Ou Ou ou...
If tears could bring you back , I know I would have you alive, right here with me. It gets real to me, by the day, that this thing called death is an ugly pattern and there is , sadly, nothing anyone can do to revert it.
Your resilience, hardwork, tolerance, positive spirit, selflessness & sincere love for your family and friends are qualities that carve you out as an exemplary figure to me and hundreds. You thought me by example, how to be a virtuous woman, a wife, a mother, a manager, an entrepreneur, etc. Yes, You were all of these and much more!
Oh Moda, (as I use to call you) writing to you today is one of the most difficult things I have ever done. It now dawns on me that you have truly embarked on a journey of no return.
How am I supposed to function without our daily chats,jokes,prayers, Songs, lessons, salient pieces of advice, even our little gossips! The children keep asking who will do hot banana cakes for them, who will knit warm wear for them, who will... who will... No no!!! This gap is sorely irreplaceable!!! You have always been there for me through happy and sad moments.
When you became ill mid last year, I could find no peace until you joined me in Yaounde , then my dear siblings & I later agreed for me to fly along with you to Houston. We chatted throughout the flight on so many strategic , life-changing issues which I have been implementing & promise to do so to the letter.
I thank God everyday for blessing me with such an exceptionally iconic Mother like you.
The night before your passing I was unusually weak & restless, a feeling which rapidly spread through to Sean, Dylan & most especially Dylise. We didn't sleep a wink that night till the cruel, news came through - You were GONE.
Moda. You are gone, YET YOU LIVE ON!!! Just another Angel has found their wings. I know you are safe, in God's arms, looking down on us. Till we meet again to part no more. I love you & Always will.
Mangieh Billiarte
Ontario/Canada