I can not say that we were still close. I will not say things that i don't know about. Hypocrisy is something i can't abide. I will leave all the heavenly remarks to those that are more faithful than I. I will say, you weren't alone. In a family the size of ours, you should have been able to reach out to someone. I can say that despite the fact that we weren't close... i love you. I will not lie and say I am not still very mad at you. You broke a lot of hearts... left a lot of questions in your wake. I was devastated by what you did. Tears came to my eyes as I read the comments of some of your other family members. How could you possibly not know that someone would gladly reach out and help you through whatever struggles you were going through. Where did your fight go? You use to be so full of it. I guess we will never understand what was going on in your mind. I hope you have found peace. I hope that the ones you left behind (your mother, brothers, sisters and children especially) can find peace with your decision. You were loved and will always be loved.... i just hope you know that now.