Dad,
Why why why???? Daddy I need you soo much right now. You went only my father but my bestfriend, my rock, my anchor, my hero, my main. Im lost dad I'm soo lost. I don't know how much more I can handle without you. There is soo much I didn't get to tell you and soo much more I didn't know about you it pains me daily I hate myself for not being there i hate myself for leaving that day. Im sorry I didn't see the pain you were going through. I would of spent every second of everyday right by your side if I had of known just so you would of known how loved you were and still are. Im sorry dad. Im soo sorry I wasn't there. You were always there for me. I love you too sooooooooo much my heart aches my soul dies everyday more and more knowing I have to live everyday without you. It's a nightmare. The only hope I have left is seeing you on the other side and I have faith in God I will. My children oh let me tell you are precious oh so precious. Malachi is my bestfriend, i feel thats all i have left of you he was there with me through the worst of my days. His little brother Adonis is such an amazing boy as well. And Wesley, Alejandro, and Kylee are such big help with them. They are all getting soo big. Your memories walk side by side with me everyday. I love you dad. Its not goodbye it's "see you later" your best friend, your one and only daughter. I miss you