Dad was sitting here no babies this morning.Wish you were here to see them grow but you're watching from above.Really miss our visits on sundays.My heart has a empty spot that can never be filled that spot was your's dad no one can every take.Was out too see sue for christmas and took her a gift. Talk too sissy almost every day to check on her she is really missing you. Christmas was hard without you here .Love and miss you always and forever

Dad I've not written you this morning.. It's been crazy n wild at work today.. It's 9:40 pm and I just woke up about hour ago and going back to bed. I lost the inhaler Tonia gave me and I'm starting to feel it. I'm going to have to go to the dr I guess... Tomorrow is New Year's Eve it means going into 2015 without you.. Having a hard time dealing with it to be honest.. Do u remember me calling u last New Years and blowing ur phone up until u picked up lol.. I called 6 times just to tell u happy new year... And u cussed me lol and said thanks now I can't go bk to sleep lol.. We talked for about 20 minutes about nothing really just chatting.. I miss that dad.. I miss you so much every minute everyday.. It still doesn't seem real to me.. I'll call u tomorrow dad... Goodnight and I love you bunches!!!

Hey daddy it's me again.. It's 9:00 pm on Monday dec29th and I'm just sitting here thinking about you.. I miss you so much dad.. I just don't even know what to do anymore.. My best friend isn't here anymore.. My dad the one that knew me inside and out even when I lied lol you always knew... Donnie came to work today and laid some new carpet in the building.. It looks really good.. Idk how he still does it , I know how u always said years of doing carpet takes a toll on ur body.. But u can't get good help anywhere anymore.. I guess I'm going to brush my teeth and get ready for another day at Frasure's in the morning.. I hate getting up out of bed anymore, it's getting cold outside and that time of year... I hope you know how much I love n miss you dad.. I wish god wld give you back to me.. Goodnight dad and I love you with all my heart and soul

Hey dad it's 9:13 on Sunday night dec.28th and I'm already getting ready for bed... Monday morning comes too soon.. I didn't do much of nothing today. Not been feeling too well again. I went and visited mom for little bit today and played with josh.. He's so rotten and you wld be proud of him.. Talking up a storm lol.. Aunt Dixie passed away last week and I feel bad for not going to her funeral.. But I just can't go to those places anymore like I use to dad... I miss you terribly dad and wish you was with me... Goodnight dad and I love you so much dad

Hey dad it's 10:33 am on dec.27th and today is the biggest day in Kentucky basketball history. Ky is up against Louisville and I pray they win and stomp their ass. I know you will watching and screaming at uk.. Like u always did.. If you've had anything to do with their winning streak this season. I know they will win.. I'll be watching rigjt along with you dad.. I miss you and love you so much dad

Well dad the game is over... And I know now wy u said uk was the best team in the nation... I know u already know bc no doubt in my mind that u were there in the best seat... They stomped the hell out of the cardinals 58-50... Now 13-0.... I just wish I was with you to watch and celebrate when uk takes its all the way to national champs... I miss you more than u will ever know dad... I love you to the moon and beyond

It's 9:46 pm dad and I guess I'm getting ready for bed.. Went out to eat with Tonia, Johnny, Jim and ms. Rebecca.. Lacey missed out n had to work lol she be mad.. I took Rebecca to spend her mall card that Michael got her for Christmas.. She got few pairs of jeans that were cute... Rebecca made A honor roll again dad.. She's pretty smart but u already knew that.. Lacey well she doesn't like school but she is doing good at working... She has a boyfriend now dad.. He seems pretty nice and seems to really like her.. I knowu would give her a hArd time.. Mom is doing really good and everyone is getting along so far.. Olive hasn't been around much.. But mom is doing better with her gone.. She misses you very much too dad.. As we all do... I just wish u was here for me to talk to.. I miss ya dad and can't wait till I see you again... Goodnight dad and I hope your doing ok.. I love you dad!!!

