I would do anything right now to have you near, to feel your warm arms around me. This is so hard, and I feel like walking away. I feel like I'm going backwards, I've come so far forward, and done so much and so well, yet I feel like I'm slipping slowly back and I can't stop it. I turn to things that I shouldn't, and it takes all my strength not to go through with it. And I very rarely succeed. All I want to do is hear your voice, hear the laugh that would never fail to make me smile, and see your beautiful face light up when ever you heard something excited or you was proud. The day I told you I got into college, your face was just full of amazement and joy. I would do anything to go back to that day. I miss you so much, I can't even describe how much. I would do anything to bring you back to us. I love you so much nana, I really hope your happy up where you are watching over us, and hope your sleeping tight. I hope to see you soon in my dreams.
ILoveYou,
Lots like jelly tots,
To the moon and back,
For ever and always <3