Just still missing you.

You were far too young. 24 years young. You have four awesome sons that all have a part of you. I see you in each one of them and that makes my heart beat stronger. They give me so much joy. They're learning to survive with out you, the struggles are real. I hear their cries and wanting to see more pictures of you. Pictures are never enough to satisfy them or me.  But, one day we'll see you again. Neither broken and living in peace and harmony in the heaven's above. We all love you, son and Jesus will see to it that I find myself home in a big house with many many rooms just for us. Deverin you made me so proud. There's nothing or no--one that can break the seal of you and I. We are family and have loyalty and dignity. You make all of our hearts cry out to you.  Wishing only one wish and that would be to see you once more with your family.

A Picture Of You
I only have a picture now,
A frozen piece of time,
To remind me of how it was,
When you were here, and mine.
I see your smiling eyes,
Each morning when I wake,
I talk to you, and place a kiss,
Upon your lovely face.
How much I miss you being here,
I really cannot say,
The ache is deep inside my heart,
And never goes away.
I hear it mentioned often,
That time will heal the pain,
But if I'm being honest,
I hope it will remain.
I need to feel you constantly,
To get me through the day,
I loved you so very much,
Why did you go away?
The angels came and took you,
That really wasn't fair,
They took my one and only Son,
My future life. My heir.
If only they had asked me,
If I would take your place,
I would have done so willingly,
Leaving you this world to grace.
You should have had so many years,
To watch your life unfold,
And in the mist of this,
Watch me, your Mum grow old!
I hope you're watching from above,
At the daily tasks I do,
And let there be no doubt at all,
I really do love you.