Hey dad it's 9:50pm on Friday dec.26th the day after Christmas and I sure do miss you dad a lot. Exactly a month ago today was the day we were so excited bc they weened you off completely of the bp drip.. I remember crying bc I was so happy and you said to me" honey stop that shit I'm going to be fine and be hope bf you know it"... Dad I wish that was the case.... It's been 53 days and around this same time that Cheryl called me n said your heart had stopped.. At that moment I felt that mine had done the same... You were always so strong and not scared of anything, and took pain more than anyone I know dad.. I'm not right now but I just hope than one day I will become as strong as you were.. The day you took ur last breath you wasn't worried about yourself, you was worried about your family... The greatest man I know and will ever know.... I miss you dad and love you so so much

MERRY CHRISTMAS DADDY!!!! I LOVE AND MISS YOU WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE

Merry Christmas daddy... It's 10:20pm on dec.24th and I just got bk home from being over at your house and Jim's moms house... Over all is was a good night dad.. Still glad it's over.. I miss you a lot dad and the days aren't getting any easier. I just don't know what to do. I just feel like I'm just here.. I don't like being here without you dad... Maybe in time it will get easier but so far no not at all.. I miss my dad more and more everyday.. My best friend my heart.. Goodnight daddy and I hope your doing ok and with me every step of the way.. P.s dad you can come visit me I'm not scared of that kind of stuff.. I want up see you.. I love you daddy!!

Hey dad it's me again it's 9:44 pm on Tuesday dec.23rd... And it's the night before Christmas Eve and I've thought about you all day long... I miss you so much dad.. I miss seeing you and talking to u about my day or what's going on with me.. I miss you dad and wish you was here with me.. My life just isn't the same anymore and a complete piece of me is missing... Goodnight dad I love you beyond words!!

Hey daddy it's me.. It's 8:44pm on Monday night dec.22nd... And I'm getting ready for bed again... I miss you dad and think about you all the time.. I think about what ur doing and who ur there with and how ur feeling.. And I'll always wonder how ur feeling and if your doing ok dad.. Goodnight dad and I love you with all my heart and soul

Good morning dad it's 9:25 on Sunday dec. 21st... And can u believe I'm up bf 11:00...ky won yesterday against ucla 76-35 and are now 11-0 undefeated... I know you've been watching and cheering them on... Their best season by far in ky history.. I can hear you screaming at the tv now when they play dad. I miss you dad and I love you so much

Goodnight daddy... Tomorrow is Monday and work day for me.. Like u always said 5:00 comes early... I love you dad

Hey dad it's me.. It's Saturday dec.20th at 9:45 pm.. And I'm getting ready for bed. I miss you dad. I don't really know what I'm doing or where I'm going throughout the day. My mind always thinks about you. I wonder what ur doing and how ur feeling and if ur even ok at all. No doubt in my mind ur in the best place anyone can be but I still miss you like crazy and want you bk here with me. It's been 45 days since I've seen ur face, held your hand and u hearing me tell you that I love you but dad I sure wish I could see u again bc I wld tell you every second of the day dad. I miss you dad and I can't wait to see you and hug my daddy again.

Hey daddy I didn't get to talk to u lastnight.. I wasn't feeling good at all. I'm going to urgent care this evening. Prabobly getting a cold I'm having trouble getting my breath. I was late for work this morning bc I didn't have you to call n make sure I was up. You called me every morning at 5am to get me up n started. I miss you dad and love you very much

Goodnight dad.. I miss you so much... I love you more than you know

Dad sitting here thinking of you and how much i miss you.Kids kept me so busy dont have time for much else.I want you to know how very special you are to me and always will be.Right now i could use my daddy to talk to.They all expect to much from me i can only give so much.Be my angel and look over me i can use that right now .Christmas is a week away it not going to be the same with you not here.But you are always in my heart now and forever and i miss you every day. Love you dad

Hey daddy.. It's 8:57 pm Wednesday night dec.17th and I'm sitting here in bed thinking about you.. I miss you so much.. I took mom to dr. Garner today and all he talked about was you.. He said you was one of his favorite patients and you sure the hell didn't care to speak ur mind and tell him what u needed and wanted lol.. That's my daddy!! He said he misses you too dad... Everyone does.. You definatley was different dad.. Funny, smart, handsome... All the nurses in Icu always talked about your crystal blue eyes... Oh how much I miss you dad... My life feels empty and incomplete without you here with me.. I just hope you ok dad... Goodnight daddy and I love and miss you !!!

