are usually special for not only the person having the birthday but for the mother because you remember giving birth to your beautiful child.  You use to always make me feel so loved and we had our birthday traditions.  I feel so lonely on my birthdays; despite the lovely efforts from my children and husband.  I have been sulky all week.  I look around and almost everyone I know still has a living parent.....at least one.  It is just so unfair to be so alone in this world.  

I love and miss you my sweet, gentle mother.

Jealous

July 16, 2017

Hey Grandma, 

I miss you so much. Some days are harder than others. Sometimes I get really angry and sad when I have good news because I want to call and tell you and hear the change in your voice that always let me know you were truly proud. Sometimes it's hard because my friends call their grandparents and it makes me really jealous to know that they can still talk to them! But in then end this has been a busy but good month. Grandpa is doing good he went camping with Lester and Gary. Starskey has a hair appointment and Grandpa stopped in to pay before he left. Me and starskey has a great little day! I miss you bunches! Love you❤️

Grateful for the time I had you

June 28, 2017

Hello my beautiful grandma, 

There are so many days that I want to call you and tell you everything that is going on but then I remember I can't. I think about all the things that you won't get to see or be at like my graduation, the other kids graduation, and so many more big life events. I start to get sad that this is my last year of high school and you aren't here to see it, you will always be apart of it but you will not be here to participate. After I start to feel bad for myself I stop and remember all the things of mine you got to see that you won't for the other kids. I had the opportunity to have you in my life for 14 years and some big life events that none of the other kids will get to. But anyway this weekend we went up to steamboat and spent the weekend and while we were up there we took some of my senior pictures. They turned out really great! Then when we came back we picked up the kids and we all spent some time together. As we came down the mountain I looked at the pictures we took and I thought about the places we took them and how they had no significance of our time up there but how I still felt like you were a part of them. I hope that as this year goes on you are watching over all of us and that you are there when I walk across that stage and earn what I have been working for for 12 school years! I hope that you are there for Paul in his first year of high school watching over him and making sure he is ok because I can only protect him for one more year and then he is gonna be there all alone. I hope you continue to watch over all of the other kids and make sure they know how loved they are! I hope that you watch over mom and make sure she knows that no matter how we turn out she did everything she could for us. I hope you watch over my dad and help him through his surgery next month. Last of all I hope you watch over grandpa and help remind him in the smallest ways that he is loved! Out of all of these I hope you watch over me and paul and see how much better we are getting along and remind me even at the hardest points that I love him and he is my brother he comes before anybody else and no matter what I need to protect him, but also help him to enjoy high schools because it can be amazing when you are surrounded by the right people. I love and miss you! 

Forever in my heart, 

Boss

Celebrating your life

May 11, 2017

My beautiful sweet mother,

Today marks the 2nd year that we have had to live without you.  As this day was approaching I have been reflecting on your life and everything you have taught me.  Your teachings were not directed but set by example.  You were not one to lecture or judge or focus on the past.  You moved forward and focused on loving those close to you.  You accepted me and were proud of my decisions even when as a mother you probably wanted more for me. 

So today, rather than focusing on the day you left this world, this body and us..... I want to focus on all the days you spent in this world, living your path and loving us. 

I love and miss you dearly!

-Kelly

Day you died.

May 9, 2017

No matter how hard I try to bring you back I can't. I will never forget the day you died. It was the day after mothers day on a monday. We didnt go to school that day because when we woke up you couldn't talk and we knew it was bad. I remember staying with you in your room for most of the day. I remeber having Julie and Nancy and Kirk there all sitting in your room. I layed next to you on the bed just hoping you would be able to talk to us. As everyone started to leave the room for lunch I sat with you. I moved to were mom was sitting and I grabbed your hand. I sat there and held your hand for awhile while me and Nancy talked. You started to breath funny and then one big breath. After a couple seconds it registered that, that was your last breathand that I had been sitting there holding your hand. I called mom in just to make sure and she said yeah. I rembere beggining to cry and nit be able to stay quiet. I remember grandpa walking in and grabbing yiu and crying yelling beautiful. I remember mom hugging me cry. Everyone was crying and little starskey knew something was wrong.After a while all still upset we were able to call the doctor who came and pronounced you dead at 1:40. Then we waited a while for the morgue to come and they had not yet. So me and grandpa went to get food. When we came back we all ate and it was around 6:00 they came. I remember coming in and hugging your cold body knowing that would be the last time. Everyone said there final goodbye and then the men picked you up and carried you to the front room and wheeled you away. That was when it really hit that you were gone. We walked you outside waited till the van drove off and then went back inside. I remeber right before they came we were eating and something feel and made a loud noice and I freaked out and though it was you comin back and once again my heart broke that day. After you left I remeber coming back inside and crying till I threw up. I remeber telling mom how I wanted to go with you. I still stand by that. I miss you and not one day passes that I dont think of you but I think Thursday is going to be extra hard. I love and miss you everyday and I hope you are proud of me! I cant wait to see you again. 

