Hi mum and dad please say hi to Ken ,let him know how grateful I will always be for both Lewis and my financial situation ,,,I know how weak I am and that it’s all to do with him,he was good man and I’m sure deserves a place in heaven more then most ,I don’t know if you can look at us anytime but I truly hope you can’t because I feel I would let you down in so many ways …..please forgive me my weaknesses .

Hello mum and dad ,I guess you can visit or maybe just somehow know how we all are ,my life is picking up in many ways and I just wish the same for Lewis ,he needs that lucky break ,he’s both capable and willing I think he just doesn’t know how to put that first step in place .you’d both like him he’s a real decent person I hope without too much baggage I just want him to live life and enjoy it .I was once told that you two aren’t together ,,,that’s something I choose not to believe because you were all about each other so that to me should be your forever .anyway haha I’ll tune in next yr and I will be fine .

Well mum another yr passes and where am I ,I wish I could just say how much I miss you but I don’t know how much I do ,,,please forgive me for blaming you when in truth you were just weak .sorry .say hi to dad and please both off you forgive me .

Thought about you a lot today mum xxx happy birthday ,,,trielt hope your happier in heaven then I think you were down here x

9 years already .lewis is my world I’m so proud of him ,I just wish I could be the person he needs in his world ,I think my weakness to get over my childhood is spoiling my adulthood and for that I’m to blame .in sorry I put all the blame on you but I guess your the excuse I needed .please forgive me ,you weren’t as bad a mum as I always make out ,I think you had your own baggage ,please forgive me mum ,I do hope your trudelt at peace and happy xx Anne

God help me ,why can I not get over what happened to me and why did you not support or help me .

Mum sometimes I just get lost

Why??

mum your forever a part of us love you always xxx anne