Hey dad it's 10:39 pm on dec.16th... I just woke up from a nap and I'm already going bk to bed.. I've not really felt good today.. Maybe getting sick but I hope not... You always said 5:00 comes early... Goodnight daddy.. I love and miss you so much

Hey dad it's Monday dec.15th at 9:25 pm... It's been 42 days without you here with me and its harder and harder everyday dad.. I had a hard day today just thinking about you all day today and how much I miss you.. I talked to Cheryl today and me her and Tonia are going to drive to Floyd county one weekend and where you were born and what it looks like.. I want to see mamal and papal homer's gravesite .. You know we always talked about going and you know like everything else we never got around go doing it.. I sure hope you up there with them both and they are watching and making sure you ok.. Bc dad truth is I still worry about you dad everyday... I miss you and love you so much... Goodnight dad

Hey dad it's Sunday dec.14th at 8:35 pm... And I'm getting ready for bed.. I always called you every night bf I went to bed and it still feels strange not being able to do so.. I miss you like crazy dad.. I keep thinking about that night in the hospital about what went wrong.. What could have been done differently.. I want to know everything they did and everything they gave you.. I google everything that I know you were on.. I google everything that could have been done before hand.. It won't bring you back and it does not make me feel better.. But I want to know.. Idk dad but I know it's driving me crazy nit having you here with me... I love you so much dad and miss you more everyday... Goodnight

Uk won yet again today dad... It's sat dec.13 and they played against North Carolina.... I watched the game and was talking to you the whole time dad... I knew u was there with me... My little red bird was just chirping away... I miss you dad and wish u was here with me... Uk is having their best season and I hope they make it into the history books this year... I love you daddy .. I will talk to you tonight bf bed.. I love you :)

Hey daddy it's Friday night on dec.12.. I'm just sitting in the bed thinking about you like I always do... I went to the unemployment office today for mom. Remember when we signed her up for winterization.. Well she got approved.. They will be coming in soon and putting in new walls, new heating and air, windows and doors and new insulation throughout the entire house... I'm happy but I also wish u were here to see it.. I know we were suppose to do it long ago but you know how we are... Takes us little bit to get things together... It will help her out alot with the bills... Everyone is doing ok.. Joshua is here and keeps going into ur room and giving u a kiss.. I sure do miss you dad.. I'm doing ok or at least I tell everyone I'm ok... I just can't quit thinking about everything and what could have been done differently dad... Idk I just think in my mind that we shouldn't have let them send u home from the er.. But they r the doctors and they are suppose to know... Nothing will make me feel better at all.. But dad I want to know... I miss you so so much ... I love you dad.. Goodnight

Hey dad it's me again... Just had to let u know that uk won yet again. U already knew that though.. 56-46 against Columbia lions.. Great season dad.. I think u may have something to do with them on a winning streak. Also u remember when u kept telling me to ask Valerie for a raise n I never would.. Well dad she stopped me on her way out and told me she wanted to give me a raise.. I think u helped with that also dad.. I may not make a lot of money but dad Valerie has been really good to me n tonia.. She's done way too much.. And I appreciate it a lot... I miss you so much dad.. I miss talking to you and seeing you.. You mean the world to me dad and I wish you was still here with me... I love you daddy!!!

Hey daddy it's me again.. It's 8:46 pm on dec.10 and I just got out of the bath tub soaking and thinking about you... I fd my old cell phone that had so many pics of me n you when we got up in ur chair last summer... U looked so happy and I was so proad of you... We may not have done everything the docs told us to do...but I think we both done pretty darn good to have gone through all the things that you've done... You were and always will be my inspiration and my hero. The strongest man that I will ever know and I'm glad to say that it was my dad. I miss you more everyday. I love you daddy with all my heart !!!

I'm thinking about you a lot today dad.. I just miss you so much and wish u was here with me... I miss my best friend dad.. Mom is doing ok and we are all getting along n taking care of each other . I know u always worried about all of us. I love and miss you daddy!!