Easter

April 21, 2017

I always remember all of us would get together at your house for Easter and his year we did it at our house. Grandpa and the kids all came over and hung out at our house. Grandpa even made us little baskets just like you used to! I am sure this would have made you happy. I love and miss you! 

Elena 

A Bailey Memory

July 23, 2016

 My lillies are in full bloom and when you walk up to our door the sweet smell is just so delightful.  I have been trying to teach the kids the names of the different flowers and and so two nights ago Bailey and I were out in my garden messing around and I asked her to go up on the porch and see if she could figure out what flower was so fragant.

Bailey came back to me and said, "I don't know what flower is so fragrant but whatever one it is....it is Grandma's favorite flower."  I nearly burst out crying at the wisdom of this little girl but I asked her......."What do you mean?".  She said, "well, the smell on the porch is the same smell grandma had in her house all the time!"  What an observation and what a memory that she had that she probably did not even realize!

Bailey and I talked about how Grandpa Max always brought you flowers each week and he often brought you the pink lillies which did smell so very sweet.  I did confess to her that I didn't think "lillies" were your favorite flower but that she was right about your house having that smell a lot because Grandpa loved to bring you flowers and he seemed to either bring you roses(one of your favorites) or lillies (my favorite).

Mom, your memories and your time with these grandchildren are engrained in them.....even their smells. 

Love you,

K

What you had hoped for

July 23, 2016

Good morning My Beautiful Mother,

I imagine that wherever you are you have a smile on your face and warmth in your heart from seeing that both your children and all your grandchildren were under one roof yesterday, last night and today and we are all getting along and loving one another. 

Thank you for never giving up on Kirk and Me and our families.  We are at a place where we can get along, discuss, disagree, annoy and still love one another at the end of the day. 

Kirk and Laura are having hard wood floors put in this weekend and thus they have to stay out of their house  while the floors are stained.  Laura is sleeping at her dads and working at night so the kids and Kirk are hanging out at our house this weekend which is such a sweet delight.  I hope I can get Kirk, Laura and the kids together for a camping trip this summer.  I know when we are all together you are with us.

I am sorry that your Sister can not leave well enough alone.  I am sure you were not suprised nor happy to hear her recent attack on one of your grandchildren and her attempt to try and drive a wedge between Kirk and I.  I do not understand her motiviation on wanting to upset what she knows would make you happy.  Oh well, as usual, she was not successful.  However, the spitefulness in her supposedly Christian heart makes me regret all those times I pleaded with you to look beyond her insanity and accept her for who she was.  No more, my heart and our lives are closed to her forever.

Max's 70th birthday is coming up here soon so the kids and I are working on a special gift for him today.  Starsky is doing well but he and Dexter have been fighting a bit more lately; we are keeping an eye on this and trying to take out the things they get jealous over.

Elena is going to be turning 16 in just a little over a month.  We are working on putting together a large party for her; she wants both family and friends there. I may not have many family members on my side of the family but the ones I have are mighty!

I love you Mom.

-Kehle

 

 

 

 

 

Paul & Elena updates

May 23, 2016

Good evening my beautiful mother,

You would have loved this past weekend.  Pablito had 3 football games and he played so well;he had 4 6-picks in one game!  As much as you loved watching football that would have been a great game for you.  Paul was so happy.  He is so tall that he towers over other kids his age which gives him the advantage of intercepting those passes and then he is getting better at running so he was able to run all 4 of the interceptions in for a touchdown.  I am not even a football fan and yet I really enjoyed the game.  Hopefully you were there with us watching.  Max has been attending most of his games but he missed this past weekend.  Right now his team is 7-0.  He is back playing for Coach Tim who I really like.  He is a good mentor and believe it or not he is not all about winning.  Matter of fact he had to talk to Pablito about running the score up at one of the games.  I do not think you would have liked that but Paul understood.

Elena interviewed for a job at the restaurant at Hwy 52 and I25 and she will be starting as a hostess this coming Thursday.  She is very excited and I am very proud that she went in and interviewed and that she wants to work some place other than my office.  Elena will also be watching Kirk's kids on Monday(s) and Friday(s) so I am happy that they will all get to spend time together this summer.  Elena enjoyed the games over the weekend and she was fiercly protective of her brother.  He was chosen for MVP of the game but Elena did not like the words that were spoken about him.  You know how protective she can be when she feels that someone she loves is being wronged.  It really warmed my heart.

