The most central person in my life has moved on to a different spiritual realm. My great grandmother, Elaine G. Cotten-Sturtridge. Words cannot convey what a heartbreaking, bone shattering, soul numbing loss this has been for me. My grandma was the most lovely, hilarious, and comforting person to be around. There was something about her presence that made you feel that warmth and comfort that you feel sitting by a fireplace, drinking hot cocoa, and telling the family stories that make your heart flutter with a sense of warmth, and whole-ness. My grandmother was always the person you could run to, tears streaming, knees weak, emotions broken down, and the sound of her voice, the feel of her touch, and the smell of her "A little sexy" perfume, would surround you with all the love you could ever need in your weakest of times.
Elaine Sturtridge had so much love in her heart of gold. She touched the lives of many with her graceful touch, and ever so loving demeanor. My grandma was, and will continue to be, my strength, my love, my compassion, and my idol. Without her, I would not be even half the person who stands before you today. My grandmother taught me to love, to forgive, and to share the love that fills my heart. I am confidant, without a shadow of doubt, that I will never love, and idolize another human soul...the way I did my grandmother.
Grandma filled my life, heart, and soul with so much blessing that it is beyond fathom. She loved me in a way, that has shaped who I am as a person. I don't think the hurt from this loss will ever subside, but I will never let the memories I've shared with her slip from my grasp.
Grandma, I love you with an intensity that these words could never begin to convey. The way your love surrounds me is something I cannot explain. I know deep in my heart that you always have been, and will forever continue to be, the hand on my shoulder when I feel like giving up. You'll be the spark of love I'll feel at my highest and lowest points of life. You'll be the reminder that there is good in this world. No part of who I am, will ever forget the love and understanding that you brought to this world, and to my life.
You'll always be... My Guardian Angel.