Hey dad I'm here at your house... I took ur flowers and sprayed them n put them into a vacuum sealed bag to keep. I went and got fresh fliers to put beside you dad. They are beautiful and I know you wld like them. U always loved roses and any type of flowers. I miss you so much dad and think about you all the time. There is not a minute that goes by that I don't think of you. I love you dad

I'm sitting here getting ready to go to bed and I forgot ky played yesterday I checked the score and it was 82-49 against eastern ky they are now 9-0..... Dad I wish u was here so I could watch these games with you... Sometime I can hear you screaming at the tv... And I truly believe you are their special angel this season dad. I just finished Teresa the Long Island medium and she was talking about people that have crossed over will come bk in their own way to visit.... Well I talk to you all the time and ask for signs or something letting me know u are with me... I want to take a trip n go see her and maybe be able to talk to you.. I miss you really bad dad more than you know... I love you so so much..

It's Sunday dec.7,2014 and its been 34 days 6 hrs and 30 mins since you've left dad. Today around this time I wld be with you getting ur bath and prabobly cutting your hair and shaving your beard. My life has not been the same dad. I miss you every second of everyday. I'm headed to Walmart to get u some fresh flowers for your flower vase on ur mantel. I can't tell you or anyone else just how much I miss you dad. I love you dad!!!

It's Saturday dec. 6th and I'm here at your house dad. Me n tonia went n got few things to decorate your mantel. Me tonia mom and Lacey did a good job and I know u wld love it. It's definitely done in uk since they r now # 1 so far. I miss you so much dad and it seems to get harder n harder everyday without you. It still doesn't seem real to me. I just hope that ur not in pain and that you are doing ok. I always worried about you and I always will dad. I love you with all my heart and soul.

Sitting here at ur house after work like I always do. I miss seeing you so bad dad. It still doesn't seem real to me. It feels awkward even being here without you here also. I can't wait until I see u again. I love you so much dad

Getting ready to go to bed dad... Ky played again to tonight n I watched the end if it. Dad you have to their angel from above. They won again 63-51 against Texas... They are 7-0 right now and the best season they've had in many years... I know you wld be so excited for them right now but it makes me happy knowing that you are watching in the best seat dad... I can't tell you enough how much I miss my dad. If god gave me one wish it wld be for me to see you and spend little bit more time with you.... I love and miss you so much dad!!

I miss you dad... I love you so so much

I miss you today daddy... More than you know.. And I will never forget you or how much you meant to me... You were and always will be a special part of me... I love you dad to the stars and back!!!!!

Dad sitting here thinking about you and how much i miss you .The babies are really growing wished you was here to see them grow but i know your watching from above.Things have been really hard for me i guess i was thinking my daddy would always be with me and i'll always cherish every moment i had with you. Life is to short on earth god needed a new angel.Miss you every minute dad and will love you always

I've got a meeting today at work dad. You know how that goes. I miss you so much dad. And u wish on everything I love that you was here with me. I miss being with you everyday, giving u a bath, getting a haircut.. You asked me if I wld cut ur hair that morning on the 3rd and I think to myself I should have thought something was off then. But I didn't I always thought that you were always going to be here.. I love you dad more than you know

It's now 12 am on dec.3rd... And it's been exactly 30 days since you left me... It still doesn't seem real. And I still cry several times throughout the day. I still can't believe your gone. And I still try to figure out why and what happened and if there was something that I could have done to prevent it... I think to myself maybe if I would have know every medication they gave you, wld that have been the reason. Idk dad but what I do know is I miss my best friend the only man that I could ever count on for anything. And prabobly the only one. I can't sleep at night bc I'm always looking around in the dark just to see if maybe your somewhere around. I'm all the time looking up at the sky to see if I see a sign or something unusual. I know in my heart that one day you will come to visit me when you feel the time is right. I just want to know that you ok and doing good dad. I always worried about you and I always will. I will think of you everyday and every second for the rest of my life.. You truly were the greatest dad ever.. And I will forever and always love you.

I miss you very very much dad... You've been on my mind all day today.. I miss your voice. Your smile. And the way you laugh. Today has been difficult for me. And I just wish u was here. It gets harder and harder for me everyday. I love you dad

Good morning dad.. I miss you more n more everyday... Uk plays today's at 2pm...I will be watching n hope your right beside me... I love you dad

Hey dad I just got home from your house we all decorated the tree for mom. We r doing your room tomorrow. We know how much u loved the lights. I sure wish u were with us dad. I miss you so much I can't tell u enough. I'm sure u already know that uk won again 58-28 against providence.. Lol you must be their good luck angel this season bc they haven't lost a game yet. I love you dad and can't wait until I see you again. My life isn't the same without you here. I love you more than anything dad and I hope you know this.

