August 6, 2022
August 6, 2022
My sweet Bubba,
I miss you more then the sun when it’s 10 below out, more then the rain in the middle of a drought. Sometimes the pain and emptiness of not having you around overtakes me and other times I’m able to block it out just to get by. Some days are harder then others but everyday you’re thought of. This year as your birthday came and went, it was all I could do as I laid those flowers on the earth to keep at least apart off myself from losing it all together. I had to remind myself you aren’t there and that you’re more alive today then you’ve ever been. Just hanging out with Jesus, waiting for the rest of us. That is the only truth that gives me any kind of comfort. I miss your laughing eyes, your smile, your ability to calm any situation, your voice that seemed to get more country by the day! I miss just hanging out with you. There’s a piece of my heart that will forever be gone until, by the grace of God I get to join you one day. Your Son is huge, he looks like you. Wild as a buck to, like you were when you were his age. I think how amazing God is when I look at your new little nephew, Noah. The most amazing thing ever, he looks like you. He smiles through his eyes just like you did and I know that of course was God giving us a reminder of you, a comfort even. Two months ago was the anniversary of your gone way too soon life taken from us. It’s hard to believe it’s been 7 years you’ve been gone now. I miss you the same, the pain is still as real today as it was that day. I’m still in disbelief that you’re gone. I love you so much and miss you everyday. My Sweet Baby Brother.. You made it through the pearly gates, now the rest of us have to do the same…..
I miss you more then the sun when it’s 10 below out, more then the rain in the middle of a drought. Sometimes the pain and emptiness of not having you around overtakes me and other times I’m able to block it out just to get by. Some days are harder then others but everyday you’re thought of. This year as your birthday came and went, it was all I could do as I laid those flowers on the earth to keep at least apart off myself from losing it all together. I had to remind myself you aren’t there and that you’re more alive today then you’ve ever been. Just hanging out with Jesus, waiting for the rest of us. That is the only truth that gives me any kind of comfort. I miss your laughing eyes, your smile, your ability to calm any situation, your voice that seemed to get more country by the day! I miss just hanging out with you. There’s a piece of my heart that will forever be gone until, by the grace of God I get to join you one day. Your Son is huge, he looks like you. Wild as a buck to, like you were when you were his age. I think how amazing God is when I look at your new little nephew, Noah. The most amazing thing ever, he looks like you. He smiles through his eyes just like you did and I know that of course was God giving us a reminder of you, a comfort even. Two months ago was the anniversary of your gone way too soon life taken from us. It’s hard to believe it’s been 7 years you’ve been gone now. I miss you the same, the pain is still as real today as it was that day. I’m still in disbelief that you’re gone. I love you so much and miss you everyday. My Sweet Baby Brother.. You made it through the pearly gates, now the rest of us have to do the same…..