To my dearest first born daughter. 4 years, 11 months doesn't dull the pain. You would be so proud how much better Gina is doing.. Caitlin is all grown up now and beautiful, like you. Jimmy has grown into a handsome young man. Sad to say Rob doesn't keep in touch - but I am sure Ryan is growing up into a fine young man. Des - not sure I can go on much longer myself - the fried, the pain is too much and overwhelming - I long to just tell you how much your life meant to me - I still feel frozen in darkness - days pass but they are meaningless. I love you. I'm sorry that I could not vindicate your life and put Mike Dorio in jail for what he did to you. I wanted so much more for you. You did it your way and that is what made you so special. I still pray for one moment in Heaven with you that will hold be over until one day we will be one again. A mother's love will transcend the worlds that separate us - nothing will break the bond - What's it like - is there really a tomorrow? One day, Des, I will close my eyes and I pray that your hand reaches out and takes me beyond. Love Mom.