Good Morning Son,did'ent sleep very well last nite,had you on my mind.oh eddie how mommy misses you so much.there is times like i can't breath.my life is not the same any more,i am always so sad.i lost a tone of weight.i talk to your sis aleta every day,she is hurting also.she looks just like you,its hard for me to look at her,i love all ya'll kids with every breath t i take, she lives so far away ,wish i could see her more.i miss her to.my life is a big mess,i need to talk to you so bad,i use to talk to you a couple times a day.now thats gone now what do i do.oh my god eddie i miss you so bad.i listen to your voice everyday ,i can't believe your gone.i still have everything on my phone you send me,i know i will see you one day,but not soon enough.i wish i could see you now.i know your in peace now,your not sick no more.my heart hurts so bad .,no one will ever know how much.i try to go on but i can't no one understands. i know you understand. did you really think it would be easy.your a angle now ,i know your watching over me.when we were on the floor watching tv you put your arms around me and said dam mom your little ,i put my head on your chest and i felt so safe .thats when i start calling you teddy bear.thats what you felt like..you never had a mean bone in you.such a wounderful person.we both cried together,laugh joked around talked.play fight and getting your sister dee upset lol.i'm so happy we spent time together..i love you .R.I.P. mommy will write to you later