Oh Beavis.....How I miss you so much. Losing Robert 3 years ago was the worst thing I have ever known, until now. Losing you was more than devastating. I would've traded you places in the blink of an eye. You had so much yet to do. Gods plan is so hard to understand. Quite often actually. But my Bible tells me its not about my timing, its his. So I just trust in that. Everything he does is perfect. He doesn't make mistakes. I know you are with the Father. I can't wait to meet him. I'm in no hurry lol. But I cant wait just the same. Heaven is perfect. No tears. People say our loved ones are looking down on us from heaven, I think the bible teaches us differently. Because if you could see me these last 9 months it would have broken your heart and I know there is no sadness in heaven. I miss you so much Beavis. My life has finally found direction. I always wanted you to be proud of me. I know you were in that sense of sibling love. But today you would truly be proud of the man that I have become. I know you would because for the first time in life i am. The Lord has changed my heart, my life, and I am just sooo blessed. None of us deserve his mercy but we get it anyway. What a magnificent God we serve! Gods ultimate commandments: LOVE GOD. LOVE PEOPLE.
Thank you for this Melissa!! I love you too :-)