Starsky recently got a hair cut and he is practically naked; not so sure I like him that short haired.  He is doing really well and we are keeping hiim safe.  

I love you mom.

-K 

Max

May 11, 2016

Hey Mom,

We saw Max today and as you can imagine today was a hard day for him and for all of us.  I especially worry about Max and yet I am touched by his love for you and how the meer thought or talk of you brings tears to his eyes.  I cannot imagine loosing Big Paul and I wonder how you managed through the loss of Dad and how Max is getting through the loss of "his beautiful".  

Max took the day off work and picked Elena up from school.  We all met at the Mexican restaurant in Firestone, near the King Soopers, that we use to go to with you all the time.  Obviously dinner was not the same without you but it was so nice to all share in the memories of you. I find that I need to talk about you, I need to retell stories and hear others retell stories of you.  It helps you feel not so far away.  I wish Kirk, Laura and the kids could have met us for dinner but they had an appointment this evening that could not be cancelled.  (If you can see what is going on I am sure you are livid and I hope you haunt the woman who is bringing negativity to Kirk and his family; anyhow, I digress.)

Max came back to our house after dinner to visit with Starsky.  He did not stay long as I got the feeling he was not feeling well - plus he had to get ready for work tomorrow.  I don't think Max will ever retire.  I am so grateful you were able to retire when you did.

I love you Mom.

-Kehle
 

Elena spoiling Starsky

May 9, 2016

Don't worry Mom.  Starsky is continuing to be spoiled.  Just this past weekend Elena made homemade ice cream and made sure that all the dogs enjoyed some.  
Starsky sleeps with Big Paul and I each night (on the bed) and the puppy Dexter sleeps on the floor next to the bed;otherwise those dogs will play all night.

Max continues to take Starsky to get his groom on and he makes sure we always have a supply of special treats for Starsky.  

I bought Starsky a special seat for the truck that props him up so he can look out the window.  

When Starsky hears your voice on a video he will go running around looking for you.   When Max visits us he will also look around like you will be coming in next.  Breaks my heart everytime.  

Love you Mom,

Kehle 

1 year

May 9, 2016

Hello My Dearest Mom,

Wednesday will be a year since you left the physicial world.  However, it seems like so much longer.  Normally, time passes so quickly and yet this past year has been the longest year of my life.  I miss you terribly and I just need you back with us.  I am so alone without our daily chats.  I am sorry I took them for granted.

I am also so sorry that we could not give you what you wanted most in the last few years of your life.  I hope you can see that Kirk and I are getting along and we are making sure that our kids are remaining close; are families are remaining close.  '

I visited a medium recently just in the hopes that I could feel closer to you.  I am not completely convinced that you visited me but for the time I was there it was nice to believe it was possible.  The woman conveyed some pretty convincing messages and details that you were giving her and dad too.  You know me, I am pretty sceptical of most things but it felt so amazing to feel so close to you again.

Stasky is living with us and he seems pretty happy; other than he still looks for you.  Big Paul bought Starsky and I a puppy for Christmas so now Starsky has a friend to play with named Dexter. Dexter was suppose to be a Peekapoo also  but he is bigger than Starsky.  Starsky still holds his own but Dexter takes his toys away from him.  Max still buys Starsky is special treats and takes him every couple of weeks to get his groom on.

Elena is going to be finishing 10th grade in the next 2-3 weeks.  Elena is going to be watching Kirk's kids this summer on Monday(s) and Friday(s).  She is wanting to find another job for during the week.  

Pablito just turned 13 and is back to playing football and baseball.  He is 5'10" tall now so he towers above me and Elena. He continues to play the Cello and keep Big Paul and I are our toes.

Emma will be 12 at the end of the month.  I am taking her to have a necklace made with your ashes and will do the same when Bailey turns 12.  Emma is as sweet as ever.

Bailey has moved into wearing yoga pants and workout shoes all the time.  She has her own iphone now and is just so darn grown up.

Quentin just turned 6 and he is a master gamer.  He spends a lot of time with his dad but will occassionally spend the night at our house.  

Max is hanging in there.  He is still working and has found a house in Mead.  Big Paul found the cutest video of a trip you and Max took to Yellowstone probably 15+ years ago.  Heck, maybe 20.  It was very cute but just the mention of the video brought tears to Max; he misses you terribly.  Max is doing good at continuing to spoil all the Grandkids.

I love you Mom.  I hope I can continue to receive messages from you.  It means the world to me.  

