Dear friend,
Doubt, you see, will always try to convince you, You are all alone. No one else knows. Or cares. No one else really can enter in and help you with this. In Hebrews 6:19, however, the writer says that Christ is a constant priest-not once a year, but forever. He lives in the God-room. He is there, sitting alongside the Father, representing your needs to Him. And, child of God, there is nothing so great for you to endure that He does not feel touched by it and stay by you through it. Do not let this one dark cloud cover the entire sky. After all, He says He will never forsake nor leave you. As I write these words I read them to myself because I sometimes feel the way you feel today. In fact I felt so when I lost my mum, I felt same when I lost my sister and last year I felt same when I lost my dad.
Dear Alvina, faith is the ability to see God in the dark. You are not alone.