It's Saturday and bout the time u call and want me to bring u the thundering herd biscuit from Tudors .. I've not been there since you been gone n probably never will. I miss you so much dad.

Rebecca come and stayed the night with me and she wanted to target shoot.. And we did and she did really good and she loves it... It reminded me of the time u 1st took me out on rt 5 and we used paper plates as our targets. Remember when it was ur turn and u propped a pillow up on the good of the explorer and u went to shoot and u slid sideways bc u had little too much of tater juice.. As u n dr garner would call it.. Dad I was scared to death u was going to shoot me or yourself on accident lol... But I had a great time bc I was with you... I miss you so much and I will never forget all the times we had together... Like the trip to Walmart and u made me put u in one of them scooter.. Too much juice that day too lol.... We were going down isles running into people and knocking stuff down... I told u to slow down and you oh hell fuck 'em lol... I loved those things about you, you didn't care about what anyone thought, you loved life and everything about it.. I will make you proud of me dad.. I love you more than I can say

I miss you dad. I miss your voice calling me . I feel lost bc I have nothing to do nobody to take care of. You thanked me everyday for helping you . The truth is I wouldn't change it for anything in the world dad and I wish you was here with me. And I would do it all over again. I'm not going to lie but u was a handful and stubborn as heck dad. Your 1st day in Icu your nurse looked at both of us and said she could tell that you were spoiled.. And boy was she right. You've done so much for me dad even when I didn't deserve it.. You were always there to help and take care of me. Your the best dad any girl could ask for. I love and miss you so much

I'm sitting here on the computer and I'm getting ready for bed.. I've been reading up on all the medication you were on in the Icu. The level of ur pt and ir.. And some of this stuff just don't add up to me dad. I've got ur medical records coming but I've got to go bf the judge bf they will give them to me. I know doing this will not bring u bk to me. But I just know in my heart you wasn't ready to go.. U went through the surgery and did great but still something just don't make sense dad. I promise I will find out. I miss you dad so much and I know something else went wrong ... I love you dad

HAPPY THANKSGIVING DAD!!!! I hope this day goes by fast bc it's not the same... I love and miss you dad

Hey dad I just left your house and thanksgiving dinner was good... Johnny did an awesome job with cooking all the food... You would be proud of him... And can u believe mom cooked the turkey .. I bout fell over dad... She looked really good and she misses you a lot dad.. As we all do bc it just wasn't the same without you there.. I sat on your bed and ate my dinner and I could swear it felt like u were there with me.. They say as days go by it gets easier but it feels like its getting worse... I'd give up everything just to have you here with me dad... I love you dad and miss you more than I can say

Dad was sitting here thinking of you this morning thanksgiving is tomorrow will miss not stopping by to eat your ham no matter how full i was still had to eat your's.So many things crossed my mind about you lately and it hurts me that you are not here with us this year for the holidays. Will always cherish every moment i had with you.Laughing remembering you telling donnie he could'nt go out with your daughter. But I've got a good husband and father to his kids he said you taught him more than anyone he knew .Dad your always on my mind and in my heart wished i could have you back .I will always love you

Hey dad I just got home.. Took tonia to the dr and of course she has the flu... U know her and her immune system sucks lol... I stopped for a minute and checked on mom and she's doing ok. Michael is taking good care of her. Remember in the Icu room and we were talking about what the doctors were saying and you looked at me and said.. Well at least we will have thanksgiving together honey.. That's what you said and I wish u were here. It's not the same without you at all dad. I just wish all the holidays were over already. I know u wld want us all to be happy and enjoy ourselves because that's how you always was. You would be hurting so bad with your leg but you were always worried about everyone else. I wish god would give us one wish. I would wish to be with you one more day or even a few minutes. My life isn't the same without you here dad. I love and miss you dad !!!

Good morning dad... I made it to work sitting here eating breakfast. Today is the big dinner here at work... I'm going to be wore out after today.. Just wanted to let u know I'm thinking about you and miss you dearly... I love you dad more than you know..