-Kehle 

Condolences listed on Legacy

May 9, 2016

May 21, 2015 I just received word that Deb passed away. She was a great lady and truly loved her family. We worked together at IBM For many years and became good friends. My thoughts and prayers are with all of her friends and family  

May 20, 2015 Debbie was my office mate and team lead at IBM for several years. She was such a gentle soul. But she always took time to teach and train me. I am stunned and saddened by this news. Her children and grandchildren will dearly miss her. ~  Robin Hardin, Durango, Colorado  

May 17, 2015 The family of Debbie Bramwell wishes to say thank you to everyone who sent a card, called or messaged with a kind word, sent food or monetary donations, perhaps a beautiful floral arrangement or donated your time to help the family through this difficult time. Debbie was as special part of our family who will live on forever in our hearts. She was blessed with so many great friends and family members. We want to express our heart-felt gratitude and say thank you to every one of you for making this difficult time a little easier. She will have a special place in our hearts, and through our cherished memories she will live on forever.  

May 16, 2015 I am so sorry for your families loss. My thoughts and prayers are with your family. ~  Lisa Cavazos, Longmont, Colorado  

May 15, 2015 I am so very sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. ~  Kathy Crowder, Longmont, Colorado  

May 14, 2015 Very heartfelt condolences to your family, We know she will be missed. ~  Rodney Wilhelm, Denver, Colorado  

May 14, 2015 Our condolences to Debbie's family , we are so sorry for your loss. I enjoyed working with Debbie for many years at IBM, and wish her much peace , god bless. John and Debbie Hernandez and family.

This time last year

November 20, 2015

Hey mom,

It is so difficult to believe that this time last year we had no idea that you would not be with us this year.  The reality that I will never speak to you is finally hitting me.

As you know, Thanksgiving has never been one of my favorite holidays but I always loved the excuse that forced families to come together.  Over the past several years our family gatherings had grown smaller and smaller but, you and I togther on that day was always a constant.  The family members around our table may have grown smaller but we, you and I, Max and Paul and the kids made the best of it. As the family members around our Thanksgiving table grew smaller the traditions began to change and I was ok with that because I had you and my family and I thought that was all I needed.

What am I going to do this year without you.  There is not one tradition left for me to give to the kids.  Big Paul is working on Thanksgiving like he has to every year, Verna and Esiquio have not been up for Thanksgiving in several years, we have lost touch with what little family we had and now you are gone.  Max is going to Kansas, Kirk is spending Thanksgiving with Laura and her family and in all honesty I would not want to gather with anyone without you there.  And yet, I know Elena yearns to have a big family gathering again.  She has lost so much this past year that it would have done her heart good to have been surrounded by familial love; if it was true and honest.

I miss you mom.  Everyday I want to call you.  Nearly every week a flash of excitement or news comes over  and for a split second I reach for the phone to call you.................

I am your daughter and I will continue to try and be as strong as you were.  I think of how strong you were when you lost your mom and the when you lost the love of your life and then your father.  I never thought of you as being an "orphan" as I think of myself because I always saw you being so strong when it came to keeping your feelings and emotions together; you were a rock.  You just picked up and went on.  And so.................I will try and do the same. 

The kids and I are going to spend our Thanksgiving Holiday at the Museum this year.  Pablito wanted to go indoor skydiving but Elena has a broken foot(surgery around the corner) so we are going to opt for a day at the Museum.  I hope the kids can look back on this new holiday tradition of just the three of us and find some type of warm memory.............however, it will never be like the beautiful memories you created for me, for us and our family. 

I love you mom.  I am forever grateful that you are always in my heart!

-Kehle

 

 

Acknowledgement

May 17, 2015

The family of Debbie Bramwell wishes to say thank you to everyone who sent a card, called or messaged  with a kind word, sent food or monetary donations, perhaps a beautiful floral arrangement or donated your time to help the family through this difficult time.  Debbie was as special part of our family who will live on forever in our hearts.  She was blessed with so many great friends and family members.  We want to express our heart-felt gratitude and say thank you to every one of you for making this difficult time a little easier.  She will have a special place in our hearts, and through our cherished memories she will live on forever.

 

Celebration of Life

May 13, 2015

A Celebration of her life will be held on Monday, May 18th, 2015 between 2pm and 5pm at the Moose Lodge in Longmont.  We invite all who knew and loved Debbie to join us in the celebration of her life.  

The Moose Lodge is located at 2210 Pratt Street, Longmont, CO  80501.  If you have questions or need directions please contact Paul Griego at 720-296-2341, Max Henderson at 720-684-9615 or Kehle Griego at kehlegriego@gmail.com

May 13, 2015

A million words would not bring you back,
I know, because I have tried
Neither would a million tears 
I know, because I have cried. 

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